Learn, Learning, Learned

I am a strange person, i seem to notice things but am always too lazy to go and care about them. Just like the incident yesterday, its like so crap? Noticed that Mrs Lim went the wrong way but did not really care about it until she surprised us. So stupid right? arh wadever. Well, the only reason why i brought this subject up again is because i noticed something during the Taman Negara Camp but was too lazy to 'investigate' and know i knew the reason... its like so slow la. Getting so damn emo after listening to the song 'Here Without You' and reading someone's blog. Which was also how i know the reason. I am just so pure weird with a fixed boiling and melting point. I noticed She was carrying a towel in the chalet and inferred that she was going to take a shower when i realised she wasn't walking towards the toilet. Felt so strange... Realized after so long, so many days after the Taman Negara Camp, that She actually went to the swimming pool's toilet to take a shower instead. Felt so stupid la. Grr, I hate the feeling of stupidness(is there such a word?). I don't know what this feeling is, its like, everything that concerns her, i want to know... And i just kinda went out of control because im pulling myself back when i am hungry for the knowledge. In the end, i just seld-destructed myself. Its doing more harm then good, its like forcefully pulling a leech outta your leg. Just so painful, so sad.

Snooker Practice

I've been practicing for 3 days straight, ever since school holidays started... went on monday with banglian, went yesterday with ming chuen, went for solo today... Stepped into school and was waiping AGAIN... these 3 days that i went to school, i seem to see her EVERYDAY... No joke. Well, saw ms top scholar and realised that today have CO... perhaps won't be so lonely... sms juinli to confirm and confirmed. When i realised that no one was in the snooker room, went back down to collect the key and got a scolding... the security guard was furious with the snooker people and he used to be a pro too... he said that all keys are supposed to be returned by 6pm... no joke. On monday, i returned the keys to mr chin at 3-4pm cos i couldn't find him at 2.30pm and i had choir practice, so have to return the key to mr chin during breaktime... And unfortunately, mr chin was having lower sec PTC... and apparently he returned the key after 6pm... Yesterday, i locked the door at 6.30 and passed the key to Ming Chuen... so apparently he also returned it after 6pm, well, guess that's why the security guard was so angry with me, though the previous times are not borrowed by me... but well, we're the same 'organisation' aren't we? after 5 mins of nagging, i finally got the keys to the snooker room and went up again to the snooker room, saw Miss Scholar for the mid years and realised that there was most probably CO practice today, maybe sian liao can go find them chatchat... Smsed JuinLi to confirm and confirmed... wondered if she could come and find me when her breaktime comes because i was already very very sian when i finished practicing for an hour... i became impatient and it became disastrous... balls that i normally have no problem in scoring were all missed, got even more impatient and just anyhow hit... decided to rest awhile and calm down and well, it returned to my normal state again. when i finished 1 long game myself, JuinLi turned up... with Stacy... JuinLi kinda demanded me to teach her how to play snooker and seriously, i couldn't la... 1st, she was a girl lo... I don't really like it when girls play snooker... because girls tend to -censored- when they play snooker, because they have to bend down, but JuinLi was different, well she was kinda 'stiff' like i was when im dancing =P.(that's why i don't dance) so she couldn't really bend down =P... Stacy just sit there on the table and watched us... it was like so funny la... she was laughing at JuinLi sometimes because she didn't like to bridge herself and hit, so she was carrying the rest around and used it to hit the balls instead of brigding herself... so it was damn funny can. especially when cushion balls came, how you use rest for cushion balls???And so it was hilarious, but on the whole is was disastrous, i couldn't hit the balls in easily and my hand was hurting like hell la. Played quite long and i realised something. Why can they be in here for so long huh? 2 explanations, CO practice ended or they pon. And guess what, they ponned... so bad la... but it was already nearing 6pm when i realised that, so the security guards called my handphone... vibration can't really be felt when you're playing snooker... so there was this miss call and the security guards were unhappy with me for not picking up their calls. So Sorry =P. Wanted to go to woodlands to buy some bread from Prima Deli because my mum told me to buy them, she had a $8 voucher and expiry date was 5th June... JuinLi asked me why i want to go to woodlands because she saw that 1 of the shops was in yishun lo... so its nearer right? ok lo, go yishun buy, don't waste money take MRT go woodland. Was waiting at the MRT station for Miss Kong when Mrs Janice Lim came out from the MRT... i was like, Oh My God... quickly told Stacy and JuinLi that Mrs Janice Lim is here and they were going with 'where?where?' Well, Mrs Lim came to greet us and i gave her a extremely plastic smile... the kind that i only use on teachers =P. She said that she is returning to the school after something... i think is meeting la, not very sure, then she walked towards the toilet. And i was wondering... Isn't the school on the other side, why is she walking towards the toilet? And Miss Kong arrived. she said Stacy & JuinLi made her look like an idiot and blah blah... whatever can? come in interrogate me le, so mei li mao. she was going with, 'why are you doing here?', 'why you tempt them to go play snooker?' Kinda irritating but didn't say it out, must give her face. And Mrs Janice Lim burst from behind saying 'NICE HANDPHONE!' referring to the one Miss Kong's hand. It was damn funny la, felt kinda stupid because i was the only one there who wasn't affected. The girls was like, 'wah scare me' while i was like 'scary meh?' hmmph, maybe its because im retarded. When back to yishun and realised something, the supposed to be Prima Deli turned into a 7eleven... WOW? crap, now im gonna get scolding again. Haiz, i don't blame JuinLi la, seriously, she was only trying to be helpful and im grateful for that. Thanks Anyways =P

Doctor's Appointment & PTC

Had doctor's appointment in the afternoon... was supposed to meet my mum at around 1.15, was horribly late =P, so sorry... well mum was kinda angry but hurried with me to the Health Development Board... took my measurements... realised that i've grown shorter... make no sense right? now im jus a mere 178 =P.... waited for this doctor that looks kinda old(no offence). But her office was huge, the kind that principals have, even have a bookshelf stuffed with books, at least this was the good part...

Well, this doctor spoke english, but i kinda cannot catch what she was saying, wonder why... perhaps i was not only blind, perhaps im deaf too =P... Mrs doctor asked for family conditions, like whether any of my family had the same problem... then Mrs doctor realised something... my arms seem to be very long... then she asked with a had perfect eyesight... which of course not, im blind, remember? but Mrs doctor was wondering why i didn't wear specs =P, then she realised another thing... she said my hands are TOO BIG!?!?!?!? then she went on saying that these are some systoms of possible heart problems... just like our dear senior minister, i realised that our senior minister had heart problems, but is cured now, so Mrs doctor was worried that i may develop heart problems too, she requested an X-Ray on my hand, er its the first time i had an X-Ray ON MY HAND?!?! so it was kinda weird, and Mrs doctor was mumbling about what cardiologists and specialist and whatever whatever... kinda made me worry for a few seconds...
Took the X-Rays and they cost additional charges, thanks to the hand X-Ray... Crap! realised that my usual problem is nothing big, but a another new problem arised... have to change lotsa habits to prevent it from worsening... haiz, went back to school early to practice my snooker... my hand is still hurting from the monday practice and the match with Ming Chuen was disastrous, well i eventually lost, and i admit it... 20 points, i lost by so much, so there wasn't really a small gap, 20 points is quite a big 1 wor =P. Supposed to meet mum for PTC at 6.30.
went down the canteen at 6.35, late again... cos i had to lock the door and return Ming Chuen's bag to him, he kinda left it inside the room, got another scolding from mum, about being late twice in the same day... So sorry la =P.

PTC was another disaster, had no sense whatsoever, when i saw the damn it report book, i expected myself to fail already, because i failed english, but when i saw the score... i can jus really cry lor, its like so crap la... 49.3%... because of the 0.7% i had to fail my whole mid years... its like so crap la! there's no logic whatsoever lo... its not like i didn't study at all... its just so unfair, realised i failed another subject that i shouldn't have failed... Chinese, %?, 49.4%... ITS LIKE SO CRAP LA!!! its unbearable, and surprisingly, i still got a 58% for my average... even though i failed 3 subjects... realised that i failed my a maths in the common test, so even when i got a A1 for my a maths in the mid years, its still added up to a 69.1%... haiz, i hate the number '9'... always like that de =P... wished for no more disasters which was literally impossible la, when you're down, everything just come at once, and the pressure is kinda big =P, im still trying to say things that are so that worse in a very light and easy tone... defitenely not a sad 1... Realised that the only woman or rather girl i fear is the top scholar that has an average of 77.8% i think, its like so 'omg' lo, kinda felt that it was right to fear her=P. My mum finally got to see CPL... (stands for Miss Choi Pei Ling)... and my mum kept talking about how to improve my english and things like that, and CPL jus answered, 'More Listen, More Read & More Write'(in chinese)... and my mum was like, 'ting dao le mei you!'... yea yea, whatever, its a 49.3% & 49.4%. And my mum went on to saying that i play too much computer at home, seriously la! i damn buay song when she say that la, ever since march holidays ended, i didn't touch maple, i seldomly touch dota, and she claims that i play too much computer? unreasonable la, ask any1 la, ask my neighbours whether they c me online in maple, ask zk they all la, whether i didn't paly dota with them, EVERYTHING, everything came AFTER the mid years lo, i returned to mapling, returned to dota, AFTER the mid years lo, so its like so unreasonable that she said that la!!!, feel so yuan wang... zzz, no sense at all, well in front of CPL, i didn't really want to show too much of my emotions, decided to keep 2 emotions only, 1st, a smile... a very plastic 1, 2nd, no emotion at all, these 2 faces carried me through the 3 minutes that CPL talked with my mum... little do i know, the true disaster, is at home...

reached home, everything seemed so peaceful, but its just the scenery before a storm, when the storm comes, it ain't so calm and peaceful anymore... It all started when i went to my neighbour's house, well, i kinda love going there as my neighbour is also in PHS, and also taught by CPL, so talking to him seems so much easier and relaxing, i needed to release the stress after all right? well, i went at 9pm... and at 9.43pm i was summoned back home... and well, guessed how i was summoned? my mum was shouted from my house, MY NAME, and very loud lo... my neighbour confirm all hear de... hurried back home to face the storm & c'mon, i wasn't involved when the storm started brewing la, i went back when the storm already came... my mum was like arguing with my brother over this mid year results... sibei buay song... the 3 of us, me, my mum, my brother, all v buay song... my mum was scolding and scolding... i teared... looking so lang bei, but not at the scoldings... but at what they fail to see... my average was 58%... frankly speaking, the first time i get so high la, but what did they see? english fail! = not good... and i still recalled that my brother praised me for improvement last year for getting a average of 55.9%... so indeed its so crappy... and yet they fail to see, my common test was crap la, i tried to improve by putting in some effort for my mid years, i tried to stop gaming.. and yet, all my efforts comes down to this? crap la... seriously crap... then my mum wanted me to borrow books from the library... and asked me when i was going to school today... i told her 'dunno' and she apparently was very unhappy with the answer, where got training dunno timing de? what kind of training is that? but that wasn't what i was angry with, i was angry with the fact that my brother said, 'DUNNO THEN DUN GO LA'? how inconsiderate? im having a compeition here and there they are, trying to stop me, i've always known this cruel fact, but everytime i will try to hide it... but now, i do not care anymore... the fact that my family is my greatest obstacle in my life... the fact that they are the ones who really hinder my progress, its impossible to live, when you have to be on red alert everytime you're at home... when you're living with people and that actually your enemies... people outside however scary they may seem, they're nothing compared to an enemy at home, people that know your habits, people that know your style of doing things... and hence to counter that, i never ever behaved the same way in school and at home... and until now, my face is still red with the tears that flowed yesterday, the unreasonable world that i live in... and they claim this... 'why are you crying? i scold you got wrong issit? i scolded you wrongly issit?' little did they know, they really wronged me... false accusations all over, i bear with it because i respect them, i respect authority and that is why i obey, when i lose my respect, i won't hesitate a single second to fight back, for that is what i strongly believe it.

Snooker Compeittion

i've been notified.
there is a snooker compeition in july.
the 4th, and we are going to participate in it.
its hard... its seriously hard, the comments and everything
even before we enter the compeition, i can already foresee the results
and i feel uneasy about it, we have a weak team, a team very very weak
in fact, the strongest 3 can't even hold a finger to the last year's batch
last year, we got a 1st runner-up... this year, we may get only a COP
and imagine what will happen when we return back to school...
the whole snooker team understands this, we are too weak for compeitions.
We are prepared to lose even before we start. That isn't good, at all.
We have a month to prepare, but how many people will come?
It is the june holidays now, most likely, i would be the one there, practising
the others might not even care... I worry, i do, how disgraceful?
How embrassing is it? for a runner-up last year to not even win a match.
I may not be the team's captain... but the fact is, there isn't even a captain
Ming Chuen, Clarence & Me... the 3 strongest in our team
May not even score a single point against the pros out there
The rest of the team and seriously not up to standard
however offending you may think im trying to say
think about it, five sec 3s and one sec 2
perhaps we could survive 3 matches... the match of the 3 of us
but the other matches, i seriously gave up hope...
except for that sec 2 boy... he still has some potential
He is accurate, but his weakness cover them all.
and unfortunately, he is the strongest of the sec 2 batch
this year is crap enough, 2 years later... when we're gone
snooker club really can close down already, unless dear mr chin finds a coach
perhaps we are the only team in the whole compeition that came.
That came bravely... without a coach there, only a captain
or perhaps not even a captain... How pathetic? you may think
Lang Bei...... But to give up hope was never my style
we still have 1 month, i will make sure we win at least 4 matches
instead of the pathetic 3... I Will Strife!!!

Finally I Can Post Something, Think Some1 Helped Me Solved This Problem

Finally, returned from the 'taman negara camp' in malaysia
quite an irony though, its named 'taman negara camp' but the whole trip
only half a day in taman negara, out of the whole 5 days
so we should jus call it a pahang camp instead... well who cares anyway

The first day was good, bus all the way from singapore, bus and bus and bus
got a little boring but chose a good spot on the bus, thanks to someone...
good for me and the guy who sits beside me known as lim ming chuen
well, i must say i had a better place cos i took the outer seat and could talk easier
i was surrounded by girls, literally, every corner every side
there's sheryl and waiping in front of me, japphire behind me on the left
on the right, there's xitong and yuhyan, jiaqi and yihui, juinli and shermin
during the long long bus trip to the Tekam Resort, we stopped 3 times
toilet breaks for everyone, so that they would hav the nature's call on the bus
realised that Agape, Blessing, Grace and Faith was going to the cave 1st
instead of bunking in with us in the Tekam Resort... Well at least Endurance was here
had basically nothing to do as it was already evening when we reached
tai dee all the way, even on the bus itself... cos it was really too boring...
hope u could guess who are my opponents in tai dee on the bus(look on top)
nightime activity on the first day was kinda boring if u didn't know how to do it
which unfortunately i dun... weaving... sounds like woman's business to me
haha... and i slacked throughout the damn session cos i didn't do a thing
ended up with vines and leaves while others have beautiful weaves...
the plan i had was to sleep thoughout the whole night in my bunk
unfortunately, that was impossible, other people 'sleeping' in the bunk was talking
and unfortunately, they attracted mr. julian lau's attention...
and came knocking on my bunk's door 5 times...
pity joey, kok chin, ming chuen and myself for having to suffer that
without causing any noise at all... harrison came by asking for some1
i asked him whether he wants to take a walk since i couldn't sleep anyway
which eventually turns out to be a very good thing
i went into the integrity's bunk for tai dee and eventually slept there
so much more quiet and easier to sleep... i knew i made the right decision

The second day was not bad either, had to move off to taman negara...
first climbed this bukit teresek, which i think means mount teresek
i loved the trip up although it seriously requires large amount of energy
i was forced to stop and rest for a while during the whole trek
but everntually reached the submit, siyang and ming chuen gave up
they both stopped at the last 400m... the scenery up the mountain was beautiful
seriously beautiful, no joking, defitenly better view than the bukit timah 1
the trek down however was even more 'fun'... had kinda big difficulties
managed not to fall down at all though, which was quite gd cos lots of ppl fell
walked through the canopy walk which was quite a big challenge for me
my fear of heights was known by the whole 2 integrity and 3 humility was surprised
they dun seem to believe some1 as tall as me could be scared of heights...wadever
i liked the canopy walk however, its something that once u stepped out...
no more turning back, die there if you have to, so it was kinda fun
i walked behind mr chew, which was quite challenging, he was heavy
real heavy, i was swaying behind him... every step of him shook the 'brigde'
he allowed me to overtake him at the tower...only to torture me at the last part
i walked slow and steady and when i almost reached the end
he was to come running like a gorilla and made the whole 'brigde' sway so much
after the trek and the canopy walk, was the activity i ranked 'most fun'
the rapid shooting... it was a water activity which requires YOU to get WET
AND requires YOU to try and get the OTHERS to get WET
joey sat beside me and infront of us was mrs lim and her 2 sons
i dunno how to spell their names but i think is eaten and e-earn...sounds like that ok?
so off we went into the sungal tembeling... for the rapid shooting
the 'guides' encouraged us to spray water as each other and created rivarly
through what? by spraying water at us... the technique is simple
when your boat is fast, placing a finger in the water forcefully...
causes water to be sprayed up forcefully... and the 'guides' uses their oars
so imagine the waves that came towards me and joey, besides that,
eaten, kept forcefully putting 1 finger into the river, when its an area,
you can control the direction of the water spraying...
but when its just 1 finger, it sprays to the back, and both me and joey were drenched
plus all the rivarly spraying from the other boats,
both joey and i were sitting in a pool of water up to my belly button... no joke
throughoutly wet, drenched from every single angle... very fun and irritated
well, at least this was more fun than those man-made entertainment things you can find in 'wild wild wet'... agreed? if you went for the rapid shooting, you'll agree...
was damn tired due to the rapid shooting and slept in the bus...
when we reached the cave, i realised that it was raining...
the next instruction was... take your bags and rush to the cave
some idiot told me it was a 5 minutes walk, so i had to wear my only poncho
realised it was a 30 second sprint and wanted to beat that idiot up.
night walk was fun, we're supposed to hav one candle for 1 whole group
and tried to walk a distance of about 1km i think... perhaps more...
i was the one who held the candle and walked all the way without looking
all i could see was the flame, i couldn't c the roads and relied purely on the people behind
they say 'right!' den i would move more to the right...
'left!' and more to the left i would go... kinda irritating, not used to being a puppet
at last 400metres or so, i decided to play a small trick which unexpectedly...
no one was scared... i decied to blow out the candle! with a trick.
a trick that made everyone think it blew out by itself... HAHA!
well, of cos i didn't make any sound as i expected it to blow out
but wad was unexpected was that none of the group members shouted
and i was surprised... even the guides behind were surprised
well they kinda saw through my trick as they said
'dunno is they purposely blow out the candle or what, they didn't make any noise when the candle went out, stay orderly and as a group... displayed a good regulation of rules'
(the above was not the exact speech, but was how i interpret it)
had a good night sleep with no interuptions... the people ytd very far away... haha
but apparently i snored abit too loud... siyang said he couldn't sleep...
thanks to me(SO SORRY!) and ming chuen was abit more exaggerated...
esp when he wasn't even in my tent, he said he heard a bear...(funny? laugh lo)

The third day was 1 fun day too, requires quite a large amount of energy though
this was the first time i tried abesiling, and on a cliff, instead of on a flat surface
to me who is damn scared of heights, it was a challenge that was overcomed
i seriously was only thinking of 1 thing during the whole abesiling...
and that is, to quickly get it done with, though i still did it comparatively slow
next was the caving, which was very very fun, seriously(diff ppl may not think so)
we had to climb up and down, high and low, squeeze through small holes
and i oftenly had to bent down due to my height, and ppl were cheering
for wad? for saying that being short has it's advantages too... o wadever
but the caving part requires something that can help you alot
LONG LEGS!!! while people have to squeeze to find a footing
i could jus step on it... haha... too bad for short people =P
went back to the dear Tekam Resort and realised that Integrity was not there
realised that i may not be able to sleep again, due to my bunk's activities
LUCKILY... Grace & Faith was there... so was Agape & Blessing
had to learn knots during the night for the next day's rafting...
i seriously dun fully understand... i mean i do, but i dunno when to apply
decided to bunk in with the Faith people, in that bunk, there was a mix
60% Faith, 30% Grace, 10% humility(percent estimation)
decided not to sleep which eventually did...
slept on the wooden bed... which was actually very comfortable
in contrast to the common thinking that a mattress was needed.

The fouth day, the day which everyone was expecting the night
i wasn't... i was expecting the flying fox and the rafting...
i, who mentioned at least 2 times that i am scared of heights...
was going to face another high rope activity again... kinda crap though
i was like, OK, choing arh, get it done with but then ended up chickening out
haiz... Nah, jus kidding, i did chicken out, but at last decided to giv it a try
and realised it was kinda sian as compared... cos it was slow...
14 seconds for 100m... world class sprinter could beat that...
next came the rafting... 33 ppl, 3 groups, 11 each group
had 6 girls and 3 guys in the start... but the teachers was unhappy
ended with 5 girls and 6 guys... kinda stupid, we traded away a nice girl
but came back with 3 slackers... kinda irritated... at least the girl could cheer
the 3 slackers can't really help much and refused to go down the water...
irritated us all and end up the person who contributed the most...
and had been wearing his last pants has to go, Gregory... wad a hero
juin li came down too... even with a bee sting on a hand...
waiping came down, even though she was the knots 'expert'
ming chuen went down, since a fifth person was needed
the fourth was me, since i didn't do much and had extra clothes
if you counted... the remaining others couldn't come down
11 people, 5 in the water, 6 remaining... 3 slackers
3 remaining... yihui, xitong and jiaqi... jiaqi was injured, yihui was looking after her
xitong had a problem which i do not wish to mention, i dun hav the right to
jus thinking about this made me mad, i jus felt that the 3 slackers seriously !@#$
but the raft turned out to be fine, it didn't collapse, and its the 1st time(for me)
i was happy and forgot the grudges, till i reached home... lol
night activity was playing 'cheat' in the Faith's bunk(the 1 i slept in)
we were all waiting, for the glorious moment to board the bus
after the bus, to board the train, after the train, to board the trip to home
gathered at 10.40 in the 'parade square' and got scolded, the whole bunch of us
for littering in the bunks and making them damn dirty...
the original plan was to board the buses to the train station at 11
in the end, the scolding finished at 11.30 and we were kinda late
for the bus though, cos the train was sceduled 2.27 and it was early
as in, early when we reached the train station, about 12 plus only
and so we waited and waited for the train to come and when it finally did
everyone was happy and gay and wanted to board the train as fast as possible
so it was kinda fast, the speed of everyone on the train... haha
the train trip was long........ very very long........
count... 2.27 start... reached at around 11am the morning... so damn long la
but everyone was excited, as excited as before the train came
everyone was waiting for the moment to alight the train and go HOME
i wasn't really affected as i didn't mind going home late
there was nothing at home to do anyway, ended off the camp with a custom check
and den im in my home sweet home now... haha

oh crap, i ca't seem to type anyhting in the post button, so sry arh

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