Not a great day

How will you feel when things seems to go wrong?

When you feel that it was never your fault to began with, because you've been trying hard, thinking hard. But when something goes wrong, it must be someone's fault? If that is true, then someone is at fault!

Is it my fault that I've not looked at things detailed enough?
Is it my fault that I've not made sure every thing is workable?
Is it my fault that I've not been able to help when things go wrong?

The feeling of giving up never dies. It only rests.

Of course, a cheerful attitude is a good way to ward it off. But how many people would be able to keep that up? Would you rather want someone who shoots his mouth off because he's pissed and is scolding people as a form of release?

Or would you rather want a person, who puts up a facade and smiles at you?

Things do go wrong. Everyone knows that. But seriously, i think that this time its' no one's fault. You can't blame anyone? Perhaps people could argue that we should have seen this coming. Then again, everyone was so onto it, so enthusiastic, so... Naive? Naive to believe things will just go right? Is it what things should be?

I don't think so.

Having a plan screwed up is common.
Having 2 plan screwed up is uncommon.
Having 2 plans screwed up on the same day is rare.

In fact, its so rare i believe i don't think i experienced it more than twice. In my lifetime.

So perhaps its the planners fault? Perhaps its the people who put in the effort who were at fault. Perhaps it was the people who discovered the problem at the last minute who were at fault.

Then again, at least we discovered the problem. We didn't go on with it. We didn't risk screwing everything on the day. We needed help, we asked for it. Response?

You judge it.


If this was a war, I must say, we were left without a single man.
Then again, who killed our men? Our own men.