I think i finally realised what went wrong, what really changed things around me, what makes me so different from before... What makes me try so hard at times, and yet never try at all sometime. What was really wrong?
I reflected and i think i got the answer now, and which is so simple, wondered why i didn't realise it sooner, isn't it all the laws of the world? Everything in this mortal world can be measured to a certain extent by this er, reason, i shall put as. But it isn't really a reason anyway, maybe it was all along inside me, but i just didn't meet the circumstances to force it to be released.
The answer to this question that has been troubling me for like months has finally been found. It was all because of love. Okay that's crap. Whatever. The real thing is, what i've been doing all these months, trying to hard to do, is actually... Me trying to gain a reputation. A respectable enough reputation that will allow me to have enough self-confidence. That was what i was aiming all along and yet, yet, i did not realise it. I guess i really got blind. Blinded by everything.
Solitude that i so loved was pushed far behind me, i knew i had to do something. I could not just wait there in the dark and expect something to happen. But even if i really tried, i don't think i could do it, which is exactly the reason why i didn't try. Really sounded like an excuse. Usual optimism vanished into the air because i've learned the reality of life. The cruel true of this wretched world. I could hide myself no longer, especially when i decided to break out of my solitude, it is something i must face, and i took it really hard.
And snooker, haha, crap. The way it turned out. I mean, all those practices, i realised what they were for, to me, to win or lose didn't matter, the reputation that i may gain when i win matters now. Which is the drive that made me go on. The lazy idiot now goes to practices... It's kind of like a miracle. For me that is. And now, did it even matter? I just faced defeat and more defeat. Those people playing in the compeition are not of our standards. Or rather, we are not of their standards. And even the security guards also know me la. They were like, huh? lose arh, see you practice so much still lose... Aiyo... Then today, lose again, huh? lose again arh? you hor, jialet leh, practice so much still lose, dun practice la...
Joke. This whole thing is a joke. I'm concentrating too much on these crappy things. I lost the original purpose for this whole thing. I'm not supposed to get involved in a 'trival' thing like these. I still remembered laughing at the drama people because those stupid scenes and circumstances will never happen to me. HaHa. Retribution.
If we're going to ever be a beach, Things are gonna get crabby.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Complete Defeat
Today's match was against St.Francis Methodist... They were late and only 2 of their players arrived... And they were big, in terms of size and age. Kind of like JC people can? Standards? Naturally...
Observed the 2 giants play and don't think that they're very very good. Kind of abit like our standards... If i only knew... Haiz.
The first 2 match started off with 1 of the giants playing Ming Chuen. And his level? Out of my expectations... He was definitely around my seniors' standards... So naturally Ming Chuen lost... And when the 2 matches were played finished... The other 2 players still haven't arrived... So late, should walk over ma =P. But that's already 2 loss 0 win for us already.
Clarence & I must be able to win both our matches to at the very least get a draw. But while warming-up, i feel that i'm in a quite a good form, although intimidated by the standards of the 2 giants. My opponent finally came, and we started playing. But his standard seem to be too far away from the giants before. However, i just took it as he was warming-up, after all, he just arrived, wanting him to play a good match immediately is kind of impossible...
I took a slight of 5 points and i knew i lost. His standard is far beyond mine. Everyone could play till the black ball before announcing the win or lose. At yellow ball, i already lost... It's so crap can? And to me, it's considered the starting is a put water situation... Cause he started playing seriously after he finished warming up... And all i could manage is a 5 point lead? It's really demoralizing... Which in the end caused my lost indirectly... Haiz.
Tuesday would be monford... and so far, they haven't lost a game, i wonder how we're going to fare against them...
Observed the 2 giants play and don't think that they're very very good. Kind of abit like our standards... If i only knew... Haiz.
The first 2 match started off with 1 of the giants playing Ming Chuen. And his level? Out of my expectations... He was definitely around my seniors' standards... So naturally Ming Chuen lost... And when the 2 matches were played finished... The other 2 players still haven't arrived... So late, should walk over ma =P. But that's already 2 loss 0 win for us already.
Clarence & I must be able to win both our matches to at the very least get a draw. But while warming-up, i feel that i'm in a quite a good form, although intimidated by the standards of the 2 giants. My opponent finally came, and we started playing. But his standard seem to be too far away from the giants before. However, i just took it as he was warming-up, after all, he just arrived, wanting him to play a good match immediately is kind of impossible...
I took a slight of 5 points and i knew i lost. His standard is far beyond mine. Everyone could play till the black ball before announcing the win or lose. At yellow ball, i already lost... It's so crap can? And to me, it's considered the starting is a put water situation... Cause he started playing seriously after he finished warming up... And all i could manage is a 5 point lead? It's really demoralizing... Which in the end caused my lost indirectly... Haiz.
Tuesday would be monford... and so far, they haven't lost a game, i wonder how we're going to fare against them...
Thursday, June 28, 2007
Fourth Day Of School
I woke up early in the morning and made a wager with myself. And the stake? The snooker compeition later... It's risky, but i believe i can afford to go for it. The bet is simple, if the first person today to wish me good luck for the compeition is her, i win, if it isn't, i lose. Simple as that.
Reached the school and noticed that Ming Chuen was abit... er, dunno how to say la, let's put it as nervous... Whatever. But whatever it is, i have a feeling that it will affect the compeition later... So... I despicably thought of how to 'cheer' him up. Answer, simple, a chinese proverb: Ying Xiong Nan Guo Mei Ren Guan. Using 'Mei Ren' is the most efficent method, well, at least that was what i thought. So i went up to JiaQi & JuinLi and told them my plans, because only they can help me carry it out. So in a way or so they were my 'accomplices'. And when the expected plan finally came, the result i expected also came. All according to plan i thought, then Ming Chuen said he suspected foul play =P. Lol? and there he was thinking who might have done that although he suspected JiaQi and JuinLi.
Recess came, and i kinda 'reported' my findings on Ming Chuen to my 'accomplices'. And they told me something which really really made me go crazy. At least for that 1 second. I mean i knew the risk of that la, butbutbut its so omgomgomg can? They told me that she maybe coming to wish me good luck sincerely. You might find it ironic... Why did i go crazy? Reason being, i just don't want it to happen when people tell her la, but that wasn't the only reason why i went crazy. The other reason is that, they told me that she said i was dao... it's like? Killing each other, i don't know why, and i began to realise it was all an misunderstanding, i misunderstood her , she misunderstood me. We were like 2 fools seeing each other through a heavy mist, unable to see clearly.
And both of my accomplices wished me good luck, and i was like, hurray, i just lost my wager. Im going to lose later... Haiz. But i sincerely appreciated the thought, because i know they were sincere, and really meant it, but whatever it is, a wager lost, is a wager lost.
Was wondering what would happen if i said me =P. Okay it's me!!! Fine, im despicable, whatever! I apologise can??? For welfare of the team la =P. Forgive me >.<
Set off at about 12.40+?? Reached there at 1.08pm la... So damn early and we weren't the only ones there, in fact, many schools were there already... Started warming up and got laughed at by some students from the other schools. I can hear it de lor! It's not just paranoia... When i really concentrate my ears to hear things, i can.
Played with Christ Church Secondary School. Was kinda scared because of 2 reasons:
1. We were first timers playing in such compeitions.
2. Clarence said that they were good, and i believed.
My opponent was a guy named Alvin Cheng. He was strong can? In fact, he might be the strongest if he ever comes to PHS. While we're still trying to score in red balls, he was already trying to position different kinda hard balls to cripple me. And he did. Really, He did. From the very start, the first ball. When i breaked, he just scored a red ball in and made a damn loud sound. Apparently, lots of energy and used to hit that ball and it was insulting. It's like a '1/4 Fish, 3/4 Duck' to me la. Damn irritated. The worst thing is, he succeded in crippling me after just 3 or 4 balls... zzz
The score was crazy la, it's like when i had three points, he already had 19... So you could imagine how strong he was, no one in school now can ever do that to me la... seriously. Then i miracouly caught up to a tie of 21-21. But i didn't had time anymore. I already lost, because the amount of balls left on the table aren't enough to ensure my victory... And i fouled... which only cripples me further. So the score was like 26-29. I only had 1 option, score in the 2 remaining balls, and that would make me win. But of course, i didn't win... Mr cheng only need to score in the pink ball and he will win, while i was crippled on so many sides, especially by my wager... I knew i had lost before i started, but i was glad i lost to someone really strong. Ending score, 26-35.
I thought i could handle it, especially since i knew i would lose all the way from recess... but really, the mental pressure, the fatigue i suffered from the game. It really amounts, and i returned to school depressed... Especially when Ming Chuen lost his match too, and the 2 schools were tied at a draw.
Ming Chuen's match was a little bit of a comedy+tragedy+inspirational. Okay, perhaps 'dramatic' would suit the purpose more. Whatever. His match was a comedy because the opponent he play,( i didn't notice the name =P.) wasn't a really strong guy, but had an extremely lucky streak of luck. Since ming chuen's match was the last one, everyone from both schools were looking and most of us were laughing, at the opponent... Because he seem to be able to drag the match for some damn long... And amazing, luckily managed to escape from the clutches of fouls but also managed to escape from pocket god... Cos he so seldomly scored, but yet so seldomly fouled. It's kinda like a miracle... Lol... The tragedy happened at the end, just like most tragedies end. The opponent that was losing caught up and with his luck, managed to win... ming chuen lost but it wasn't his fault, the opponent was really too lucky... i believed everyone who saw the match would agree... And it's inspirational, looking at how both of them didn't give up and contiune playing, with neither scoring a ball in dunno how long man.
I just wished that tomorrow's match we would be able to do our best la... and perhaps finally received the encouragement that i so wanted...
Reached the school and noticed that Ming Chuen was abit... er, dunno how to say la, let's put it as nervous... Whatever. But whatever it is, i have a feeling that it will affect the compeition later... So... I despicably thought of how to 'cheer' him up. Answer, simple, a chinese proverb: Ying Xiong Nan Guo Mei Ren Guan. Using 'Mei Ren' is the most efficent method, well, at least that was what i thought. So i went up to JiaQi & JuinLi and told them my plans, because only they can help me carry it out. So in a way or so they were my 'accomplices'. And when the expected plan finally came, the result i expected also came. All according to plan i thought, then Ming Chuen said he suspected foul play =P. Lol? and there he was thinking who might have done that although he suspected JiaQi and JuinLi.
Recess came, and i kinda 'reported' my findings on Ming Chuen to my 'accomplices'. And they told me something which really really made me go crazy. At least for that 1 second. I mean i knew the risk of that la, butbutbut its so omgomgomg can? They told me that she maybe coming to wish me good luck sincerely. You might find it ironic... Why did i go crazy? Reason being, i just don't want it to happen when people tell her la, but that wasn't the only reason why i went crazy. The other reason is that, they told me that she said i was dao... it's like? Killing each other, i don't know why, and i began to realise it was all an misunderstanding, i misunderstood her , she misunderstood me. We were like 2 fools seeing each other through a heavy mist, unable to see clearly.
And both of my accomplices wished me good luck, and i was like, hurray, i just lost my wager. Im going to lose later... Haiz. But i sincerely appreciated the thought, because i know they were sincere, and really meant it, but whatever it is, a wager lost, is a wager lost.
Was wondering what would happen if i said me =P. Okay it's me!!! Fine, im despicable, whatever! I apologise can??? For welfare of the team la =P. Forgive me >.<
Set off at about 12.40+?? Reached there at 1.08pm la... So damn early and we weren't the only ones there, in fact, many schools were there already... Started warming up and got laughed at by some students from the other schools. I can hear it de lor! It's not just paranoia... When i really concentrate my ears to hear things, i can.
Played with Christ Church Secondary School. Was kinda scared because of 2 reasons:
1. We were first timers playing in such compeitions.
2. Clarence said that they were good, and i believed.
My opponent was a guy named Alvin Cheng. He was strong can? In fact, he might be the strongest if he ever comes to PHS. While we're still trying to score in red balls, he was already trying to position different kinda hard balls to cripple me. And he did. Really, He did. From the very start, the first ball. When i breaked, he just scored a red ball in and made a damn loud sound. Apparently, lots of energy and used to hit that ball and it was insulting. It's like a '1/4 Fish, 3/4 Duck' to me la. Damn irritated. The worst thing is, he succeded in crippling me after just 3 or 4 balls... zzz
The score was crazy la, it's like when i had three points, he already had 19... So you could imagine how strong he was, no one in school now can ever do that to me la... seriously. Then i miracouly caught up to a tie of 21-21. But i didn't had time anymore. I already lost, because the amount of balls left on the table aren't enough to ensure my victory... And i fouled... which only cripples me further. So the score was like 26-29. I only had 1 option, score in the 2 remaining balls, and that would make me win. But of course, i didn't win... Mr cheng only need to score in the pink ball and he will win, while i was crippled on so many sides, especially by my wager... I knew i had lost before i started, but i was glad i lost to someone really strong. Ending score, 26-35.
I thought i could handle it, especially since i knew i would lose all the way from recess... but really, the mental pressure, the fatigue i suffered from the game. It really amounts, and i returned to school depressed... Especially when Ming Chuen lost his match too, and the 2 schools were tied at a draw.
Ming Chuen's match was a little bit of a comedy+tragedy+inspirational. Okay, perhaps 'dramatic' would suit the purpose more. Whatever. His match was a comedy because the opponent he play,( i didn't notice the name =P.) wasn't a really strong guy, but had an extremely lucky streak of luck. Since ming chuen's match was the last one, everyone from both schools were looking and most of us were laughing, at the opponent... Because he seem to be able to drag the match for some damn long... And amazing, luckily managed to escape from the clutches of fouls but also managed to escape from pocket god... Cos he so seldomly scored, but yet so seldomly fouled. It's kinda like a miracle... Lol... The tragedy happened at the end, just like most tragedies end. The opponent that was losing caught up and with his luck, managed to win... ming chuen lost but it wasn't his fault, the opponent was really too lucky... i believed everyone who saw the match would agree... And it's inspirational, looking at how both of them didn't give up and contiune playing, with neither scoring a ball in dunno how long man.
I just wished that tomorrow's match we would be able to do our best la... and perhaps finally received the encouragement that i so wanted...
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Third Day Of School
Today is another crappy day, seriously... I woke up early in the morning thanks to my alarm and realised i could sleep another 30 mins and get away with it... So i returned to sleep... But apparently my dad also heard my alarm, and told me to get up... i haven't told them that wednesday is 8.05...
Reached the school at 7.15am, and saw her already in the canteen... wondered if anything big was going on... hmmz, apparently not. Went for chapel that i haven't been to for a month or so... It's still beautiful as ever, as expected of god's house =P. Was told a long story about this guy named jacob, and his ways for life, grabbing everything to survive... Trying everything to survive, kind of like me to a small extent.
Went for maths and faced those questions that i don't understand yesterday... And unfortunately, today, i still don't understand >.< perhaps i didn't try hard enough. Chemistry was teaching something i had been taught before a year ago... Except the fact that those element symbols are something that i seriously cannot remember... Unlike the chem genius next door...
Snooker was tiring la... It isn't a sport that most people think as... In most sports, stamina and technique matters the most. In snooker, it's not, mentality is far more important, technique is just to help you feel more confident of winning. Once you lag behind, you will find it hard to catch up UNLESS you believe that you are able to win that opponent. In Snooker, concentration is part of mentality too, the inability to concentrate would be dangerous.
I am really grateful towards Ming Chuen... seriously, not sarcastic at all. Reason being, i have this fatal weakness in snooker, the inability of concentrating and the super nice personality of playing at my opponent's level, basically speaking, no matter how lousy the opponent, he still can win me, because i would play at his level... And the inability to concentrate? It applies to everything in my life, i can never ever concentrate 100% on a single thing. However, any match with Ming Chuen would force to be concentrate at least 70%. And today the match i played with Ming Chuen, i successfully concentrated at a 85% level but honestly speaking, i never won Ming Chuen anyway... Even the match today... i got ahead of myself because i was leading by 20 points and then... Ming Chuen caught up with me to a score of 49-49. Crap! but i well deserved it...
I just hope that tomorrow's match would go kinda smoothly... I hope...
Reached the school at 7.15am, and saw her already in the canteen... wondered if anything big was going on... hmmz, apparently not. Went for chapel that i haven't been to for a month or so... It's still beautiful as ever, as expected of god's house =P. Was told a long story about this guy named jacob, and his ways for life, grabbing everything to survive... Trying everything to survive, kind of like me to a small extent.
Went for maths and faced those questions that i don't understand yesterday... And unfortunately, today, i still don't understand >.< perhaps i didn't try hard enough. Chemistry was teaching something i had been taught before a year ago... Except the fact that those element symbols are something that i seriously cannot remember... Unlike the chem genius next door...
Snooker was tiring la... It isn't a sport that most people think as... In most sports, stamina and technique matters the most. In snooker, it's not, mentality is far more important, technique is just to help you feel more confident of winning. Once you lag behind, you will find it hard to catch up UNLESS you believe that you are able to win that opponent. In Snooker, concentration is part of mentality too, the inability to concentrate would be dangerous.
I am really grateful towards Ming Chuen... seriously, not sarcastic at all. Reason being, i have this fatal weakness in snooker, the inability of concentrating and the super nice personality of playing at my opponent's level, basically speaking, no matter how lousy the opponent, he still can win me, because i would play at his level... And the inability to concentrate? It applies to everything in my life, i can never ever concentrate 100% on a single thing. However, any match with Ming Chuen would force to be concentrate at least 70%. And today the match i played with Ming Chuen, i successfully concentrated at a 85% level but honestly speaking, i never won Ming Chuen anyway... Even the match today... i got ahead of myself because i was leading by 20 points and then... Ming Chuen caught up with me to a score of 49-49. Crap! but i well deserved it...
I just hope that tomorrow's match would go kinda smoothly... I hope...
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
School holidays ends...
First Day Of School:
Was able to awake early in the morning at 5.45am... Surprisingly, i seriously thought i wouldn't be able to wake up so i set so early, well in the end i still managed to wake up... Arrived in school quite early, and amazing did not see siyang but instead of Budiman. Wondered why he arrived in school so early, seldom see that happen. Was called on to go to the hall when i suffered a relapse, although a slight one and very much less painful than the normal ones i suffered but its still painful can? Took in heavy breaths and i think made quite a large amount of noise =P. Sorry to the people around me...
Kinda feel that it is a bad day, don't know why, i have a oversensitive intuition which sometimes fortunately does not come true. Received our fixtures and realise that it's not 4th july anymore!!! it's 28th of june!!! THIS THURSDAY!!! Oh My God??? And the very first match is a very tough opponent that seemed quite impossible to beat with our current standards.
Rushed to practice even though i had choir at 3.30, played a match with joey to 'test' his standard and realised that with that kind of people in our team, its hmmz hmmz hmmzzzzzzzz...
Was fortunately not late for choir as i 'forfeited the match against joey'(he was 40+ points behind me) Saw the boys sitting in the middle and got kinda puzzled... Aren't we supposed to sit at the left side? Instead why are we 'stuck' in the middle? End up is they sit wrongly -.-
My ears went haywire... i dunno why, it's like, i totally cannot differentiate any note and i kinda hear myself breathing through my ear??? i dunno, it really seems like that... and it's hard la, completely tone deaf... i mean it's like it happenened before, but never during a choir practice!!! So Oh My God la... especially when we're supposed to learn a new song... Wondered how i learned it with the tone deaf on...She was sitting straight in front of me at the very opposite end, but i was later shifted abit to the right but still there was a 'perfect view' but it isn't very good, i also dunno why, im supposed to happy aren't i?
Sheryl said i STARED at her!!! like what the hell? It was just a casual occasion look between intervals, and sometimes when she was singing, i was just **** ********** can? But that really set me thinking la, perhaps perhaps perhaps, i don't know and i don't want to think about it but my brain is such a !@#$%^& that it won't let me stop thinking about this and reflecting... Maybe that started off everything... crap, i can't get it out of me!!!
Second Day Of School:
Nothing really happened today except for the meeting of mr david tan and our movie!!! I shall talk about mr david tan 1st... He's going to be our maths teacher this term!!! So are happy, some are sad... whatever, it doesn't really make that big a difference to me, i can still perform my usual if i am able to concentrate during lessons... but if i couldn't... then, of course, i deserve to fail.
Moved off to the movie in our exclusive 3 Humility class tees!!! and the vp teased us luh!!! She said that she didn't give us permission to wear class tee so why are we wearing??? Punishment: set off last!!! But she was joking la(phew) went to this place that i never went before >.< damn ignorant right? okay that's not the point. Arrived there enthusiastically(i mean the others). Was damn thirsthy when i realise i didn't bring a bottle along...
Solution: Buy drink... Where 'cheapest'?... 7-eleven...
okay so wanted to go to 7-eleven but CPL didn't allow =P. but when we arrived at the ticketing booth, she wasn't with us, so we 'sneaked' down to 7-eleven to buy our big and super gulps!!! Smuggled inside the threatre only to realise that our seats are taken >.< Ended up on the stairs with phillip, lewis and ming chuen... and it was COLD!!! many people kept walking in and out luh! then must siam here and there... but well, it was a new experience after all... Not many people get the chance to sit on the stairs thorough the movie... Agreed?
The movie is nice and i really enjoyed it, yeah if you minus away the fact that i couldn't enjoy it fully thanks to the irritating door sounds and the chilly carpet... Ended up with the choir people walking around in Plaza Sing after the movie ended... They say i very anti today... i must clarify!!! i wasn't anti, its like a more normal me luh... i only appear fun and talkative when we're going out to PLAY... or not i would be a spoiler can? And now i arrived back at my home, stuck at my maths homework with an idea how to do it but never ever managed to complete it because all i could do was the first step >.< perhaps i too need help =P.
Was able to awake early in the morning at 5.45am... Surprisingly, i seriously thought i wouldn't be able to wake up so i set so early, well in the end i still managed to wake up... Arrived in school quite early, and amazing did not see siyang but instead of Budiman. Wondered why he arrived in school so early, seldom see that happen. Was called on to go to the hall when i suffered a relapse, although a slight one and very much less painful than the normal ones i suffered but its still painful can? Took in heavy breaths and i think made quite a large amount of noise =P. Sorry to the people around me...
Kinda feel that it is a bad day, don't know why, i have a oversensitive intuition which sometimes fortunately does not come true. Received our fixtures and realise that it's not 4th july anymore!!! it's 28th of june!!! THIS THURSDAY!!! Oh My God??? And the very first match is a very tough opponent that seemed quite impossible to beat with our current standards.
Rushed to practice even though i had choir at 3.30, played a match with joey to 'test' his standard and realised that with that kind of people in our team, its hmmz hmmz hmmzzzzzzzz...
Was fortunately not late for choir as i 'forfeited the match against joey'(he was 40+ points behind me) Saw the boys sitting in the middle and got kinda puzzled... Aren't we supposed to sit at the left side? Instead why are we 'stuck' in the middle? End up is they sit wrongly -.-
My ears went haywire... i dunno why, it's like, i totally cannot differentiate any note and i kinda hear myself breathing through my ear??? i dunno, it really seems like that... and it's hard la, completely tone deaf... i mean it's like it happenened before, but never during a choir practice!!! So Oh My God la... especially when we're supposed to learn a new song... Wondered how i learned it with the tone deaf on...She was sitting straight in front of me at the very opposite end, but i was later shifted abit to the right but still there was a 'perfect view' but it isn't very good, i also dunno why, im supposed to happy aren't i?
Sheryl said i STARED at her!!! like what the hell? It was just a casual occasion look between intervals, and sometimes when she was singing, i was just **** ********** can? But that really set me thinking la, perhaps perhaps perhaps, i don't know and i don't want to think about it but my brain is such a !@#$%^& that it won't let me stop thinking about this and reflecting... Maybe that started off everything... crap, i can't get it out of me!!!
Second Day Of School:
Nothing really happened today except for the meeting of mr david tan and our movie!!! I shall talk about mr david tan 1st... He's going to be our maths teacher this term!!! So are happy, some are sad... whatever, it doesn't really make that big a difference to me, i can still perform my usual if i am able to concentrate during lessons... but if i couldn't... then, of course, i deserve to fail.
Moved off to the movie in our exclusive 3 Humility class tees!!! and the vp teased us luh!!! She said that she didn't give us permission to wear class tee so why are we wearing??? Punishment: set off last!!! But she was joking la(phew) went to this place that i never went before >.< damn ignorant right? okay that's not the point. Arrived there enthusiastically(i mean the others). Was damn thirsthy when i realise i didn't bring a bottle along...
Solution: Buy drink... Where 'cheapest'?... 7-eleven...
okay so wanted to go to 7-eleven but CPL didn't allow =P. but when we arrived at the ticketing booth, she wasn't with us, so we 'sneaked' down to 7-eleven to buy our big and super gulps!!! Smuggled inside the threatre only to realise that our seats are taken >.< Ended up on the stairs with phillip, lewis and ming chuen... and it was COLD!!! many people kept walking in and out luh! then must siam here and there... but well, it was a new experience after all... Not many people get the chance to sit on the stairs thorough the movie... Agreed?
The movie is nice and i really enjoyed it, yeah if you minus away the fact that i couldn't enjoy it fully thanks to the irritating door sounds and the chilly carpet... Ended up with the choir people walking around in Plaza Sing after the movie ended... They say i very anti today... i must clarify!!! i wasn't anti, its like a more normal me luh... i only appear fun and talkative when we're going out to PLAY... or not i would be a spoiler can? And now i arrived back at my home, stuck at my maths homework with an idea how to do it but never ever managed to complete it because all i could do was the first step >.< perhaps i too need help =P.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Ai Qing Zhuan Yi
Okay, this song is niceee can? Emo enough for the likes of me!!! but i don't have it, so if you do, SEND IT TO ME!!! and by the way, this song is top in yes93.3's dragon tiger board...(Long Hu Bang=P)
Was supposed to walk to yishun interchange to buy my bus concession at about 10.30am. In the end drag 1.30 then go =P. Luckily no one in family knew... Wanted to have lunch there, but a sore throat makes many food impossible and the possible food are all so crowded...
Ended up with 3 bread as my lunch!!!
Went around the arcades around yishun, since it's still so early. But felt bored because the people at the arcades aren't very pro... See pro play then fun ma, see noob play very sian. Realised it was still early so walked to the 'tuition centre' and arrived there 25 minutes earlier... My calcuation of speed and time really very off, especially when im walking la... Scared will late, end up damn early reach... Grrr.
Realised something wrong when i stepped into the room. There isn't any whiteboard... Hmmz? I was thinking they maybe going to use the computer to teach wor! Waited for 20 minutes when my teacher walked in and said that we are not having lessons but are actually having a 'party'. There were chips and pizzas and sodas, felt sorry for eating my 'lunch' so late... Didn't eat anything but drank a cup of soda. Watched the movie 'Barnyard'. The teacher said that it's good to watch some 'no-brainers' movie once in a while and yeah, the movie doesn't require any brains but its funny =P.
Went home to slack until 6.15 before im supposed to go to khatib to play badminton. Forgot to bring shuttlecocks... So sorry =P. Luckily mc brought them and we still could play after all. But his dinner is kinda, er, 'pathetic'. Worse than my lunch luh -.- Badminton is damn fun, but i kept picking up the shuttlecocks >.< Played at somewhere jiaqi suggested... Until some indian uncles came... we are polite people can? we let them play... So nice, believed that i will never do that in school, if there's a badminton court in school...
Went to the court under jiaqi's house because ChunKiat came and he seriously looked damn tired. But he still played with us in the end, after sitting on the thing on the playground with jiaqi for dunno how long? Smacks were kinda impossible for me, kept jump and swing at the wrong timing... and Backhands were no different from suicides... Jiaqi and ChunKiat went up to Jiaqi's house, leaving JuinLi, Ming Chuen and me playing... Till the light went off at 10pm, and we contiuned to play!!! couldn't see the shuttle cock la... It's like playing badminton with a shuttlecock that will disappear when it reached a certain speed or altitude. So impossible to see can?
Went home feeling super refreshed but not tired at all. And all my family are up la, so late havent sleep... All watching eason chan's movie =P.
Ended up with 3 bread as my lunch!!!
Went around the arcades around yishun, since it's still so early. But felt bored because the people at the arcades aren't very pro... See pro play then fun ma, see noob play very sian. Realised it was still early so walked to the 'tuition centre' and arrived there 25 minutes earlier... My calcuation of speed and time really very off, especially when im walking la... Scared will late, end up damn early reach... Grrr.
Realised something wrong when i stepped into the room. There isn't any whiteboard... Hmmz? I was thinking they maybe going to use the computer to teach wor! Waited for 20 minutes when my teacher walked in and said that we are not having lessons but are actually having a 'party'. There were chips and pizzas and sodas, felt sorry for eating my 'lunch' so late... Didn't eat anything but drank a cup of soda. Watched the movie 'Barnyard'. The teacher said that it's good to watch some 'no-brainers' movie once in a while and yeah, the movie doesn't require any brains but its funny =P.
Went home to slack until 6.15 before im supposed to go to khatib to play badminton. Forgot to bring shuttlecocks... So sorry =P. Luckily mc brought them and we still could play after all. But his dinner is kinda, er, 'pathetic'. Worse than my lunch luh -.- Badminton is damn fun, but i kept picking up the shuttlecocks >.< Played at somewhere jiaqi suggested... Until some indian uncles came... we are polite people can? we let them play... So nice, believed that i will never do that in school, if there's a badminton court in school...
Went to the court under jiaqi's house because ChunKiat came and he seriously looked damn tired. But he still played with us in the end, after sitting on the thing on the playground with jiaqi for dunno how long? Smacks were kinda impossible for me, kept jump and swing at the wrong timing... and Backhands were no different from suicides... Jiaqi and ChunKiat went up to Jiaqi's house, leaving JuinLi, Ming Chuen and me playing... Till the light went off at 10pm, and we contiuned to play!!! couldn't see the shuttle cock la... It's like playing badminton with a shuttlecock that will disappear when it reached a certain speed or altitude. So impossible to see can?
Went home feeling super refreshed but not tired at all. And all my family are up la, so late havent sleep... All watching eason chan's movie =P.
Friday, June 22, 2007
New Number!!
Okay, anyone who reads this, please update your phonebook with an auspicious number under me!!!
MY NEW NUMBER IS 90443444!!! alot of '4's right??? very auspicious
must remember to update!!!
MY NEW NUMBER IS 90443444!!! alot of '4's right??? very auspicious
must remember to update!!!
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
Something's Wrong
I don't know why, but there's definitely something wrong and the worse thing is i don't know what is wrong. Even though knowing may not make a difference, its at least good to know the source of troubles... Agreed?
I think its my style that's wrong, it seemed to be changed, i don't seem to be myself anymore, the way i do things are so different now. I used be in solitude for the most of my life and the only place i go to is school and the places that i pass through while going to school. I seldomly go out with anybody unless in a way or other im forced to. But now, i feel like im forced out of this solitude, i try to go out as much as possible, knowing my wallet cannot handle it. I try to make friends as much as possible when i was susposed to be like a random guy to anyone else. You could also say i was Anti-Social.
I used to be someone who was able to assess the immediate situation and react well to it. Someone who was capable enough to be a leader but just lazy to be one, someone people would call 'clever'. And now? I'm just a pathetic fool, only an idiot would call me clever. Used to have people pinning high hopes and never really disappointed them. Now they wouldn't even take a second look or think a second thought about me if you asked them something like 'who do you think can do this, that?'.
I was once someone who was always hopeful, looking on the bright, believing nothing is impossible, only to get hopes dashed and dashed again. And now i'm like a depressed idiot who look at all the negative side of things. When people think how far we can go, i will be thinking when we will stop instead, when people think of the great ambitions, i just sit there and feel that they're idiots. When im actually the real one.
I normally do not practice for anything, just depend on my 'talent' on the thing. And if unfortunately i failed, i won't feel sad either. But now? I practice so much for this snooker compeition some others are still slacking away? Its not like im the weakest in the team. I used to be a slacker and won't mind if someone beat me at something, just take things by my stride. But now, whenever i see someone surpass me in whatever thing, i will try to overtake he/her. I don't know why, its just so unlike me.
I now confess and tell truth so much i can't believe it is myself talking. I mean, i used to lie to everyone and myself, live in my own world and current affairs is like a F9 subject if it is ever tested. I used to give excuses to every action of mine although sometimes its the real reason. I used to tell teachers that i stole the girlfriend of my opponent if i ever got in a fight, and now? Well, i do not wish to comment more. Seriously... i don't know if this has gotten better or worse. The old schemer is now like a sitting duck.
I think its my style that's wrong, it seemed to be changed, i don't seem to be myself anymore, the way i do things are so different now. I used be in solitude for the most of my life and the only place i go to is school and the places that i pass through while going to school. I seldomly go out with anybody unless in a way or other im forced to. But now, i feel like im forced out of this solitude, i try to go out as much as possible, knowing my wallet cannot handle it. I try to make friends as much as possible when i was susposed to be like a random guy to anyone else. You could also say i was Anti-Social.
I used to be someone who was able to assess the immediate situation and react well to it. Someone who was capable enough to be a leader but just lazy to be one, someone people would call 'clever'. And now? I'm just a pathetic fool, only an idiot would call me clever. Used to have people pinning high hopes and never really disappointed them. Now they wouldn't even take a second look or think a second thought about me if you asked them something like 'who do you think can do this, that?'.
I was once someone who was always hopeful, looking on the bright, believing nothing is impossible, only to get hopes dashed and dashed again. And now i'm like a depressed idiot who look at all the negative side of things. When people think how far we can go, i will be thinking when we will stop instead, when people think of the great ambitions, i just sit there and feel that they're idiots. When im actually the real one.
I normally do not practice for anything, just depend on my 'talent' on the thing. And if unfortunately i failed, i won't feel sad either. But now? I practice so much for this snooker compeition some others are still slacking away? Its not like im the weakest in the team. I used to be a slacker and won't mind if someone beat me at something, just take things by my stride. But now, whenever i see someone surpass me in whatever thing, i will try to overtake he/her. I don't know why, its just so unlike me.
I now confess and tell truth so much i can't believe it is myself talking. I mean, i used to lie to everyone and myself, live in my own world and current affairs is like a F9 subject if it is ever tested. I used to give excuses to every action of mine although sometimes its the real reason. I used to tell teachers that i stole the girlfriend of my opponent if i ever got in a fight, and now? Well, i do not wish to comment more. Seriously... i don't know if this has gotten better or worse. The old schemer is now like a sitting duck.
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Sentosa Trip
Okay, today is ming chuen's birthday and apparently we kind of 'celebrate' it by going to sentosa. But since it's his birthday, its only polite to buy something for him, and jiaqi suggested we meet at bishan at 10am.
Knowing i have an extremely strange habit of getting late because of my inability to calcuate time properly, i decided to get ready like 15 minutes beforehand. Got dressed and everything when my dad called out in a loud voice, "Go sweep the floor!!!". Well, i was thinking that since i'm early, and sweeping the house wouldn't take more then 15 mins... Might as well sweep it before i go. Was almost done when my dad shouted, "Sweep finish go mop hor!!!". And that's when i realised i'll be late. Im supposed to leave the house at 9.15 but thanks to the housework, i ended up leaving the house at 9.40... So basically, being on time in mission impossible. Wanna sms david de... Knowing that there was only 26 cents in my prepaid card. So basically, its 5 sms or 1 call. And david called me. Didn't pick up the phone because i really don't want to waste that phone call and when i hung up, M1 sent me a message telling me the balance of my prepaid. $0.04!!! There was only 1 conclusion to be made, apparently my mum received a phone call or called someone through the phone. Crap! Now i can't contact them and tell them i will be late.
Was at last 15mins late and they were like waiting for dunno how long already? See them i also paiseh arh. and jiaqi thought i got lost somewhere??? They decided on a cake and we went back to the station, david went to top up his ez-link card and when he turned back, he said, "I thought i saw her." And don't know why, i was actually wishing that it was not her. Apparently luck was not at my side. Its her after all. Jiaqi approached and she was all smiles, well until she saw me? Never Mind. Maybe i'm just paranoid. She was going to east coast park for some gathering i think? For the 3endurance people... 1st thing i thought was he maybe going and called to confim about the gathering and whether he was going, well, the gathering is true but for some reason or another he wasn't going. Decided not to probe any further
Went on to Harbourfront to meet mingchuen. Jiaqi said that we should go in different timing so it wasn't obvious that we were together once. Well, decided to go along with the plan, david and i went up 1st and saw mingchuen waiting, second time make people wait, also feeling abit guilty. Went up to Vivocity, 1st time there can??? also didn't have time to see see look look. We went there for a sole purpose, to take the er transit??? to sentosa... Jiaqi was buying tickets when we realised that there was filming going on, Mark Lee & Pornsak. Conclusion, should be the show that gives away $50 bucks for beating the score that other mediacorp artist have set.
Went on and they took photos while i just looked because i don't like taking photos. The worst thing is, i still don't know why i don't like to take photos. Hmmz. Went on to this beach called 'palawan beach' i think. Play play play and finally got down to the water, credits to david. And we kinda played in the water for about 2 hours, the girls were wearing white shirts and when we went down to the water, it was a 'colourful' sight. Well, no use feeling embrassed, just look lo =P. The end of the water playing comes with the cake. The cake that somehow was not in a good shape to be eaten, so might as well use it to smash it into ming chuen's face, but i think due to accuracy, we didn't really hit the face, hit the other body parts more. And someone, i have no idea who, managed to struck a blow straight into his ear!!! Its kind of funny can? Then he was like digging out the cake from his ear and i think there's still some inside =P.
When back to mainland singapore freezing, i was freezing can... so damn cold la. Thanks to the stupid brain who didn't remind to be bring extra clothes. Went for mac's at mainland singapore. We were like planning to go for pool? But unfortunately Yihui has some family thingy and could not join us. End up with for bowling because we didn't have the safra card. Juinli called and we went to bowl together at yishun safra. The first game for me is disatrous... Like have 4 '0-' which mean that the ball didn't hit any pins. Ended up with a pathetic score of 52... While david hit a score with 133!!! Jiaqi didn't even make it to 50 =P.(well, she was just 1 step away...) Second game was a little bit better... Because i could it the pins all the time. Well, not all the time, there was 1 time where they told me that i shouldn't throw the bowling ball, but roll is instead... Then i was like Oh? Okay, i try, i try. Then straight into the gutter la =P. And Juinli was laughing at me!!! !@#$%^&. At least 2nd game got 66 points right... Got improve!!! But i know still damn lousy la. Never mind la, i knew i didn't have potential with any ball games de...
Ended up with a exhausted body and a lecture from my brother, cause he's angry with his girlfriend becasue of something about studies... And apparently it reflected very much on me =P. Need to start all my homework tomorrow and i have totally no idea how im gonna complete them...
Knowing i have an extremely strange habit of getting late because of my inability to calcuate time properly, i decided to get ready like 15 minutes beforehand. Got dressed and everything when my dad called out in a loud voice, "Go sweep the floor!!!". Well, i was thinking that since i'm early, and sweeping the house wouldn't take more then 15 mins... Might as well sweep it before i go. Was almost done when my dad shouted, "Sweep finish go mop hor!!!". And that's when i realised i'll be late. Im supposed to leave the house at 9.15 but thanks to the housework, i ended up leaving the house at 9.40... So basically, being on time in mission impossible. Wanna sms david de... Knowing that there was only 26 cents in my prepaid card. So basically, its 5 sms or 1 call. And david called me. Didn't pick up the phone because i really don't want to waste that phone call and when i hung up, M1 sent me a message telling me the balance of my prepaid. $0.04!!! There was only 1 conclusion to be made, apparently my mum received a phone call or called someone through the phone. Crap! Now i can't contact them and tell them i will be late.
Was at last 15mins late and they were like waiting for dunno how long already? See them i also paiseh arh. and jiaqi thought i got lost somewhere??? They decided on a cake and we went back to the station, david went to top up his ez-link card and when he turned back, he said, "I thought i saw her." And don't know why, i was actually wishing that it was not her. Apparently luck was not at my side. Its her after all. Jiaqi approached and she was all smiles, well until she saw me? Never Mind. Maybe i'm just paranoid. She was going to east coast park for some gathering i think? For the 3endurance people... 1st thing i thought was he maybe going and called to confim about the gathering and whether he was going, well, the gathering is true but for some reason or another he wasn't going. Decided not to probe any further
Went on to Harbourfront to meet mingchuen. Jiaqi said that we should go in different timing so it wasn't obvious that we were together once. Well, decided to go along with the plan, david and i went up 1st and saw mingchuen waiting, second time make people wait, also feeling abit guilty. Went up to Vivocity, 1st time there can??? also didn't have time to see see look look. We went there for a sole purpose, to take the er transit??? to sentosa... Jiaqi was buying tickets when we realised that there was filming going on, Mark Lee & Pornsak. Conclusion, should be the show that gives away $50 bucks for beating the score that other mediacorp artist have set.
Went on and they took photos while i just looked because i don't like taking photos. The worst thing is, i still don't know why i don't like to take photos. Hmmz. Went on to this beach called 'palawan beach' i think. Play play play and finally got down to the water, credits to david. And we kinda played in the water for about 2 hours, the girls were wearing white shirts and when we went down to the water, it was a 'colourful' sight. Well, no use feeling embrassed, just look lo =P. The end of the water playing comes with the cake. The cake that somehow was not in a good shape to be eaten, so might as well use it to smash it into ming chuen's face, but i think due to accuracy, we didn't really hit the face, hit the other body parts more. And someone, i have no idea who, managed to struck a blow straight into his ear!!! Its kind of funny can? Then he was like digging out the cake from his ear and i think there's still some inside =P.
When back to mainland singapore freezing, i was freezing can... so damn cold la. Thanks to the stupid brain who didn't remind to be bring extra clothes. Went for mac's at mainland singapore. We were like planning to go for pool? But unfortunately Yihui has some family thingy and could not join us. End up with for bowling because we didn't have the safra card. Juinli called and we went to bowl together at yishun safra. The first game for me is disatrous... Like have 4 '0-' which mean that the ball didn't hit any pins. Ended up with a pathetic score of 52... While david hit a score with 133!!! Jiaqi didn't even make it to 50 =P.(well, she was just 1 step away...) Second game was a little bit better... Because i could it the pins all the time. Well, not all the time, there was 1 time where they told me that i shouldn't throw the bowling ball, but roll is instead... Then i was like Oh? Okay, i try, i try. Then straight into the gutter la =P. And Juinli was laughing at me!!! !@#$%^&. At least 2nd game got 66 points right... Got improve!!! But i know still damn lousy la. Never mind la, i knew i didn't have potential with any ball games de...
Ended up with a exhausted body and a lecture from my brother, cause he's angry with his girlfriend becasue of something about studies... And apparently it reflected very much on me =P. Need to start all my homework tomorrow and i have totally no idea how im gonna complete them...
Monday, June 18, 2007
The Crazy Guy
Okay, I always knew i hadn't any sanity, i didn't realise i lost it to such an extent.
Yesterday night, went to the corridor, if a tennis ball and guess what. A badminton racket!!! Lol... Went out there against the wall and kinda practised... Just hit the ball towards the wall and wait for it to bounce back before hitting it again without moving away my two legs, so it was purely stretching only, but the wall is very short, at most 3 metres in length. And on the right side of the wall is another wall connected in a slanted angel, so i were to hit a backhand whose angle is very very off, it would hit the slanted wall and bounce off somewhere else, a few times even down the stairs... But it was fun can, all i have to do is to stand there hit the ball back to the wall without moving away my legs and tried to hit the ball back against the wall as many times as possible. But well, its a badminton racket after all right? So its kinda easier to practise, especially when you have long hands but the bad thing is, you can't the the ball hard, or it will fly down all the way to the first floor. So control is important too. Realised that volleys(balls that come flying towards you but haven't bounce yet) are impossible to hit with a badminton racket. especially when the space is so limited.
Didn't realise the time and had actually practised for 2 hours!!! Crazy right? the badminton racket i think also bend liao, cannot be used anymore =P. Really crazy activity... but little did i know, insanity runs in the family...
Woke up today due to a loud singing sound. Immediately made the conclusions
1: My father is at home
2: ITE's are having holidays
3: He is singing
4: The television is on
5: He using the mike
6: HE IS SINGING KAROKE!!!
What the hell? 8am in the morning sing karoke??? walao, people no need sleep arh(applies to me only, other people from household everywhere should have woke up) Normally, i don't really comment on how good a singer someone really is, just stay a little neutral and wait. Wah, but my father hor, cannot sing 1 leh, like me liddat that. Very jialat. Somemore the song he sing hor... 1st, at least 5 years ago, 2nd, in dialect, 3rd, mostly sing by girl 1, all the notes all cannot make it. So its kinda torturing you know... 8am choing to computer is crazy enough, 8am choing to karoke set is !@#$%^& luh... -.- i'll just have to endure it. And by the way, it's because of my dad that's why i know so many old songs, but i truly zai place is dialect songs =P.
Yesterday night, went to the corridor, if a tennis ball and guess what. A badminton racket!!! Lol... Went out there against the wall and kinda practised... Just hit the ball towards the wall and wait for it to bounce back before hitting it again without moving away my two legs, so it was purely stretching only, but the wall is very short, at most 3 metres in length. And on the right side of the wall is another wall connected in a slanted angel, so i were to hit a backhand whose angle is very very off, it would hit the slanted wall and bounce off somewhere else, a few times even down the stairs... But it was fun can, all i have to do is to stand there hit the ball back to the wall without moving away my legs and tried to hit the ball back against the wall as many times as possible. But well, its a badminton racket after all right? So its kinda easier to practise, especially when you have long hands but the bad thing is, you can't the the ball hard, or it will fly down all the way to the first floor. So control is important too. Realised that volleys(balls that come flying towards you but haven't bounce yet) are impossible to hit with a badminton racket. especially when the space is so limited.
Didn't realise the time and had actually practised for 2 hours!!! Crazy right? the badminton racket i think also bend liao, cannot be used anymore =P. Really crazy activity... but little did i know, insanity runs in the family...
Woke up today due to a loud singing sound. Immediately made the conclusions
1: My father is at home
2: ITE's are having holidays
3: He is singing
4: The television is on
5: He using the mike
6: HE IS SINGING KAROKE!!!
What the hell? 8am in the morning sing karoke??? walao, people no need sleep arh(applies to me only, other people from household everywhere should have woke up) Normally, i don't really comment on how good a singer someone really is, just stay a little neutral and wait. Wah, but my father hor, cannot sing 1 leh, like me liddat that. Very jialat. Somemore the song he sing hor... 1st, at least 5 years ago, 2nd, in dialect, 3rd, mostly sing by girl 1, all the notes all cannot make it. So its kinda torturing you know... 8am choing to computer is crazy enough, 8am choing to karoke set is !@#$%^& luh... -.- i'll just have to endure it. And by the way, it's because of my dad that's why i know so many old songs, but i truly zai place is dialect songs =P.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Paragraphing =P
Okay la, i hope paragraphing isn't so hard lo... But well, this post is another sad and unfortunate one which i believe at least 1 person is waiting for. Honestly speaking, never ever say this to yourself, "How bad can this day get?". Reason being, it will most likely get worse =P
Went out to STUDY yesterday... And i mean STUDY, nothing else, yah, if you don't consider chatting, it was a whole session of studying and unfortunate incidents. I was supposed to meet sheryl at Long John's at 1pm. When i reached there, saw that there was so much people la... It was a bit of a surprise because i used to think that Long John's is nobody go de =P. Didn't bother to step inside... I don't like to step inside and then see see, end up walk out. So my approach is, see liao, confirm liao, then step inside. Abit too cautious right? Aiya i paranoia ma =P.
Supposed to do physics and chem... And i ended up doing my bio... Reason? Sheryl done it already, can copy =P. End up, she also never do anything much other than the MCQ. I was at question 11 when it happened. I saw 3 guys walk inside, 2 blue PE shirt and 1 BB shirt. Starting abit shocked and wished it wasn't someone i knew and when i look up, haha, Zk, Greg, Zq. Win liao lo, luckily guys won't gossip that much... I hope... Basically, they just went there for lunch so they left once they're done with the meal.
Started on my chem when i realised that in the far corner of my eye, there seem to be someone familiar... hmmz... Took a good look and realised it was my primary school friend and currently and tuition mate(although she never go for tuition 1). Was thinking that im damn suay la, meet so many people i know. And if you're wondering why i don't want to meet anyone that i know is BECAUSE... I'm alone with sheryl... People tend to get the wrong idea... Please la!!! I very faithful de ok?
Seriously wished that this !@#$%^& streak will end and i can study in peace, but things that humans expect, most of the time, aren't really granted or perhaps i should say, granted in some other ways but just not the type that we want. So its kinda frustrating when Valerie walked in. And i felt so Oh My God la... Hope she don't see us which is literally impossible because there's nothing to block her view. Okay, so in a way or so, we were caught... Whatever.
When Valerie left, i was seriously thinking to myself how bad can this day really get man... So frustrating la. And i can't seem to calcuate the percentage... Haiz. Moved on to my Physics when i realised its Extended Express de... Felt so dumb, waste 10 piece of paper and 5 mins of my time... But i guess, it should be kinda easier? So just try it anyway... If don't know how to do really very jialat leh. Was doing the MCQ's when a large group of people walked in. Turn back to see who they are. Council people. CRAP!!! Saw Eileen, Tbt, Shermin, YanYi, LiLian... As far as i know, LiLian is a good friend of sheryl, so expectingly, she'll walk over and start to tease us... Expected la... I really cannot take it already arh, "Ci di bu yi jiu liu". Hurry up finished last bits of MCQ and walked out... Felt so crap can??? Sometimes, its better to study at home =P
Went out to STUDY yesterday... And i mean STUDY, nothing else, yah, if you don't consider chatting, it was a whole session of studying and unfortunate incidents. I was supposed to meet sheryl at Long John's at 1pm. When i reached there, saw that there was so much people la... It was a bit of a surprise because i used to think that Long John's is nobody go de =P. Didn't bother to step inside... I don't like to step inside and then see see, end up walk out. So my approach is, see liao, confirm liao, then step inside. Abit too cautious right? Aiya i paranoia ma =P.
Supposed to do physics and chem... And i ended up doing my bio... Reason? Sheryl done it already, can copy =P. End up, she also never do anything much other than the MCQ. I was at question 11 when it happened. I saw 3 guys walk inside, 2 blue PE shirt and 1 BB shirt. Starting abit shocked and wished it wasn't someone i knew and when i look up, haha, Zk, Greg, Zq. Win liao lo, luckily guys won't gossip that much... I hope... Basically, they just went there for lunch so they left once they're done with the meal.
Started on my chem when i realised that in the far corner of my eye, there seem to be someone familiar... hmmz... Took a good look and realised it was my primary school friend and currently and tuition mate(although she never go for tuition 1). Was thinking that im damn suay la, meet so many people i know. And if you're wondering why i don't want to meet anyone that i know is BECAUSE... I'm alone with sheryl... People tend to get the wrong idea... Please la!!! I very faithful de ok?
Seriously wished that this !@#$%^& streak will end and i can study in peace, but things that humans expect, most of the time, aren't really granted or perhaps i should say, granted in some other ways but just not the type that we want. So its kinda frustrating when Valerie walked in. And i felt so Oh My God la... Hope she don't see us which is literally impossible because there's nothing to block her view. Okay, so in a way or so, we were caught... Whatever.
When Valerie left, i was seriously thinking to myself how bad can this day really get man... So frustrating la. And i can't seem to calcuate the percentage... Haiz. Moved on to my Physics when i realised its Extended Express de... Felt so dumb, waste 10 piece of paper and 5 mins of my time... But i guess, it should be kinda easier? So just try it anyway... If don't know how to do really very jialat leh. Was doing the MCQ's when a large group of people walked in. Turn back to see who they are. Council people. CRAP!!! Saw Eileen, Tbt, Shermin, YanYi, LiLian... As far as i know, LiLian is a good friend of sheryl, so expectingly, she'll walk over and start to tease us... Expected la... I really cannot take it already arh, "Ci di bu yi jiu liu". Hurry up finished last bits of MCQ and walked out... Felt so crap can??? Sometimes, its better to study at home =P
Monday, June 11, 2007
Zui Dao Mei De Yi Tian
Okay, if this post can be written in chinese, i would have named it ,"Zui Dao Mei De Yi Tian". But since i can't, i shall try my best to write it in english.
This day happened 2 days ago...(sounds funny, but never mind.)
It all began when i overslept. Zk called and my dad picked up the phone, i was still sleeping at that time. Then my father woke me up and i realised i am supposed to meet Zk at 11am, and it was already 11.15 and unfortunately, i was still sleeping. So, in theory, i was already late, but luckily Zk called before he went out, so he wont need to wait for me so long since he haven't stepped out of his house yet. Was still late after all even though the timing has been changed but then he wasn't angry so good lor. Went all the way down to school, original plan was to play snooker, but then don't know if can take the snooker room key, so that's worrying me. Managed to take it however until the next damn thing 'appeared'. The shutters are closed. In other words, i cannot go up to the snooker room, so basically, the key is useless. Luckily, Greg's BB is ending, so we only waited awhile before we carried on with this day's progamme. Went for lunch at j8... Long John's again, and got the scratch cards again =P. Went on this bus '410' and went to leslie's house, realised that we stopped too early and had to walk like 20 minutes? so damn long la, from a shopping centre called 'sim lim square(i think?)' all the way to leslie's condo. Reached there and went on straight for the day's main event. TENNIS. After swinging the bats a few times, i realised that the bat is kind of heavy for me, or rather, too heavy for me. Normally, people wouldn't really notice this, but when playing games such as tennis, table tennis or badminton, we would actually calculate the distance and stretch out our hand to hit in. And actually, the distance that we subconciously calculated actually allows the ball to land somewhere in the middle of the racket. Unfortunately, i have no talent in this. Firstly, my arms are too long, so when they hit a ball near me, my arm would not swing, in fact, its my hand that is swinging. Notice the difference? Swinging your arms actually means swinging all the way from the shoulders onwards, however, swinging your hand means swinging from the elbow and onwards. In terms of power and accuracy, there is a damn big difference la. So basically, i didn't win a single point in the whole session of about 1 hour. And it is because i either miss the ball or i hit it up into the sky until it flies until don't know where or i hit it so low that it hits the net. Was damn tired la, cause i tried to move and correct these shitty mistakes. End up so damn tired can't even walk 100m la. had to rest halfway and even sitting is too tiring but i didn't lie down la. Not my property ma. Zk, Greg and leslie decided to swim. And i was like 'Oh My God?' i didn't bring any swimming equipment la. Then they say just wear a shorts and jump down la. Felt lucky that i brought my PE shorts along.(i played tennis in my long pants =P) Little did i know the disater that follows. Go down water, wah very cold then later warm up liao found it cooling. They decided to bring a tennis ball down and play some water games. Had fun at the start until something horrible happened. Cramps! Leg Cramps! 1st time suffering a leg cramp in the water. And it was the right leg that was injured. The worst thing is, after i came up the water, it is still damn painful like until 10 minutes later? thought everything okay liao and made a super wrong decision. I went back into the water to join them again. This time, both legs cramp. crap right? felt lucky that the pool isn't so deep =P. Was extremely puzzled la, don't cramps occur when you never do warm-ups? but i just had tennis for warm-ups la. Formulated a stupid theory myself. It is no secret that we get hot when we exercise, and the muscles will expand. but during exercise, the heat comes from the muscles, but inside yout legs, so the expansions started from the muscles all the way to your skin. However, when i jumped into the pool, the water cools down the legs and we all know that things contract when they're cold. So the theory i formulated is, my muscles haven't cooled down so they're still larger than 'normal' but the skin has already cooled down and are smaller than 'normal' so this uneven expansion causes the cramps.
I know 50% of the people reading this blog has a 80% chance that they wont understand the stupid theory i formulated myself. The point is, i was there standing in the pool, unable to move at all. stuck in the middle la. So Lang Bei... Then see them play until so fun, yet all i can do was to stand in the middle of the pool... so sad can?Strangely, the cramps don't come at all after im out of the pool, only sometimes a little bit pain. So it's like, the pool is at fault??? Went home and sleep, all the way till sunday.......
This day happened 2 days ago...(sounds funny, but never mind.)
It all began when i overslept. Zk called and my dad picked up the phone, i was still sleeping at that time. Then my father woke me up and i realised i am supposed to meet Zk at 11am, and it was already 11.15 and unfortunately, i was still sleeping. So, in theory, i was already late, but luckily Zk called before he went out, so he wont need to wait for me so long since he haven't stepped out of his house yet. Was still late after all even though the timing has been changed but then he wasn't angry so good lor. Went all the way down to school, original plan was to play snooker, but then don't know if can take the snooker room key, so that's worrying me. Managed to take it however until the next damn thing 'appeared'. The shutters are closed. In other words, i cannot go up to the snooker room, so basically, the key is useless. Luckily, Greg's BB is ending, so we only waited awhile before we carried on with this day's progamme. Went for lunch at j8... Long John's again, and got the scratch cards again =P. Went on this bus '410' and went to leslie's house, realised that we stopped too early and had to walk like 20 minutes? so damn long la, from a shopping centre called 'sim lim square(i think?)' all the way to leslie's condo. Reached there and went on straight for the day's main event. TENNIS. After swinging the bats a few times, i realised that the bat is kind of heavy for me, or rather, too heavy for me. Normally, people wouldn't really notice this, but when playing games such as tennis, table tennis or badminton, we would actually calculate the distance and stretch out our hand to hit in. And actually, the distance that we subconciously calculated actually allows the ball to land somewhere in the middle of the racket. Unfortunately, i have no talent in this. Firstly, my arms are too long, so when they hit a ball near me, my arm would not swing, in fact, its my hand that is swinging. Notice the difference? Swinging your arms actually means swinging all the way from the shoulders onwards, however, swinging your hand means swinging from the elbow and onwards. In terms of power and accuracy, there is a damn big difference la. So basically, i didn't win a single point in the whole session of about 1 hour. And it is because i either miss the ball or i hit it up into the sky until it flies until don't know where or i hit it so low that it hits the net. Was damn tired la, cause i tried to move and correct these shitty mistakes. End up so damn tired can't even walk 100m la. had to rest halfway and even sitting is too tiring but i didn't lie down la. Not my property ma. Zk, Greg and leslie decided to swim. And i was like 'Oh My God?' i didn't bring any swimming equipment la. Then they say just wear a shorts and jump down la. Felt lucky that i brought my PE shorts along.(i played tennis in my long pants =P) Little did i know the disater that follows. Go down water, wah very cold then later warm up liao found it cooling. They decided to bring a tennis ball down and play some water games. Had fun at the start until something horrible happened. Cramps! Leg Cramps! 1st time suffering a leg cramp in the water. And it was the right leg that was injured. The worst thing is, after i came up the water, it is still damn painful like until 10 minutes later? thought everything okay liao and made a super wrong decision. I went back into the water to join them again. This time, both legs cramp. crap right? felt lucky that the pool isn't so deep =P. Was extremely puzzled la, don't cramps occur when you never do warm-ups? but i just had tennis for warm-ups la. Formulated a stupid theory myself. It is no secret that we get hot when we exercise, and the muscles will expand. but during exercise, the heat comes from the muscles, but inside yout legs, so the expansions started from the muscles all the way to your skin. However, when i jumped into the pool, the water cools down the legs and we all know that things contract when they're cold. So the theory i formulated is, my muscles haven't cooled down so they're still larger than 'normal' but the skin has already cooled down and are smaller than 'normal' so this uneven expansion causes the cramps.
I know 50% of the people reading this blog has a 80% chance that they wont understand the stupid theory i formulated myself. The point is, i was there standing in the pool, unable to move at all. stuck in the middle la. So Lang Bei... Then see them play until so fun, yet all i can do was to stand in the middle of the pool... so sad can?Strangely, the cramps don't come at all after im out of the pool, only sometimes a little bit pain. So it's like, the pool is at fault??? Went home and sleep, all the way till sunday.......
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Class Chalet
basically, if you glanced through some people's blog, you'll have a pretty good sense about how the class chalet is, so, i shall not talk much about it either. But since this post is titled 'Class Chatlet', i guess i just have to write something. And i assure you, its definitely not what others have wrote. Okay, maybe thats abit impossible, WHATEVER.
But first thing first, i wanna thank the people, who witness it. Yes! That incident. I really must thank you all, none for you, as far as i know, wrote about it, and that to me, is a great form of respect. And so i thank you. But well, i guessed that many of the people actually realised how 'good' my acting is. Although it was full of holes can? I tried to act my usual acting style, cracking jokes that aren't really funny.(i know they are not funnty can?) But seriously la, the trickling drops of liquid seriously irritated me la. And when im really irritated by them, i just can't seem to act 'normal'. Kept scolding people for little things that they do wrong, sometimes, they didn't even do it wrongly, just went scolding and scolding, maybe everyone just thought it was 'normal' but it seriously wasn't and i sincerely believed some people saw through the acting. Sharp people i don't dare to underestimate. But now, my leg is still hurting la, i injured it 2 days before the class chalet. The worst thing is, i dun know how i even injured it. And its the right leg. And its really very 'fun' la, when you're injured and you do sports, the leg will give a very different sensation, seriously, but its sometimes painful though. I sincerely believed no one saw through the acting of the leg, i went on playing badminton, i went on cycling and i went on enduring the cramps every morning, perhaps people in the chalet thought i was just 'posing' when im awake on the bed clutching my legs. But they seriously do hurt. Every morning.
But first thing first, i wanna thank the people, who witness it. Yes! That incident. I really must thank you all, none for you, as far as i know, wrote about it, and that to me, is a great form of respect. And so i thank you. But well, i guessed that many of the people actually realised how 'good' my acting is. Although it was full of holes can? I tried to act my usual acting style, cracking jokes that aren't really funny.(i know they are not funnty can?) But seriously la, the trickling drops of liquid seriously irritated me la. And when im really irritated by them, i just can't seem to act 'normal'. Kept scolding people for little things that they do wrong, sometimes, they didn't even do it wrongly, just went scolding and scolding, maybe everyone just thought it was 'normal' but it seriously wasn't and i sincerely believed some people saw through the acting. Sharp people i don't dare to underestimate. But now, my leg is still hurting la, i injured it 2 days before the class chalet. The worst thing is, i dun know how i even injured it. And its the right leg. And its really very 'fun' la, when you're injured and you do sports, the leg will give a very different sensation, seriously, but its sometimes painful though. I sincerely believed no one saw through the acting of the leg, i went on playing badminton, i went on cycling and i went on enduring the cramps every morning, perhaps people in the chalet thought i was just 'posing' when im awake on the bed clutching my legs. But they seriously do hurt. Every morning.
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Haiz, another nagging session =P
Haiz, got scolded again by my brother last night, it was kinda surprising man, he just sat at the sofa & say, "Bring me your report book!"
And my reaction was... Huh? you mean you haven't see it? then how come you still scold the last time? grrr... Brought him my report book and he took 20 seconds to look at it. Then he said, "Chinese also can fail arh? Are you a chinese anot? I got 1 friend, his son get 60+ for his chinese, tio scolded by my friend liao, cos all his other subject can get 90+ then chinese get 60+ only, so low, as a chinese should score for chinese de lo."(all in chinese, i translate myself =P)
So i was thinking, wah? 90+ for all other subject except english arh? he special stream go transfer to normal tech issit? seemed so impossible la.
Then he told me he consulted my brother-in-law on how he could help me in my studies, and well, my brother-in-law said that there was no way to help me, he said that 15years old is old enough to make decisions. there is no way to help.
AND I AGREED! the best way to help me is to let me die.
Then he went on saying about maths...
He said, "Tell you maths must write de, see la, everytime revise just look only, never practice, thats why get so lousy, see a-maths. Test 1, 49.2% only, this kind of lousy result come out because you look look then think can liao la. See test 2, even worse, only get... Wah? 81%??? not bad huh?"
its like damn funny la, saying how lousy, how lousy, then suddenly, wah not bad arh, 81%... so crap can? i almost laughed out la, he himself also abit paiseh... Hahaha. Then he went on to ask what is 'combined humanities'
i said it was history and social studies(i take history =P)
The he exclaimed, "Social Studies also can fail arh? What the hell are you doing man?"... and i was thinking, i thought alot of people fail Social Studies de? Haiz, now is different times liao, maybe last time Social Studies no kick de... after all there is this long generation gap, maybe last time in Social Studies they learned how we managed to survive instead of the new policies that we learn about today.
Then he commented on my gaming and how i cannot improve without coming down with a will to stop gaming once and for all. And unless i am able to stop gaming, its impossible to improve de lo. And i was disappointed la, my brother used to check the internet history de lo, so he should know that i stopped gaming de lo, during that long 2months. Yet now he say this kinda things, so after all he stopped checking the internet history and didn't realised i stopped gaming, and so i get wronged again for something i didn't do again. How crappy man?
i know that humans tend to focus on negative things more than positive ones but its too exagerrating can? Can't he see the difference? 49.2% to 81% leh, you think easy arh. He just take improvements for granted lo. He practically think that im supposed to improve lo, but when i do worse, he comes down hard on me lo. So is this fair? just think la? Fair meh? Sorry, i don't think that its fair can?
perhaps im getting a little agitated here, i don't care lo, i knew the world is unfair, i just don't know how to make it fair.
And my reaction was... Huh? you mean you haven't see it? then how come you still scold the last time? grrr... Brought him my report book and he took 20 seconds to look at it. Then he said, "Chinese also can fail arh? Are you a chinese anot? I got 1 friend, his son get 60+ for his chinese, tio scolded by my friend liao, cos all his other subject can get 90+ then chinese get 60+ only, so low, as a chinese should score for chinese de lo."(all in chinese, i translate myself =P)
So i was thinking, wah? 90+ for all other subject except english arh? he special stream go transfer to normal tech issit? seemed so impossible la.
Then he told me he consulted my brother-in-law on how he could help me in my studies, and well, my brother-in-law said that there was no way to help me, he said that 15years old is old enough to make decisions. there is no way to help.
AND I AGREED! the best way to help me is to let me die.
Then he went on saying about maths...
He said, "Tell you maths must write de, see la, everytime revise just look only, never practice, thats why get so lousy, see a-maths. Test 1, 49.2% only, this kind of lousy result come out because you look look then think can liao la. See test 2, even worse, only get... Wah? 81%??? not bad huh?"
its like damn funny la, saying how lousy, how lousy, then suddenly, wah not bad arh, 81%... so crap can? i almost laughed out la, he himself also abit paiseh... Hahaha. Then he went on to ask what is 'combined humanities'
i said it was history and social studies(i take history =P)
The he exclaimed, "Social Studies also can fail arh? What the hell are you doing man?"... and i was thinking, i thought alot of people fail Social Studies de? Haiz, now is different times liao, maybe last time Social Studies no kick de... after all there is this long generation gap, maybe last time in Social Studies they learned how we managed to survive instead of the new policies that we learn about today.
Then he commented on my gaming and how i cannot improve without coming down with a will to stop gaming once and for all. And unless i am able to stop gaming, its impossible to improve de lo. And i was disappointed la, my brother used to check the internet history de lo, so he should know that i stopped gaming de lo, during that long 2months. Yet now he say this kinda things, so after all he stopped checking the internet history and didn't realised i stopped gaming, and so i get wronged again for something i didn't do again. How crappy man?
i know that humans tend to focus on negative things more than positive ones but its too exagerrating can? Can't he see the difference? 49.2% to 81% leh, you think easy arh. He just take improvements for granted lo. He practically think that im supposed to improve lo, but when i do worse, he comes down hard on me lo. So is this fair? just think la? Fair meh? Sorry, i don't think that its fair can?
perhaps im getting a little agitated here, i don't care lo, i knew the world is unfair, i just don't know how to make it fair.
Kong Qiu Qian-Lin Yu Zhong
the theme for the drama 'The Beginning' =P Very nice wor but the opening soooo long, about 60+ seconds then he start singing...
Friday, June 01, 2007
1st Quiz On My Blog =P
Saw this quiz on Mr White.Elephant's Blog.
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the nextbutton to get your answer.
3. Put the last title of the song asthe subject
4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONGNAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!
If someone says 'Is This Okay?'
- Breakaway (sounds like go away =P)
What would best describe your personality?
- Tian Hui (How true? feeling so gray now =P)
What do you like in a guy/girl?
- Lian Ai Da Ren (Ok so what does this mean?)
How do you feel today?
- Kiss Goodbye (Haiz....)
What is your life's purpose?
- Complicated (Erp....)
What is your motto?
- Pirates Of The Carribean (Ok so now im gonna be a pirate?)
What do your friends think of you?
- Walk Away (I got so dao meh???)
What do you think of your parents?
- Welcome To My Life (True... Wish they could come in and understand)
What do you think about very often?
- Beautiful Disaster (Haha, how true man?)
What do you think of your besties?
- You Had A Bad Day (Hmmz? What's 'besties' anyway?)
What do you think of the person you like?
- Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (TRUE!!! TRUE!!!)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
- Here Without You (Er? is that a job?)
What do think when you see the person you like?
- Because Of You (True la, all because of Her)
What do your parents think of you?
- The Reason (the reason of what?why i disobey them so much?)
What will you dance at your wedding?
- She will be loved (awwwww)
What will they play at your funeral?
- Wo Ke Yi (I can? Can do what? Can die liao arh?)
What is your hobby/interest?
- Behind These Hazel Eyes? (Ok... perhaps my hobby is hiding behind these hazel eyes)
What is your biggest fear?
- Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye (Yah man, later my ending also like them =P)
What is your biggest secret?
- A Moment Like This (The moment which i murdered someone?)
What do you think of your friends?
- Since You've Been Gone? (Alot of friends gone arh??? Ok lo)
What song will the subject when you repost?
- Alones'tv size' (Lol perhaps? introuduce that song on next post =P)
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the nextbutton to get your answer.
3. Put the last title of the song asthe subject
4. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONGNAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!!!
If someone says 'Is This Okay?'
- Breakaway (sounds like go away =P)
What would best describe your personality?
- Tian Hui (How true? feeling so gray now =P)
What do you like in a guy/girl?
- Lian Ai Da Ren (Ok so what does this mean?)
How do you feel today?
- Kiss Goodbye (Haiz....)
What is your life's purpose?
- Complicated (Erp....)
What is your motto?
- Pirates Of The Carribean (Ok so now im gonna be a pirate?)
What do your friends think of you?
- Walk Away (I got so dao meh???)
What do you think of your parents?
- Welcome To My Life (True... Wish they could come in and understand)
What do you think about very often?
- Beautiful Disaster (Haha, how true man?)
What do you think of your besties?
- You Had A Bad Day (Hmmz? What's 'besties' anyway?)
What do you think of the person you like?
- Zhuan Shu Tian Shi (TRUE!!! TRUE!!!)
What do you want to be when you grow up?
- Here Without You (Er? is that a job?)
What do think when you see the person you like?
- Because Of You (True la, all because of Her)
What do your parents think of you?
- The Reason (the reason of what?why i disobey them so much?)
What will you dance at your wedding?
- She will be loved (awwwww)
What will they play at your funeral?
- Wo Ke Yi (I can? Can do what? Can die liao arh?)
What is your hobby/interest?
- Behind These Hazel Eyes? (Ok... perhaps my hobby is hiding behind these hazel eyes)
What is your biggest fear?
- Liang Shan Bo Yu Zhu Li Ye (Yah man, later my ending also like them =P)
What is your biggest secret?
- A Moment Like This (The moment which i murdered someone?)
What do you think of your friends?
- Since You've Been Gone? (Alot of friends gone arh??? Ok lo)
What song will the subject when you repost?
- Alones'tv size' (Lol perhaps? introuduce that song on next post =P)
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