Haven't written a mega-long post in a mega long time. Perhaps one tomorrow? If I actually get some insipiration. Haha. Its good practice for essay writing don't you think?

The most dangerous lies are those you yourself believe.

I'm kind of sure I've said this before Maybe in certain part of us, we like sadness. For in pain, comes ecstasy, and in loneliness, freedom.

Thought invoking incident. So one fine day I was watching SNSD on radio star, and Sunny said something very interesting to TaeYeon. She told her not to be so sad, not to feel so sad after listening to sad music(namely ballads). What if, to be a good ballad singer like TaeYeon, that is the price to pay? To be able to sing so soulfully into ballads, is due to the fact that the soul of the singer is sad? Would an ordinary person like me willingly pay it? I mean, singers are celebrities, they do it for various reasons, such as fame and money to quote a few. What about us? What about mortals like me? Does that mean we can never be able to sing ballads well just because we don't experience as much sadness? Do we need to be sad before we can sing a sad song?

In the heat of the moment, we have approximately a 50% chance of making a right decision. However, once we hesitate, we lose even that 50% chance. Experience will help, but ultimately its what we think at the split second that will solidify our decision. Sitting back to consider the situation calmly is a luxury for people like me, and I'm not guilty to say so.

If there's going to be a 2013 new year resolution, Mine shall be to continue being a tryhard in everything I do and if possible, try even harder!

Its that time of the year again. Back when I was young, the me I imagined was nothing like the me I am currently. Was it because I was naive when I was young or have I really just failed terribly in life beats me. What I do know however, is that regardless or being 5,10 or 15. I shouldn't be in this position when I'm twenty. Young ambitions given up upon the slightest unsolvable problems. Now which direction in life am I looking at, I have no idea. It is as though whatever the teachers said about getting to what you want to become meant nothing. I take a close look at the me now, its agonizing. While others have either excelled in one thing or the other, I find that I am just average. For everything. Others have found that one thing they are good at by this age. And have ambitions and work hard towards it. But I am just left behind thinking there is nothing good that I can do that is worth investing my future in. I thought I was smart. Apparently not. The other thing I discovered in this cruel life, is that working hard is a talent. People have said that if you can't do something well, put in effort, work hard for it and you too, can excel in it. We all believed it. What we failed to realize is that not everyone can work hard. It might not seem so hard to get down to run ten kilometers everyday when you completed your first ten. But its always maintaining that's hard. Its easy to suddenly study for ten hours at a go. But how often, how many times can one do it? A hardworking person? Maybe 5 times a week, an average person? Probably 2-3 times a week. Pitiful me? Probably none. This is not a world I'm suited to live in. Sometimes I feel that I should experience the stress-free environments in places no one knows me. Where I have to do work, purely, purely because I have live. Where If I don't work I can't get meals. Maybe then I will work hard?