Haiz, finally found the time, i wanted to post this 4 days ago......

4 days ago...
this is IT day that we, the phs pupils hav
its was a whole day of slacking
studying was nearly impossible
espically with the homework social studies
and history teachers gave.
1 word, CRAZY
at least i managed to finish everything except ss
its was not a very gd day to begin with
espicallt when u're alr stuck with the 1st assignment
when i came online.
He asked me whether i wanna go mrs wong's hse
and den wif nothing to do(maple was having server check)
i agreed. i asked Her, but she said she was not interested.
and then He told me that the details are not worked out yet
so later he will come and find me again.
after dunno hw many hours.
He finally told me the details
and being the playful self of me
i invited Her to the conversation
and stupidly asked the same damn ques
though i alr know the answer
Her gave a NO and left the conversation
and He was shy
very very shy
after Her left, He said to me
'look wad u hav done'
lol, and He said something, which i believe
is a sign of courage.
He said, "it was just infatuation, i dun like her anymore"
and my reaction was.U FINALLY ADMITTED IT
though i didnt say it out loud
so at 3.00 laurel gave me a call
and i went to northpoint to meet every1
we are gg to the place where i 1st had a deep impression
of Her
till this day, i still remebered, on the choir farewell
a brown t-shirt and pink mini shorts
haiz, its gd that i can still go back to the same place.
went up to mrs wong's hse and had a few snacks.
went to the basketball court and got owned
haiz, ball games are not my game
played a tiring 2 hours of basketball
can u imagine? 7 ppl playing full court
its crazy, literally
went back up and mrs wong gave us a good $4
its was a big WOW for me.
yea, 1st time go teacher hse get angbao
den so much... haha
went to central to have dinner.
there was this lion dance grp
who were so NOISY and LOUD
and i seriously hav no appetite
but finished everything anyway. crap
went home tired like a dog and got scolding
for not telling my parents that
i was not gg home for dinner. haiz
CRAP
this is a crappy life with a crapper like me

She and Her

On this beautiful friday,
i was happy, on fridays
there's choir and so i get to see Her
but on this beautiful friday, there is no choir
She gave me a ferror rocher, er flower?
i think She knows, that most likely
i wouldn't er, say appeciate(however u spell it)
so i thought of giving it to Her
but then doing that would be very unfair to She
and the good thing or maybe its a bad thing is
She and Her are in the same class
so its kinda bad u know?
ok so maybe u dunno
NVM

the 1st time in my life
i actually moved, or say, taked action
to go after a girl
and this time, its Her
ok maybe its not (this time)
it should be (the 1st time)
i just dunno how to put it
never in my life, i had such a feeling
the feeling of really trying to do something
i really knew
impossible.
going against the odds is not my style
but Her, made me do it

Ren Shi Jian, Qing Wei He Wu?

Chinese New Year Huh?

Well, If u hav been coming, u should hav been expecting.
well, i didn't
i had 1 chance on monday,
2 chance on tuesday
and 1 chance on wednesday
I COULDN'T FIND THE COURAGE
im timid,im feeling ashamed.
i dun even know that much abt her
i only know her height,her brown zinc bag
her cca,that she has a sister which is so like her(in terms of outer looks)
her class,i dun even know who she likes to hang out with,
IM PATHETIC,i admit




Chinese New Year,
1st day,went to dear 2nd aunt's hse and eat
well,drank abit
and lost quite a sun of money...
gambling sucks...
haiz gotta sleep,tml nid to bai nian again...

If I Lay Here, Would I Get The Courage?

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?


4 More Days?4 More Pathetic Days?
Maybe Tomorrow I Will Find It
The Courage I Always Wanted...
wish me luck...

A New Thing,A Living Thing Into My Life...

Whenever i c a brown bag,i take another look
whenever i sees her class,i take another look
it may all be a perplexed look,but at least i took 1
ppl might misunderstand,i do not care
ppl might be inconsiderate,i do not care
with her, i feel my life is lighten
i do not dare to face her,and yet i know
that she's a clever girl
valentine's is coming...mayb i can get enuff courage to face her
who knows...?