因为放弃的那瞬间，一丝希望也没有了。所以总是在心里的某一处继续燃烧着那细小的火焰，不让它熄灭。

Trying to keep emotions in check and failing to do so all the time. Sometimes I wonder if I go over the line, but in the heat of the moment I just can't help it. Maybe keeping a cool head in heated situations is necessary learning objective.

The biggest lie I've ever told myself is that I could freeze my heart. That I could part with my emotions and control them. That I maybe, perhaps, have the slightest chance of not feeling. Its just simply not possible. No matter how hard I try. Sometimes they feel like a gentle Jacuzzi, soothing and not at least threatening. Other times they feel like a wave an amateur surfer would have troubles with. And occasionally, a torrential tsunami. Rendering my control to be nothing but useless.

Apparently there's something wrong with paragraphing. I have no idea why... But let's just say that a split in the road can leave many confused and indecisiveness will make them hesitate too much, and result in them making the two choice between the two. Now I have 3 choices. Great, just great.