If there's just ONE thing I'm absolutely sure I didn't do wrong. Its joining basketball in YJC. Some people think its a big change from a relatively ah gua CCA (choir) to a super hiong sports CCA like basketball.
I do agree its a big change.
But a good one.
Friendly game later. NAPFA was awesome. Other than the pull-ups, which was just crap. Probably just an E. Awww screwed
Broke my personal records for 2.4, now standing at 11minutes 14 seconds! ^^ Broke my record for shuttle run thanks to danny's tip, now at 9.7 seconds hehe. And last but not least, broke my record for Standing Broad Jump. 1st A for jump ever, 1st C for 2.4, uber excited ^^
Happy and glee~
Its 2am and I'm cursing your name. Cause I won't get proper sleep with you running through my mind.
Saturday, March 06, 2010
Friday, March 05, 2010
So cyanide isn't everything in life to me.
Despair can overule my happiness any time of the day. Sadness can't be described.
Yup we won the friendly, but I lost to myself. I lost to my old self. I never ever won the me in the past. That is I never improved. I can't surpass the old me. I can't get better, stronger, higher.
It hits me like a bullet train, straight in the face. And I barely able to stand it.
Plunge into further abyss with the added on A'level results. Sure ben did awesome, 6th in YJ and everything. Pushing me into a spot where it is inevitable that my parents would use that against me. All I have to do is wait for their nagging.
Yet I'm lagging in my studies. Ms Ng was shocked when she saw me standing like... AGAIN. Yea I haven't been doing my work, haven't been training up to standard. Haven't been the best, or anywhere near it.
Chinese results just suck k. C for chinese.
I need to get up there, such great heights.
Drinking cyanide that I couldn't to fill my empty heart. Yet all it does is harming my body parts.
Despair can overule my happiness any time of the day. Sadness can't be described.
Yup we won the friendly, but I lost to myself. I lost to my old self. I never ever won the me in the past. That is I never improved. I can't surpass the old me. I can't get better, stronger, higher.
It hits me like a bullet train, straight in the face. And I barely able to stand it.
Plunge into further abyss with the added on A'level results. Sure ben did awesome, 6th in YJ and everything. Pushing me into a spot where it is inevitable that my parents would use that against me. All I have to do is wait for their nagging.
Yet I'm lagging in my studies. Ms Ng was shocked when she saw me standing like... AGAIN. Yea I haven't been doing my work, haven't been training up to standard. Haven't been the best, or anywhere near it.
Chinese results just suck k. C for chinese.
I need to get up there, such great heights.
Drinking cyanide that I couldn't to fill my empty heart. Yet all it does is harming my body parts.
Thursday, March 04, 2010
Nothing much going on in the past few days, so no long long posts. Haha.
The incoming weekend however, would be kind of disastrous. I know this opens up for people to stalk me but I'm still saying it(since 1st: hardly anyone reads this, 2nd: who wanna stalk me?).
Tomorrow, which is the big time friendly against CJ. This time against their full squad. Probably twice as powerful the last time they've been here. NAPFA test on saturday morning, needa nail those speed down, stretch hard, and pull to my max.
Only to have a friendly game in the afternoon.
Hahahaha, I gotta be superman! To survive this weekend that is.
Yea, needa find the hole, get into it, make my presence felt. If I'm just any average guy, then no one would pay attention to my presence, which worsens things for me.
Unless my friends understand that I'm a good sneaky guy that works incredibly well when people don't guard me cause I go behind their backs, find my spot, take the pass, make the shot.
Girls reading this would probably find it boring to the max. Haha. That's cause you ain't reading deep enough.
Maths test is a screwed up one. Probably on the line. Maybe pass on the dot? Or fail with 1 or 2 marks. Doesn't matter. Its been a great day =). And I still managed to get my luxury sleep. Haha. Even though there's GP essay to do )_(
Getting really really distracted in class.
Either I'm thinking of basketball plays all day long in class, or I'm thinking of cyanide. And it comes naturally. I can't stop it. I just listen to the teachers attentively then suddenly, out of nowhere I'm thinking how to defend that idiot who faked me totally off his offense.
Epic randomness, maybe I'm turning into a girl.
The incoming weekend however, would be kind of disastrous. I know this opens up for people to stalk me but I'm still saying it(since 1st: hardly anyone reads this, 2nd: who wanna stalk me?).
Tomorrow, which is the big time friendly against CJ. This time against their full squad. Probably twice as powerful the last time they've been here. NAPFA test on saturday morning, needa nail those speed down, stretch hard, and pull to my max.
Only to have a friendly game in the afternoon.
Hahahaha, I gotta be superman! To survive this weekend that is.
Yea, needa find the hole, get into it, make my presence felt. If I'm just any average guy, then no one would pay attention to my presence, which worsens things for me.
Unless my friends understand that I'm a good sneaky guy that works incredibly well when people don't guard me cause I go behind their backs, find my spot, take the pass, make the shot.
Girls reading this would probably find it boring to the max. Haha. That's cause you ain't reading deep enough.
Maths test is a screwed up one. Probably on the line. Maybe pass on the dot? Or fail with 1 or 2 marks. Doesn't matter. Its been a great day =). And I still managed to get my luxury sleep. Haha. Even though there's GP essay to do )_(
Getting really really distracted in class.
Either I'm thinking of basketball plays all day long in class, or I'm thinking of cyanide. And it comes naturally. I can't stop it. I just listen to the teachers attentively then suddenly, out of nowhere I'm thinking how to defend that idiot who faked me totally off his offense.
Epic randomness, maybe I'm turning into a girl.
Tuesday, March 02, 2010
Monday, March 01, 2010
I know I should've gone for the kill, grab hold of every opportunity possible so I won't regret. But sometimes, I feel that I rather regret.
Weird personality eh?
That's me. Monday's always been awesome, but not this particular one. Other than the usual monday blues everyone suffers, its always cleared when I see things that light up my life. Play the ball game I so loved.
Even kena elbow by chin yang straight in the face I also felt that it was okay. First because we're friends, second because I know he didn't do it on purpose, third cause I understand that bball is a really physical game in which elbows fly.
Chin Yang did not do it on purpose, what if the people in A div did?
Well the good thing is, after taking the whole blow, I recovered in a few seconds. Was fine, no bruises no nothing, good to go.
Maybe, when the same thing happens in compeition I might be lying on a stretcher instead. Maybe on my way to the hospital if the opponents get really mean. Maybe I really cared about my own safety deep down. But on the surface here, I'm willing to risk it.
I am going to be great, awesome, and better.
Self-motivation, self-hypnotising. Haha.
Guess I calmed down a lot from saturday night.
Weird personality eh?
That's me. Monday's always been awesome, but not this particular one. Other than the usual monday blues everyone suffers, its always cleared when I see things that light up my life. Play the ball game I so loved.
Even kena elbow by chin yang straight in the face I also felt that it was okay. First because we're friends, second because I know he didn't do it on purpose, third cause I understand that bball is a really physical game in which elbows fly.
Chin Yang did not do it on purpose, what if the people in A div did?
Well the good thing is, after taking the whole blow, I recovered in a few seconds. Was fine, no bruises no nothing, good to go.
Maybe, when the same thing happens in compeition I might be lying on a stretcher instead. Maybe on my way to the hospital if the opponents get really mean. Maybe I really cared about my own safety deep down. But on the surface here, I'm willing to risk it.
I am going to be great, awesome, and better.
Self-motivation, self-hypnotising. Haha.
Guess I calmed down a lot from saturday night.
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