Today is a bad bad day. And it struck me early in the morning
I was walking into the school gate with my usual earliness and the security guard stopped me. Felt kind of puzzled but waited for him to make his speech. He said that we forgot to off the air-con in the snooker room yesterday. Like huh? Is that even possible??? I remember seeing Ming Chuen offing the left air-con and i instructed mr darren and felix to off the right one. And i remember they don't know how to, so i told them press what button. And now im accused of not offing the air-con?!?!? Like what the hell! Mr. security guard said the OM was very angry and wanted to see those responsible... And i of course im the one responsible la... Siao liao. Was expecting Detention Class or School Service to come knocking on my door. Was told that the OM called an auntie to go up to the snooker room to off the air-con.
Sitting in the parade ground beside siyang, i was thinking about how im gonna explain things man, i mean, its like, mr chin told me to be responsible and make sure the air-con is off... Now siao liao lor. And while thinking and thinking... I remembered something terrible. I forgot to bring my thermometer!!! Its like OMG? Siao liao la, thats another few hours of Detention Class knocking on my door. What a day man.
Went to the basketball court to take our temperatures and leslie lau was funny lah. He said mr tan lip sing made the whole class remember to bring thermometers and everyone brought except him the day before... And mr tan especially reminded leslie to bring today, AND HE STILL FORGOT... LOL. After a long 20 minutes of waiting, the sec 3 people were finally done with the temperature taking and the lower sec already begun their run. Jaws just dropped when i saw them run, thought the teachers say no punishment, punishment is the 50 cents that we paid for the thermometer cover?!?!?
End up still need to run... Haiz... But at least i quickly finished the 10 small rounds that we were instructed to run and quickly returned to mrs lim class and got scolded >.<
For being late... At least i try to get back to class fast right... End up still tio scold, haiyoo.
Chinese test was kinda crap. Always have 30 marks worth of those irritating hanyupingying words that i always lazy to study. But this time i studied for it but end up only got 10 marks worth... Bluff my feelings arh... But luckily out of the 10 marks worth, i know how to do 8!!! so can pass de. And feeling confident man... well, until i turned the page. The zao ju seemed so easy and i made a sentence out immediately, but then when i tried to write it out... I found out that i dunno how to write the words!!! AHHH!!! siao liao la... in the end anyhow choose words that could kind of replace those words that i dunno how to write. Which caused the beautiful sentences that i made up to become utterly ugly. Comphrehension is crap. haiz, scared i fail sia... i dun wan to fail liao, i dun wan to fall liao, i wan to start climbing liao... Grrr
Went for maths after recess and remembered i didn't pack in my a-maths book in!!! Oh oh... Die liao, heard that the new punishment for not bringing textbooks is star-jumps... ended up with 30 star-jumps which i admit i cheated, i only did 20 =P. But mr tan tell us to do 5 more... So is 25, just cheated for 5 only, wont die de la =P. Modules is crappy... abit out of the logic and im a very logical idiot who can never think out of the box...
Ms CPL didnt come during CF period and we slacked it off... was fooling around with puzzles... lol, deprived childhood sia(I meant myself). Someone wanted to tell me a secret so i lent my ear and there comes a 'smack!'. I got slapped >.<
Okay la, its not a hard one but its still a slap... and this person slapped because i accidentally threw something that ALMOST hit he/her. Was wondering when was the last time i got slapped and didn't return it and realised, there was no such cases... lol. This is the 1st time i got slapped and didn't return it.
A sincere heart is all it takes to love a person
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Yesterday
Yessterday was the first day of the week and straight in the morning i felt something was wrong >.<
realised that i lost my PE shorts... haiz... Ended up running laps during PE lessons... Sianz man, someomore spent $5.50 buying 1, AFTER i ran the laps... Most of us were enjoying the lesson because we were given the freedom to choose whatever sports to play. The teacher is nice except for the punishment part. And he claims its not punishment. 'Training' he says... What the hell...
Choir after school was fun... Especially since i've been trying to hit high notes all the time and returning to choir practice and hitting damn low notes is fun. Realised that siyang has a damn low voice range =P. I can hit notes that he couldn't!!! Unfortunately choir practice was short... 4.30 dismiss le... And he said he was not coming... However... He did come after all and choir practice ended at 4.45 instead!!! Thanks to Miss Anne Kang's wedding... The people who are participating have to practice... So sacrifice our time lor >.<
She has to call teacher, so we waited outside the staff room at the stairs there. And chatted. He was telling me about the o'level' chinese oral and the subject was kinda crap? Although i feel that his response was kinda good, he insisted that he 'li ti'(go out of point). Whatever. So he was saying saying and when he stopped to raise another issue with me, i kinda ignored him so he pushed to later than say... I was more interested in the oral ma =P. I think she gave up looking for the teacher, so she came towards us and he was again trying to raise the same issue...
He :'chi-'
Me :'what you want to say!what you want to say!'
Because we both saw her walking towards us. So obviously cannot let her hear right? So quickly fine excuse to cover up la. Best way to do it, take whatever weapons avaliable and hit the person talking while scolding him/her. Clever right? thank you. But the only avaliable weapon i have at that time was the score... so i roll it and hit his head =P. While saying 'what you want to say!'. Think she was a little puzzled but did not raise any objections... Heng arh... I must have appeared as a bully >.<
People who can only hurt me physically are stupid
People who can hurt me mentally are clever
People who are able to hurt me emotionally are geniuses.
realised that i lost my PE shorts... haiz... Ended up running laps during PE lessons... Sianz man, someomore spent $5.50 buying 1, AFTER i ran the laps... Most of us were enjoying the lesson because we were given the freedom to choose whatever sports to play. The teacher is nice except for the punishment part. And he claims its not punishment. 'Training' he says... What the hell...
Choir after school was fun... Especially since i've been trying to hit high notes all the time and returning to choir practice and hitting damn low notes is fun. Realised that siyang has a damn low voice range =P. I can hit notes that he couldn't!!! Unfortunately choir practice was short... 4.30 dismiss le... And he said he was not coming... However... He did come after all and choir practice ended at 4.45 instead!!! Thanks to Miss Anne Kang's wedding... The people who are participating have to practice... So sacrifice our time lor >.<
She has to call teacher, so we waited outside the staff room at the stairs there. And chatted. He was telling me about the o'level' chinese oral and the subject was kinda crap? Although i feel that his response was kinda good, he insisted that he 'li ti'(go out of point). Whatever. So he was saying saying and when he stopped to raise another issue with me, i kinda ignored him so he pushed to later than say... I was more interested in the oral ma =P. I think she gave up looking for the teacher, so she came towards us and he was again trying to raise the same issue...
He :'chi-'
Me :'what you want to say!what you want to say!'
Because we both saw her walking towards us. So obviously cannot let her hear right? So quickly fine excuse to cover up la. Best way to do it, take whatever weapons avaliable and hit the person talking while scolding him/her. Clever right? thank you. But the only avaliable weapon i have at that time was the score... so i roll it and hit his head =P. While saying 'what you want to say!'. Think she was a little puzzled but did not raise any objections... Heng arh... I must have appeared as a bully >.<
People who can only hurt me physically are stupid
People who can hurt me mentally are clever
People who are able to hurt me emotionally are geniuses.
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Reflections
I think been thinking alot of things over the past weekend and i really can't seem to figure out anything at all... Only making myself more and more stupider why wasting brain cells on these crappy things...
For example, the word 'cheapskate' made me think and think and think and think and think. I put 5 'think' because i really meant it. I thought over about it, then later stop thinking about it, then later re-thought about it. Haiz, normally this crap word won't even bother me much. But now, i just simply cannot believe it. I cannot believe such a crappy word came out of her keyboard lah. I don't know why, i just feel so puzzled. It's like... All my calcuations went wrong. I never thought that this stupid word could ever be used by her.
And he recently told me some things that also made me think hard. 1 of those was the incident on honours night. It's just a simple action that made me think hard, i don't know why. Maybe it's because it involves her? I suppose...
Well, i remember telling him that i changed number. But i think i carelessly forgot to gave my new number... So when he tried to find me before the honours night event... He obviously couldn't since he was dialing the wrong number. So when he remembered that i've changed number... He thought of who to ask and he asked her... To me, that proves something. It proves to me that she still meant alot to him. She will always come first to mind... He still loved her. I knew that all along. I knew that he was just lying to everyone around him and heck i believe he is also lying to himself. That was the prove i needed, and it really came.
Another crappy incident that he told me was a smal and simple one. But 1 that had huge impacts... Not on 1 person, but on another few. Our dear campus superstar told him a bloody comment. A crappy 1 that even i got pissed off upon hearing it. He asked him why he liked a girl like her?(Wei She Me Ni Xi Huan Zhe Yang De Nu Ren?) And it's in a very very stupid tone that i don't like. It's like looking down on her can? Felt so pissed off la. Who is he to comment on her? Just because he is a campus superstar candidate doesn't give him the right to make such a bloody comment. Its insulting, to he,her and me. I really find it hard to take it lying down la. I don't want to be childish and point fingers back at him and insult his's but seriously la. Its not out of respect that's why i decided not to pursue matters, its not because im scared that i may leave a childish impression by pursuing such a 'small' matter. Its because i know that pursuing matter will not only blow up matters but also hurt a good friend of mine. I do not wish to see more people hurt. But i really really cannot stand it. Guess i just have to live with it.
I may be an idiot, but im definitely not stupid.
For example, the word 'cheapskate' made me think and think and think and think and think. I put 5 'think' because i really meant it. I thought over about it, then later stop thinking about it, then later re-thought about it. Haiz, normally this crap word won't even bother me much. But now, i just simply cannot believe it. I cannot believe such a crappy word came out of her keyboard lah. I don't know why, i just feel so puzzled. It's like... All my calcuations went wrong. I never thought that this stupid word could ever be used by her.
And he recently told me some things that also made me think hard. 1 of those was the incident on honours night. It's just a simple action that made me think hard, i don't know why. Maybe it's because it involves her? I suppose...
Well, i remember telling him that i changed number. But i think i carelessly forgot to gave my new number... So when he tried to find me before the honours night event... He obviously couldn't since he was dialing the wrong number. So when he remembered that i've changed number... He thought of who to ask and he asked her... To me, that proves something. It proves to me that she still meant alot to him. She will always come first to mind... He still loved her. I knew that all along. I knew that he was just lying to everyone around him and heck i believe he is also lying to himself. That was the prove i needed, and it really came.
Another crappy incident that he told me was a smal and simple one. But 1 that had huge impacts... Not on 1 person, but on another few. Our dear campus superstar told him a bloody comment. A crappy 1 that even i got pissed off upon hearing it. He asked him why he liked a girl like her?(Wei She Me Ni Xi Huan Zhe Yang De Nu Ren?) And it's in a very very stupid tone that i don't like. It's like looking down on her can? Felt so pissed off la. Who is he to comment on her? Just because he is a campus superstar candidate doesn't give him the right to make such a bloody comment. Its insulting, to he,her and me. I really find it hard to take it lying down la. I don't want to be childish and point fingers back at him and insult his's but seriously la. Its not out of respect that's why i decided not to pursue matters, its not because im scared that i may leave a childish impression by pursuing such a 'small' matter. Its because i know that pursuing matter will not only blow up matters but also hurt a good friend of mine. I do not wish to see more people hurt. But i really really cannot stand it. Guess i just have to live with it.
I may be an idiot, but im definitely not stupid.
Saturday, July 07, 2007
Stupid Saturday
Saturday is BORRRINGGGG. Especially when plans of badminton are cancelled >.<
Now have to stay at home and listen to mum nag... Haiz. At least im guai enough to do work lah. So surprised at myself =P.
Finished my english homework. Like hurray? Cause i really don't know how to do lah. Like my english really sucks, and the damn passage is about languages -.-
Crap. If thats the passage for english test, i think im a goner... Haiz.
Finished revising chemistry too! Felt guilty for not studying for it. Kind of feel lucky that thursday we were not given the test. Hope i can do quite well luh. Bonds... I am a real lousy bonder... So im glad that the test is not on HUMAN BONDS. But rather ionic and covalent bonds. The textbook cannot satisfy me lah. I go look through the 10-yr series for chem and i realised, some of the questions, no matter how many times i flip the textbook on bonds... I still can't find the damn answer... grrr... Luckily Miss PL didn't tell us to surrender the answer key =P.
I don't know when chinese test is coming lah... Sian, i want to study for it leh, but im in a desparate mood of laziness trying to get hardworking. Get it? Why don't my chinese teacher just tell me the exact date? So i feel more secure... Or not today study... Tomorrow worry... Monday stare at teacher and expect a test paper but could not go ask him or not the whole class would stone me. Think they won't study anyway de la. So naturally they will pray that the teacher old liao will forget... So if i ever trys to remind the teacher... I would expect thousands of stones flying my way... Haiz.
And i remembered i haven't do my maths... May kill more trees cause i think needa use graph paper... Aiya crap la, don't feel like killing trees, don't feel like doing work, don't feel like slacking... Im such a crapper with dilemnas all around. My life is just an irony by itself.
You Can Read Me Like A Book If You Knew How
Now have to stay at home and listen to mum nag... Haiz. At least im guai enough to do work lah. So surprised at myself =P.
Finished my english homework. Like hurray? Cause i really don't know how to do lah. Like my english really sucks, and the damn passage is about languages -.-
Crap. If thats the passage for english test, i think im a goner... Haiz.
Finished revising chemistry too! Felt guilty for not studying for it. Kind of feel lucky that thursday we were not given the test. Hope i can do quite well luh. Bonds... I am a real lousy bonder... So im glad that the test is not on HUMAN BONDS. But rather ionic and covalent bonds. The textbook cannot satisfy me lah. I go look through the 10-yr series for chem and i realised, some of the questions, no matter how many times i flip the textbook on bonds... I still can't find the damn answer... grrr... Luckily Miss PL didn't tell us to surrender the answer key =P.
I don't know when chinese test is coming lah... Sian, i want to study for it leh, but im in a desparate mood of laziness trying to get hardworking. Get it? Why don't my chinese teacher just tell me the exact date? So i feel more secure... Or not today study... Tomorrow worry... Monday stare at teacher and expect a test paper but could not go ask him or not the whole class would stone me. Think they won't study anyway de la. So naturally they will pray that the teacher old liao will forget... So if i ever trys to remind the teacher... I would expect thousands of stones flying my way... Haiz.
And i remembered i haven't do my maths... May kill more trees cause i think needa use graph paper... Aiya crap la, don't feel like killing trees, don't feel like doing work, don't feel like slacking... Im such a crapper with dilemnas all around. My life is just an irony by itself.
You Can Read Me Like A Book If You Knew How
Friday, July 06, 2007
Honours Night
Met everyone at the canteen after i finished practicing my snooker. Sad luh, i can't even win an opponent that cannot score... Let alone one that has a capabilities to take part in a compeition...
The program for the honours night is not bad lah. CO played quite nicely, dance is very nice. Think they deserved the gold that they get =P. Everything dragged till about 8.30pm before we were allowed to go down to the canteen for our long awaited dinner. Everyone was hungry i guessed... Perhaps thats way they were so pissed. But i not hungry leh, so i very nice guy =P.
Because the choir were only allowed 2 tables... The choir people kinda feel not respected luh. Its like, we had the largest amount of people tonight lah, and obviously we didn't have enough seats. Somemore we got the tables furthest away from the food. So we were the last to take the food. And everyone was pissed off la. They were like saying not respected... People eating in the hall while we are eating in the canteen... At least can go AVA room ma...
I personally felt differently... why care so much about where you eat? Im sure most people there aren't people who can only eat in air-conditioned places? And like how many hundreds days have we spent our lunchtime in our canteen? So whats with the complains? C'mon la... Why feel so pissed of over such a stupid matter? I don't even give a damn about it. Sherman was the most agitated tonight lah... Saying so much vulgarities that i feel that i have to interfere... But of course not using vulgarities against him back la. I can easily shut him off with things that seem so small but makes big impact(wah sounds like i damn zai right???)
Ran out of cups =P. End up use bowls mean for satay sauces to drink the 'sparkling juice'. Lol... damn creative, thanks to gregory ang. And i kind of sympathise with the councilors... They haven even eat then need to receive so many crappy comments from people like the ones from the choir lah. Can't we just adapt to our conditions and live with it? Why must we try so hard to change things when we know a big difference would not be made? Its pointless.
Ren Zai Jiang Hu, Shen Bu You Zi
Live with it, or die alongside with it.
Wanted to take mrt with junhao back when i realised that i may not have sufficent amount in my ez-link card to risk such a trip when i could just take a bus. And i felt guilty for pangsehing Sheryl. So in my attempt not to pangseh anyone, i followed junhao all the way to the mrt then turn back to the bus stop to take a bus. So i wont pangseh anyone! But i think they will still i say i pangseh them de la... Haiz, Hao Ren Nan Zhuo ma...
Reached the yishun interchange when i checked my phone and realised there was a message. Since i have this weird habit of not seeing who sent it first but rather look at the message 1st... I got a 'walao you gd, pangseh me. pffft'. And i felt kinda puzzled so i went back to see who sent it and realised it was sheryl =P. i didn't pangseh you in the end lo =P.
Its okay with you don't help me when you see me in the well, helpless.
But its NOT OKAY if you throw rocks down instead.
But if you were so kind to take a rope and try to help me out...
and unfortunately the rope breaked, would i still be as grateful?
Or would i be angry at you for giving hope then letting me fall back into the deep deep well?
Be angry for hurting me even more when i fall?
The program for the honours night is not bad lah. CO played quite nicely, dance is very nice. Think they deserved the gold that they get =P. Everything dragged till about 8.30pm before we were allowed to go down to the canteen for our long awaited dinner. Everyone was hungry i guessed... Perhaps thats way they were so pissed. But i not hungry leh, so i very nice guy =P.
Because the choir were only allowed 2 tables... The choir people kinda feel not respected luh. Its like, we had the largest amount of people tonight lah, and obviously we didn't have enough seats. Somemore we got the tables furthest away from the food. So we were the last to take the food. And everyone was pissed off la. They were like saying not respected... People eating in the hall while we are eating in the canteen... At least can go AVA room ma...
I personally felt differently... why care so much about where you eat? Im sure most people there aren't people who can only eat in air-conditioned places? And like how many hundreds days have we spent our lunchtime in our canteen? So whats with the complains? C'mon la... Why feel so pissed of over such a stupid matter? I don't even give a damn about it. Sherman was the most agitated tonight lah... Saying so much vulgarities that i feel that i have to interfere... But of course not using vulgarities against him back la. I can easily shut him off with things that seem so small but makes big impact(wah sounds like i damn zai right???)
Ran out of cups =P. End up use bowls mean for satay sauces to drink the 'sparkling juice'. Lol... damn creative, thanks to gregory ang. And i kind of sympathise with the councilors... They haven even eat then need to receive so many crappy comments from people like the ones from the choir lah. Can't we just adapt to our conditions and live with it? Why must we try so hard to change things when we know a big difference would not be made? Its pointless.
Ren Zai Jiang Hu, Shen Bu You Zi
Live with it, or die alongside with it.
Wanted to take mrt with junhao back when i realised that i may not have sufficent amount in my ez-link card to risk such a trip when i could just take a bus. And i felt guilty for pangsehing Sheryl. So in my attempt not to pangseh anyone, i followed junhao all the way to the mrt then turn back to the bus stop to take a bus. So i wont pangseh anyone! But i think they will still i say i pangseh them de la... Haiz, Hao Ren Nan Zhuo ma...
Reached the yishun interchange when i checked my phone and realised there was a message. Since i have this weird habit of not seeing who sent it first but rather look at the message 1st... I got a 'walao you gd, pangseh me. pffft'. And i felt kinda puzzled so i went back to see who sent it and realised it was sheryl =P. i didn't pangseh you in the end lo =P.
Its okay with you don't help me when you see me in the well, helpless.
But its NOT OKAY if you throw rocks down instead.
But if you were so kind to take a rope and try to help me out...
and unfortunately the rope breaked, would i still be as grateful?
Or would i be angry at you for giving hope then letting me fall back into the deep deep well?
Be angry for hurting me even more when i fall?
Thursday, July 05, 2007
End of compeition
Haiz, this compeition is a complete disaster for me la. I mean, i was really naive to believe i wasn't the weakest player when in actual fact i am. This is so crap lah. I have never lost 4 game in a row before in my life la. I mean its like, everyone won at least 1 game and i lost all... More like a burden to the team than a player. ZZZZZ
And recently, i've been seriously irritated by people who have no common sense at all. Seriously la, if you're brainless or stupid, don't expect others to be as brainless and stupid. C'mon la, i may be a nice guy to a extent that i won't do much to anyone who irritates me and sometimes not even say a word about these things just because i don't want to spoil other people's mood. But if this kinda crap keeps coming, i don't think i can be such a nice guy for long.
And recently, i've been seriously irritated by people who have no common sense at all. Seriously la, if you're brainless or stupid, don't expect others to be as brainless and stupid. C'mon la, i may be a nice guy to a extent that i won't do much to anyone who irritates me and sometimes not even say a word about these things just because i don't want to spoil other people's mood. But if this kinda crap keeps coming, i don't think i can be such a nice guy for long.
Monday, July 02, 2007
While feeling guilty for killing so many trees while doing graphs, i rediscovered why i loved maths and exams so much. Because i am an idiot who can never really concentrate fully on something. Maths is something which can make me concentrate! The feeling is shuang la. And exams? While doing, of course must concentrate la, so also feel very shuang. But i still don't get it, why do i feel shuang when im concentrating??? Hmmz? Maybe its because i get satisfactory feeling when i managed to complete things that i used so much brainpower? Perhaps =P.
Youth day is sian can? Im at home for until now... Since yesterday morning, i've been at home all the way. Don't feel like playing soccer but feel like going out. Since going out by yourself is lame and even more boring... I took to some homework! Still haven't do =P. Im guilty. But the graphs make me more guilty luh. Needa draw the frequency table and all the equations all that. The worst thing is, my flexible ruler is hidden at some stupid place which im too lazy to find... So i took up freehand drawing. It's disaterous can??? End up whole table full of rubber rubbed off from the eraser... So messy la. Got a pen here, a pencil there, ruler somewhere hidden behind the maths textbook, graph paper on top of the foolscap and my pencilbox somewhere hidden behind all these craps. Wished i could take a photo and show you all. But too bad. Cannot afford >.<
I have this feeling telling me not to play in tomorrow's game. I don't know why, i just felt that i shouldn't play. Some Angel or Devil is manipulating my mind. Grrr. I know i should play, but i just don't feel like playing, but when i play, i still lose ma, so might as well don't play, give other people chance, maybe they will win, But then if i don't play, i won't know if i'll lose right? So im in this BIGBIG dilemna that i have to do maths to get them outta my mind. And now im typing, so its in my mind again -.-
Oh crap, what should i do? Should i play another wager to decide? Maybe i should =P.
She is the angel that hurt me more than any devil.
Youth day is sian can? Im at home for until now... Since yesterday morning, i've been at home all the way. Don't feel like playing soccer but feel like going out. Since going out by yourself is lame and even more boring... I took to some homework! Still haven't do =P. Im guilty. But the graphs make me more guilty luh. Needa draw the frequency table and all the equations all that. The worst thing is, my flexible ruler is hidden at some stupid place which im too lazy to find... So i took up freehand drawing. It's disaterous can??? End up whole table full of rubber rubbed off from the eraser... So messy la. Got a pen here, a pencil there, ruler somewhere hidden behind the maths textbook, graph paper on top of the foolscap and my pencilbox somewhere hidden behind all these craps. Wished i could take a photo and show you all. But too bad. Cannot afford >.<
I have this feeling telling me not to play in tomorrow's game. I don't know why, i just felt that i shouldn't play. Some Angel or Devil is manipulating my mind. Grrr. I know i should play, but i just don't feel like playing, but when i play, i still lose ma, so might as well don't play, give other people chance, maybe they will win, But then if i don't play, i won't know if i'll lose right? So im in this BIGBIG dilemna that i have to do maths to get them outta my mind. And now im typing, so its in my mind again -.-
Oh crap, what should i do? Should i play another wager to decide? Maybe i should =P.
She is the angel that hurt me more than any devil.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)