Her and Her again

im going to greg hse soon... its his BIRTHDAY!
so b4 i go i decided to write a short post... (i hope)
i must say after yesterday, i feel even more paranoid
im getting even more suspicious, i hope its not true
but im jus worried, from wad i c it is...
i must say, Her look really good when she's on heels
she seriously beautiful, even with only a choir tee
and when she buns her hair, she dun look bad
seriously, i am very impartial when im saying this
sadly, like always, i feel that she is trying to avoid me
maybe im jus paranoid, maybe im jus suspicious
but if i nv think long enough i will never write it out
in normal terms u would say she 'dao' me
haiz... i know she knows, i havent tell Her
but some idiot must have told Her alr
expected la, but the response was unexpected
i havent told her face to face and i dunno how to do it
but in this kinda circumstances i dunno whether i can
im trying, seriously, but everytime in front of Her
im speechless, my mind will be in a blank
mayb i seriously should change my approach...
maybe i should jus look from 3metres away, leave Her alone
perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.........................................................
i will say 1 last thing
I WILL CARRY ON!

The sadded guy

I am a person living in 2 worlds
for those who watch 'bleach', i am like Kurosaki Ichigo
1 who carries the responsibility of 2 worlds
like Ichigo who carries the responsibility of a shinigami
and a human, i carries the responsibility of maintaining distance
between this 2 world. if this 2 world so unfortunately meet,
it would be like anti-matter and matter meeting...
for those who are good in science, u will know that it means
a huge 'explosion' that will destroy ALL matter in the radius
alike to a atomic bomb, except that anti-matter destroys
everything, including air and earth...
these 2 worlds, briefly speaking, are my family world
and my school world or shall i say social world
that is also the sole reason why the punishment i fear the most
is actually teachers calling my parents...
this is the process which can link up the 2 worlds
wad i do at home, i nv do it school at all
and wad i do it school, i nv managed to do at home
i would seriously double up the punishment in school
den to let my parents know wad punishment im taking up
If u are also leading a wretched life like me,
i believe u would understand, but if u dun
u NEVER will... its the sad story of a sad guy
im sure you people have seen the advertisement
of the singapore navy which says
' if your life is a movie... would it be a good 1?'
i dare say that my life is a movie, it would be 1 of the best
it would make so many people cry,
it would make singapore famous for its movies
i also realised that 1 of the punishments for skipping class
is that the parents of the student would be informed
if only you could imagine the horror i faced at that moment
when ms choi said that, but of cos,
my expression didn't give me away... i so used to acting alr
and today this wretched life of mine tortured me again
i confess, i dun wan to let the teachers call my parents
i even plucked out the phone line.
but today i forgot to do it, and guess wad? ms choi didn't call
mrs janice lim called... fortunately, or mayb unfortunately
i wasn't at home and unfortunately, my dad wasn't at home
my mum wasn't at home, my sis dun pick up phones calles
basically because she told every1 who wanted to contact her
to call her phone instead of the house phone...
so that leaves only 1 person... haha guessed it?
my brother picked up the phone................
well i guess i dun nid to write anymore, u could imagine
wad horror i faced when i returned to the house
so i said on top that i wont mind haivng double the punishment
because, basically, my family would gave me the same punishment
perhaps, even more... so by maths equation... u could c this
let school punishment be x
let family punishment be y
x=y, x+y=2y, x+y=2x
so i might as well have 2x since it equals to x+y
see the logic? Haiz, sadded

Skipping Lesson

If u still remember... i've said that i skipped lessons from the last post
and i've also said in the last post that the next day i go back to school
Siao liao de, well, i must say i have the foresight... to know that im dead
the next day i went back to school, which is yesterday.
mrs janice lim called us up during assembly... she caught us...
told us that we're in big trouble which is true... skipping lesson is crazy
punishment for boys is caning... for girls is suspension...
wah damn scary, i was kinda glad though, cos she gave us a chance
told us to write a report about wad happened...
i wrote it seriously and gave it to her through Sze Hoe
but she was unhappy because the letter was wrote in such a way that
i seem to be blaming the teachers instead of acknowledging that i was
wrong... i dunno leh, i read myself but dun seem to be blaming teacher
but then maybe i too careless le, offend people also dunno
well u can help me decided... i wrote this
"i did not recieve any further instructions but was told to return to classes immediately by my classmates"
i think mrs janice lim feels that im blaming my teachers for not giving me
further instructions... well she was at least kind enough to let me re-write
so during this morning's 1st 2 periods... ms tang finally didn't come
and i made use of the time and managed to complete the report...
recess time let Mrs lim see... den she told me to re-write again...
i did not explain why i changed the story... basically, i did not really change
i jus wrote "i was told to return to class immediately by my classmates"
basically, i jus did not write the "i did not recieve any further instructions"
so i had to re-write it again... fortunately for me again...
mr tan bak seng( did i spell it wrongly?) didn't come too
so i had another 2 periods to finish up the 3rd report...
finished it up during the 2 periods and this time, she accepted it
i was sooo damn happy... at least no nid to re-write again
actually i got alot of thing wan to write de but because of this incident
it spoiled my mood and i dun feel like writing anything now... subimasse

VCH rehearsal!!!

let me began with the most compo style of opening
This morning, i went to school feeling very exicited.
we are going to the Victoria Concert Hall to practice
for our Singapore Youth Festival... This festival is a
very weird 1 as it is a festival and yet there are judges.
Ok back to where i started... went to school. sian sian
all i think is about VCH and i saying sarangheyo to Her
couldn't really concentrate and the maths was HARD!!!
wonder how people actually survived this kinda 'crap'
lesson was over and i felt that i didn't really learn much
not mr tan's fault but its all mine, seriously couldn't concentrate
went for english although junhao told us to go off and pon english
but then hor, i so guai, where will pon 1?
ms tang let us off a little early anyway so i was at the canteen
because the music room was closed... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
didn't see junhao outside music room, didn't c him at the canteen
in the end, he said he went for english and his teacher let him off
later then us because it was ms cynthia yeo which was a choir teacher
realised that this rehersal was not the shoe 1... sian out
going to go up the bus b4 i realised that no consent form,
need parental letter or call parent on the spot. i called my mum
realised she was out on teabreak... told mrs wong reached VCH
den i call her cos its the same whenever i call her since she alr knew
but then, i of cos forgot to call my mum back when i reached VCH
as a 2nd row bass, we stood through the whole rehersal
until the part before practising walk-in, out
den i got to sit down, wah damn siong, sing all the way
throat also bei ta han and alot of people were coughing...
bad air? or bad atmosphere, i will never know
finally after 2 hours of serious practising
we were dismissed, but then we held miss yee back
tomorrow is her birthday!! got some1 to play the birthday song
on the piano and the whole choir sang her happy birthday
den later the pianist played 'you raise me up'
and almost all the basses forget the lyrics of the 2nd timebar
we didn't practice... it was too sudden, we didn't even know
went back to school and on the bus ride, i was half fighting
and half sleeping. huge contrast right? im a extreme person
fought with jonathan for the 1st half of the ride
slept for the 2nd half, damn tiring leh, fight with jonathan
like riding a strong mad horse... wonder where he got that energy
reached school and wondered why no1 was playing in the field
realised a cruel true that school has not ended yet. its only 1.45pm
realised that the next lesson is Social Studies...
i thought when we come back sure school end liao, so no bring bk
den now siao liao, sure tio scolding... Sze Hoe encouraged us to pon
i was faced with a dilemna, i dun wan to face the teacher but then
as a very guai boy, i also dun wan to pon leh, how huh
realised that the other choir people from my class all pon
den if i dun pon, they sure die de ma, bo bian pon lor
tml go school sure siao liao. went to music room and slacked
slacked until bell ring with a lot of guilt, haiz mayb i really really
should not pon, nvm, no use crying over split milk.
wanted to play soccer den it rained... so bo bian go home lo
and that's the story why im here now in front of this com.
Haiz dunno why leh, beside Her makes me hyper
its not the 1st time, on choir days too, just thinking about Her
makes me hyper enough to go crazy...
and for idiots who still dunno who is Her
this is the biggest hint i can give

Idiots Love Catching Happy Irritatingly Annoying Gypies Enthusiastically Kind
if this 1 u still cannot guess den i also cannot help u liao.

Wedding Dinner

Yesterday night, i was at grand plaza park hotel
attending the wedding dinner of the my cousin which i forgot his name
well stepping inside the hotel, it felt like a high class hotel of at least 4 stars
went to the grand ballroom and saw all the aunties chatting loudly
the air con was very cold i was freezing...
the dinner started at 8.30 pm, and i was hungry...
relived to see the first dish and within 2minutes
everything on the plate, including the decorations of it
were in the stomaches of 1 of the 10 of us
we were the fastest in terms of speed
the first dish, oftenly known as the 'cold plate'
was very delicious, but there is 1 problem, the chopsticks
are so !@#$% slippery that is was almost impossible to take any food up
especially the food in the 'cold plate' as
there were fried food which was oily, jellyfish, which was slippery
mayonise prawns and fruits were were impossible to take
for the 8 of us among the 10 that was sitting.
i was the youngest among the 10 and the next person closest to my age
is 33 this year... so i was oftenly referred to a small boy which didn't
suit me very well. since it was a wedding dinner, and my table were full of adults
its no surprise that half of them was drinking wine.
so well, i drank some too. and it was red wine.
my whole family are bad drinkers and the guys of my family
had the heredity thingy of getting very red in the face
whenever we drink alchohol, no matter the amount
well, my cousins pushed a cup to my mum and she said we 'share'
then i sipped slowly every now and then until 3/4 of the wine
was in my stomach... my mum couldn't drink...
and i was feeling ok, as alchohol increases blood circulation
and hence my face was so damn red that every1 i knew teased me for it
saying hmmz, not 18 yet right, why drink wine arh!!
my mum finished the rest of the 1/4 and then ordered another cup
abit lame right? haiz couldn't help it...
then she jolly well knew she couldn't drink too
i couldn't really drink anymore because every1 told me to stop
say i scmi liao, but then i am seriously not drunk
only face red until like dunno wad(i didn't have a mirror)
poor mum, she had to drink the whole cup and had
the same consequences like me, but then, nobody really cared
people just thought she put blusher...wth man
this wedding couple, are the types which i would call mushy
they kissed EVERYTIME they meet, wah siong man
maybe you would call it loving, but to me its mushy
it set me thinking, after all its a wedding dinner
i am 1 person who seriously think too much
i thought and i thought and i thought and i thought
and i was so occupied during the whole wedding that
i only noticed it was 11.30 when i reached yishun
i didn't notice the fatigue that was coming to on me
I THINK TOO MUCH

sick 2

er... i suddenly forgot wad i wanted to post...
but i'll try my best and remeber... here comes!
well i guess i fergot to mention in the previous post
that during recess i went to the library to blow air con
before gg dwn to the soccer field... and used the com
when the librarian returned me the ez link card
i didn't put it into my wallet immdiately but instead
left it dangling in my pocket...
well when i was at the bus top, with greg
i saw my bus coming, and went up to que up!
den later while taking out my wallet(without my ezlink card)
my ez link card dramatically dropped out, and 1 being a sick guy
didn't notice it dropped out, and went to the bus
tried to tap but no sound came out, searched for my pocket...
of course there was nothing there so quickly calmed dwn
er i dun think i was worked up in the 1st place, er paid the fare
and sat down on a seat thinking throughly where i could have left it
well obviously i couldnt think of any place so i was thinking
how and when and wad the the plans to replace it, instead of
thinking how to go back and find it, weird man i am huh?
well reached home and realised that greg smsed me to tell me that he is holding
my ez link card when i dropped it at the bus stop, he scared i panic
den get more sick... lol wad a good friend...
reached home sleep sleep sleep
sleep seriously cures the person, i am 1 weird person
who doesn't believe in doctors and nurses
i believe that the body is able to heal itself
and well i guess i was right!...

sick

yesterday, i woke up at 6am feeling very unwell
dragged myself to changed and quickly went to the kitchen
took out the dear thermometer and took my temperature
38 degrees! wah i think that's wad people call a high fever
well, in normal circumstances, i wouldn't go to sch
but not ytd, i wanted to see the 4 girls and make my guess
i wanted to see Her! i wanted to prove to myself
that my will, that a human will, is strong...
even on the bus ride, i knew i couldn't really make it
it was too much for me, nevertheless i didn't turn back
i reached home, survived assembly, and went for maths
fortunately, for me at least, mr tan didn't come
and the whole of 3humility went to the library, slept
cool, woke up feeling abit better, realised that
i hadn't do ms tang's homework rushed through it
managed a small reflection, survived her lesson
fully awake... thanks to the maths lesson
after that i think it was recess and drank a cup
before going out on the field, they were playing soccer
i went on the field, didn't really played with them
just jog abit when i needed to and just enjoyed the wind
it was refreshing... went to bio class and on the way
went pass ms prudence lim's homework.
saw Her, i think wad she gave was jus a pure little smile
but for me, i was quite energized or shall i say revitalised
unfortanetly, it was only for 20mins, which is gd for me alr
managed to survived 20 mins in bio class b4 really losing it
slept the rest of the class and headed for chinese class
mr ssm refused to allow me to sleep, so i tried my best
to survive his class, which i did, which also made me so tired
i couldn't survived 5 mins of ss... had to sleep... seriously
i woke up when i heard Her voice, quickly looked around
saw Her ''running'' and mrs janice lim asked me
why am i awake... er well of course i cannot say i heard her voice
so i decided not to answer and... my class answered for me
their answer was: BECAUSE SCHOOL END LIAO!
haiyoo, heck care so much la...
went home and SLEPT... bro coming... gtg
nxt time den cont

I PASSED!!!!WOOHOOO she did too!!!!

well i arrived at the school very excited...
wah 2nd round, cannot fail
promised myself to do my best and 'prayed'
for Her, we were doing warm ups when ms yee
began writing the names down
in the 1st batch, i saw my name, i saw Her name
can't believe it? its too much of a coincidence
but it was too my advantage isn' it
well, at least that was what i thought
i was standing right beside Her
and its making me even more nervous
joel was my partner this time, he had a weakness
he couldn't sing loud enough, but at least,
he could hit the notes, well i couldn't, im tone deaf
so we began with the bad news of ms yee not playing the piano
instead, they're going to use the cd player
den after 2 minutes of fiddling, they couldn't operate it
so ms yee decided to play the piano after all
everyone was relieved and just when ms yee is about to start
the cd player is working...zzz
that threw me into total nervousness
i couldn't think, at all
i sang wrong notes, everywhere, i screwed up so much
i endured and managed to sing until the bass solo
and i realised something, my legs are shaking....
i cant believe it, its the 1st time in my life
where my legs are shaking, omg?
and coincidencely(however u spell it), the verse was
'my heart was shaken with tears, and horror drifted away'
my god? and then i went out of the music room feeling
so tensed that i just sat there for 2 minutes
thinking wads going to happen next.At this point of time
i seriously believed oh im a goner, but i believe joel is worse
he is paired up with a screwed up senior like me
ms yee decided to only report the results after choir practice
so i had to keep my feeling, put up a brave front
and just contiune with life, siyang was also having a hard time
he came out as hopeless as me, haha
well then i had to wait impatiently for choir practice to end
and finally the results are going to be reported
1st ms yee started with the girls and i sincerely
'prayed' that Her name would be called out
well of her section, i saw ms yee's mouthshape
and hurray! she passed!!!!
now its my turn, and i passed too!
abit puzzled, dunno why leh, like i shouldn't pass 1 leh
the leaders refused to tell me why i passed...zzz
but nvm i dun blame them, a pass is a PASS!!!
now on this day, He told me that He dun like Her anymore
well i mean He told me before but my point is
He now like another girl!!! hmmzzz...
and he refused to tell me who it is...
well at least he gave me some hints and i found out
that there are 5 choices, so the chance of me guessing it correctly
is 20% hmmz, i gonna c who they are on monday and make my guess
well i dun really understand why he dun wan to tell me
in this wretched world of mine
i only trust 7 persons fully and i feel that i could share any secrets
because they are trustworthy enough
and these 7 persons will defitenely not say it out.
well He is 1 of the 7, so its leaves 6
well this 6, 3 are my neighbours but 1 of them is in PHS
so that leaves 4 in PHS, who can spread out the secret, which they wont
well in this 4, only 3 knows He, and this 3, only 2 is in choir
and in this 2, only 1 is a male... so there is totally no reason
why He shouldn't tell me THAT secret...

2nd round, must pass...

later, at 11am, i shall be having the 2nd round auditions
i clearly understand the consequences of failing.
i know that failing is not even suppose to be considered
i know that me failing will cause 4 girls at least
to fail with me, i'll be dragging others down
wad i'm afraid most is that im going to drag Her down
i wish that i wouldn't fail, and that Her would pass
for the best of us, i shall not even get anywhere near Her
only quietly looking, listening
i hope that she can wish me good luck before i go in
i hope that she can be in the same group as me
i hope that she will not fail with me.
that's it.

i pledge from this day forward:
No mapling after the march holidays until june
no dotaing unless some1 asks me to
no deliberate of not doing homework
concentration on studies SYF and Her only

i Shall:
only speak, when spoken to
answer, when asked to
ask, when need to
chat with Her, only when i want to

(everything applies after the march holidays)

Hate And Jealousy

Haiz yesterday i was driven out of the bedroom
because i forgot to close the windows of the bedroom
and unfortuanately it rained... zzz
well then by brother's bed, which was next to the window
got awfully wet, and i was outside playing basketball.
so i got scolded, especially when i arrived at home 7.30
so when my brother left the house, i shifted the mattress
to the study room and placed a very good position
even had a good fan blowing up and down my body
the feeling was damn song...
but for this feeling to be damn song... i HAD to lock the door
because if my brother came in suddenly, the door would
bang so hard on my head i think i would end up
in the damn hospitals... so i decided to lock the door
and then my brother came back as expected
wanted to open the door but couldn't(well it was locked...)
then he knocked on the door and i opened it for him
and he ask me why i locked the door.
it was 12 that time and i had choir at 11 so i didn't want to answer him
i only wanted to sleeeeeeepppp
and then he came in and gave a scolding...
zzzz on wad? on me locking the door
he said wad can be normal people dun wan
wanna be theif for wad, dun like to face the light
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i felt so infuriated
i have this feeling for at least 1 month already
i have this feeling of trying to win my brother in everything
i dunno if this is hate or jealousy but i jus wanna win
i dun wanna let him look down on me
which i believe he is, cos im still shorter than him
i wanna win him!!!!!
i wanna have a better career than him
i wanna have a better wife than him
i wanna have a better car than him
i wanna have a better house than him
i wanna be better in sports than him
i wanna be better in gaming than him
i wanna be taller than him
i wanna be stronger than him
i wanna win him!!!!!
i can't stand this burning ambition

1 good song about me is this jap song

Syf auditions!

Well yesterday, we had our syf auditions
and unfortunately, i was... er say very sad...
well i wasn't very sad, jus that abit anti that day
and didn't really looked up the whole day
70% of the time looking down. Haiz
30% of the time looking straight.
Haiz. well i was paired with alwyn(did i spell your name wrongly?)
(sry if i did)!
so i was like... ok lo
and miss yee had this habit,
dunno if you'll call it weird, that is to eliminate 1 of us
everytime we took the auditions...
so i was with alwyn and its either he failed or i failed...
very cruel right? aiya used to it le...
well that day i wasn't really concentrating
and kept thinking about some problems...
so i wasn't practising all along... well when i saw everyone
trying so damn hard to pass this audition
i felt that we choir really had good people
especially the sec 3 altos, damn hardworking
heard that they found out where their mistake was
and seriously worked hard on it
but there was this problem that when they tried to do
it by themself it would always be the right note but
when doing it with the other sections it would
always go wrong, hmmz funny huh?
all the while, Her was practising and i didn't had a chance
to really get less den 1m away from Her.
well Her was practising hard too
and i didn't talked to Her
of course! how can i talk to Her if i didn't get less
den 1m away from Her?
well i at least wanted to shake Her hands and wished
Her good luck.
then there i was waiting and waiting for the chance
when i finally gave up, its impossible, I THOUGHT
i just tried to test my faith, and said( to myself)
"if Her is going to be in the same batch as me, i would be serious"
(its up to you to define wad the serious means, i dun care)
well i was in the second batch and i went in immediately
when the 1st batch came out
and then by dunno wth she came in too
i couldn't believe it, i decided to accept it
wished Her good luck before she went to the position
well sang quite well, i believe but alwyn was
obviously better... you would know things about there
and then finished and came out sitting very near Her
wanted to say... eavesdrop on her...
found out that she did quite well(thats wad she said)
and then sat there all the way, as distracted as previously
was called in the 2nd time, have no idea why it is so
but think that i failed already away so mayb this is
the second chance that miss yee graciously decided to give me
but then, unfortunately... lewis SMS me while i was singing
and of course i was distracted and stop singing altogether
i mean, i am not blaming him, it was an accident
but i jus felt that this accident is too much of an co-incident
heaven is trying to play me off.
well went back to the music room for the results
jolly well knowing wad will happen to me
i jus want to know Her result.
well miss yee said that those who failed this 1st round will
come back for the second round on friday on 11am and those who passed come at 12noon
so miss yee said out the names and i heard mine(of course)
and unfortunately heard Her's
Haiz, heaven is trying to play me till i die
now he is even playing with Her
she tried her best, i could c that, i didn't
hence i deserved it, she don't
well i had to give Her a smile when i saw her walking out
well she smiled back i was relieved...
but not for long.
i SMS Her and gave and so call cold joke
this is wad i wrote:
see you on friday, 11am
well she replied:
Haiz.. yup
and i was laughing, i also dunno why but i was jus laughing at the message
well i jus replied Her saying that she really tried her best and not to worry
but she replied this which made me worried:
it doesn't help anymore le.ty for what u've said.u'll sure pass on fri de. :)
now this to me is not a good news at all
it is to me a very sad thing that tells me that she's sad.
hope that she can be better tml when i see her.
Haiz

I've jus recovered from the depression, only to be hit by another 1

WARNING: THIS ARTICLE WILL TAKE UP AT LEAST 10MINS OF YOUR TIME DO NOT ATTEMPT IF YOU DO NOT HAVE THE TIME
so im so so so sry
i've been studying for the whole week just to prepare
for the a maths test
but unfortuantely
i still felt hopeless when i saw the paper.
anw, it was a good day, at least b4 the exam
i finally am less den 10cm away from Her
i finally held Her hand
well, more like shook her hand
but i always kept my distance, sooo well...
and btw, i have to say this
it was meant to be obvious!
i wouldnt giv details if i didnt wan it to be obvious
anyway, i felt a great sense of hopelessness when i saw the paper
and the best thing is, im at ques 2 when 45mins have passed...-_-"
o crap, so its like i can choing 5 ques in 15 mins
wow? im impressed, i didn't believe it, i had to
well den sunday came and a very interesting drama happened
let me specify

characters in the story:
big sis(of my mum): 60
2nd sis(of my mum): 58
3rd sis(of my mum): 57
4th sis(of my mum): 55
my mum : 53
cousin : 33
me : 14
so basically im here with a bunch of aunties
who are going to lao yu shen
hmmhmmhmm
now this drama all happened because of chinese new year
which is exactly the reason why they are gathered
they are gathered to celebrate, which ended up er.. say disgracful
btw... they told me not to tell any1
so i typed it out
1st, this gathering is going to be my 4th sis(of my mum) to pay
so we started with the yu shen of cos...
and den the 3rd sis(of my mum) suggested eating some vegetable
or wadever it was, which was not TOO expensive
BUT very not worth it
its like eating fried egg for $1
you'll get the point.
so my 4th sis(of my mum) was so not happy
that she said this(in hokkien): very bo hua, u want order
u pay urself la!
den i felt a sudden coldness betweem tje 4th sis and the 3rd sis(of my mum)
wah sha si hen zhong!
but then when it comes to eating...
everyone was merry and gay( u know the meaning)
and den....
when it came to the most dramatic part
er.. which is the bill paying...
this innocent er.. say lady who came to collect the bill
was faced with a very embrassing situation
my 2nd sis(of my mum) and the big sis(of my mum) and my cousin
are TRYING TO FIGHT FOR THE BILL
oh omg? den the poor lady was faced with 2 aunties and 1 man trying to stuff 2 $50
notes into her hand... so its kinda embrassing
well, my 4th sis(of my mum) practically sit down and said take hers
referring to my 2nd sis(of my mum)...
so... the poor lady finally decided to take the money from my big sis(of my mum)
and well, everyone had to accept right?
WRONG! after she left, the most dramatic thing
that i have ever seen in real life happened.
my dear cousin walked away! and just before he ran out
he left 2 $50 notes on the table...
so... er.. its like a damn awkward thing.
well, we had to go our separate ways to go home
and still remember the 3rd sis(of my mum)?
she was walking with us AND she said
aiyo hen diu lian leh, ni bu yao gen bia ren jiang
hen pai seh, dou shi da jie la(referring to the big sis(of my mum))
kay kiang, qu fu qian. wo ben lai qiu yi jing ba qian fang hao le
jun pei gai de, mei xiang dao da jie qu gai
zhen si de, xiang le dou jue de paiseh.
and i was like WOW! every1 wants to pay the bill huh
er not my 4th sis(of my mum) la
BECAUSE, my mum said she wanted to pay too
o crap! i cant imagine wad were they thinking man!
OK, episode finish



back to monday, wah monday 8 people from 3h never come leh
record sia, 2i also not that bad b4
and den hor, ss very sian
7 people pass nia, and guess hw much i got? 4/30
cant believe it? me too, accept the facts, face the music
and then when mrs janice lim asked for the chap 2 notes
18 or 19 of us didn't manage to do it
including me, i clean forgotten about it
so she said go out and sit in 2 rows and do them now
seeing the amount of people outside was quite say, funny
20/40 people were outside
12 were inside
8 were absent
crap, how come we can be so siao 1
that will never happen to 3e

and then today haiz, finally saw the a maths paper
die like siao...
study 1 week still fail
1st time in my life leh
study and fail normally is study wont fail
or dun study also wont fail
now is study and den fail...
zzzzzzz
sometimes i seriously wonder how long i can still go on
since last year when i saw the combination result
im been suffering from depression and yet
pretending all the time when im in school or when people who know me is around
having just recovered, i was stroke with another 1
i really feel that i couldn't take it anymore
haiz, yi bo wei ping, yi bo yu qi
haiz, mum nagging again, gtg
i could have write longer if i had the time.