Doctor's Appointment & PTC

Had doctor's appointment in the afternoon... was supposed to meet my mum at around 1.15, was horribly late =P, so sorry... well mum was kinda angry but hurried with me to the Health Development Board... took my measurements... realised that i've grown shorter... make no sense right? now im jus a mere 178 =P.... waited for this doctor that looks kinda old(no offence). But her office was huge, the kind that principals have, even have a bookshelf stuffed with books, at least this was the good part...

Well, this doctor spoke english, but i kinda cannot catch what she was saying, wonder why... perhaps i was not only blind, perhaps im deaf too =P... Mrs doctor asked for family conditions, like whether any of my family had the same problem... then Mrs doctor realised something... my arms seem to be very long... then she asked with a had perfect eyesight... which of course not, im blind, remember? but Mrs doctor was wondering why i didn't wear specs =P, then she realised another thing... she said my hands are TOO BIG!?!?!?!? then she went on saying that these are some systoms of possible heart problems... just like our dear senior minister, i realised that our senior minister had heart problems, but is cured now, so Mrs doctor was worried that i may develop heart problems too, she requested an X-Ray on my hand, er its the first time i had an X-Ray ON MY HAND?!?! so it was kinda weird, and Mrs doctor was mumbling about what cardiologists and specialist and whatever whatever... kinda made me worry for a few seconds...
Took the X-Rays and they cost additional charges, thanks to the hand X-Ray... Crap! realised that my usual problem is nothing big, but a another new problem arised... have to change lotsa habits to prevent it from worsening... haiz, went back to school early to practice my snooker... my hand is still hurting from the monday practice and the match with Ming Chuen was disastrous, well i eventually lost, and i admit it... 20 points, i lost by so much, so there wasn't really a small gap, 20 points is quite a big 1 wor =P. Supposed to meet mum for PTC at 6.30.
went down the canteen at 6.35, late again... cos i had to lock the door and return Ming Chuen's bag to him, he kinda left it inside the room, got another scolding from mum, about being late twice in the same day... So sorry la =P.

PTC was another disaster, had no sense whatsoever, when i saw the damn it report book, i expected myself to fail already, because i failed english, but when i saw the score... i can jus really cry lor, its like so crap la... 49.3%... because of the 0.7% i had to fail my whole mid years... its like so crap la! there's no logic whatsoever lo... its not like i didn't study at all... its just so unfair, realised i failed another subject that i shouldn't have failed... Chinese, %?, 49.4%... ITS LIKE SO CRAP LA!!! its unbearable, and surprisingly, i still got a 58% for my average... even though i failed 3 subjects... realised that i failed my a maths in the common test, so even when i got a A1 for my a maths in the mid years, its still added up to a 69.1%... haiz, i hate the number '9'... always like that de =P... wished for no more disasters which was literally impossible la, when you're down, everything just come at once, and the pressure is kinda big =P, im still trying to say things that are so that worse in a very light and easy tone... defitenely not a sad 1... Realised that the only woman or rather girl i fear is the top scholar that has an average of 77.8% i think, its like so 'omg' lo, kinda felt that it was right to fear her=P. My mum finally got to see CPL... (stands for Miss Choi Pei Ling)... and my mum kept talking about how to improve my english and things like that, and CPL jus answered, 'More Listen, More Read & More Write'(in chinese)... and my mum was like, 'ting dao le mei you!'... yea yea, whatever, its a 49.3% & 49.4%. And my mum went on to saying that i play too much computer at home, seriously la! i damn buay song when she say that la, ever since march holidays ended, i didn't touch maple, i seldomly touch dota, and she claims that i play too much computer? unreasonable la, ask any1 la, ask my neighbours whether they c me online in maple, ask zk they all la, whether i didn't paly dota with them, EVERYTHING, everything came AFTER the mid years lo, i returned to mapling, returned to dota, AFTER the mid years lo, so its like so unreasonable that she said that la!!!, feel so yuan wang... zzz, no sense at all, well in front of CPL, i didn't really want to show too much of my emotions, decided to keep 2 emotions only, 1st, a smile... a very plastic 1, 2nd, no emotion at all, these 2 faces carried me through the 3 minutes that CPL talked with my mum... little do i know, the true disaster, is at home...

reached home, everything seemed so peaceful, but its just the scenery before a storm, when the storm comes, it ain't so calm and peaceful anymore... It all started when i went to my neighbour's house, well, i kinda love going there as my neighbour is also in PHS, and also taught by CPL, so talking to him seems so much easier and relaxing, i needed to release the stress after all right? well, i went at 9pm... and at 9.43pm i was summoned back home... and well, guessed how i was summoned? my mum was shouted from my house, MY NAME, and very loud lo... my neighbour confirm all hear de... hurried back home to face the storm & c'mon, i wasn't involved when the storm started brewing la, i went back when the storm already came... my mum was like arguing with my brother over this mid year results... sibei buay song... the 3 of us, me, my mum, my brother, all v buay song... my mum was scolding and scolding... i teared... looking so lang bei, but not at the scoldings... but at what they fail to see... my average was 58%... frankly speaking, the first time i get so high la, but what did they see? english fail! = not good... and i still recalled that my brother praised me for improvement last year for getting a average of 55.9%... so indeed its so crappy... and yet they fail to see, my common test was crap la, i tried to improve by putting in some effort for my mid years, i tried to stop gaming.. and yet, all my efforts comes down to this? crap la... seriously crap... then my mum wanted me to borrow books from the library... and asked me when i was going to school today... i told her 'dunno' and she apparently was very unhappy with the answer, where got training dunno timing de? what kind of training is that? but that wasn't what i was angry with, i was angry with the fact that my brother said, 'DUNNO THEN DUN GO LA'? how inconsiderate? im having a compeition here and there they are, trying to stop me, i've always known this cruel fact, but everytime i will try to hide it... but now, i do not care anymore... the fact that my family is my greatest obstacle in my life... the fact that they are the ones who really hinder my progress, its impossible to live, when you have to be on red alert everytime you're at home... when you're living with people and that actually your enemies... people outside however scary they may seem, they're nothing compared to an enemy at home, people that know your habits, people that know your style of doing things... and hence to counter that, i never ever behaved the same way in school and at home... and until now, my face is still red with the tears that flowed yesterday, the unreasonable world that i live in... and they claim this... 'why are you crying? i scold you got wrong issit? i scolded you wrongly issit?' little did they know, they really wronged me... false accusations all over, i bear with it because i respect them, i respect authority and that is why i obey, when i lose my respect, i won't hesitate a single second to fight back, for that is what i strongly believe it.