Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Early in the morning and got all worried! But...

I was filled, with such delight, i was filled with such delight~
Delight~ delight~ delight...

Damn random, SYF choice piece 'Everyone Sang' in 2007.

此地无银三百两.

Hahahaha.

Nevertheless, I'm glad that the CTG turned out well and that there's lotsa basketball peeps ^^. Got A LITTLE bit worried if that would take my spot away but i have CONFIDENCE!

If only my ITouch hadn't run into MORE problems the day would have been awesome! Dear ITouch please recover )_(. I obviously can't afford another one, let alone lose this one.


Cyanide might stop respiration and photosynthesis by disrupting the Electron Transport Chain, BUT it is still an effective medicine/herbicide/poison for us to use ^^.

Mihanhae

All i wonder is how many times i had said sorry. With every single of them sincere and real.
For whatever that happens, as long as it does not directly involve you, its easy to smile and say its okay, forget it. If you think about it further, you yourself would know that had it been you, you wouldn't have been able to stop thinking about it.

Sometimes, we just have to count our blessings.

And in other times, be ambitious.

Life's an irony. If you can't change it, live with in.

Saw a dead rat in the middle of the pavement while walking to the bus stop this morning. Since its in the middle of the pavement, it couldn't have been knocked over by a car. It couldn't have been caught by some flying creatures since their nests are not on pavements. And it couldn't have been ran over by a bicycle since there were no tyre marks, let alone be stepped on by pedestrians since rodents have, as long as we knew them, be more flexible than humans.

So it probably died of some rat disease.

And i walked pass it as if it did not exist.

Regardless of feeling guilty, i did not turn back, i was not willing to risk myself to contact the rat corpse.

The whole impact of that one single rat, that's DEAD was only and significantly felt when i came home from the bus stop, and walked right by it, AGAIN.

Makes me wonder what kind of personality i do have, some kinda selfish, dark self?

Probably its still there now.


What kills you is not what breaks you. What breaks you is what kills you.
Mihanhae
Btw, i forgot to mention yesterday about the presence of alky groups and Project Work grades that also cloud my head alongside with birdshit, cyanide, royalty and gravity.

Anyway, Orientation day TWO is FUN. Like really FUN ^^

OG17 got really higher than day one and i felt that i really didn't need to step out. Just need to handle the admin work if necessary, THEY CAN LEAD THEMSELVES, with our assistance of course.

Taking the lead to lead, SUCCESS for OG17!

But too bad they're gonna get separated anyway. Hope whatever CTG that comes along the way would be, as good/greater/much better!

Damn happy cause Coach.L praised me today ^^ Even though he says we should be humble about winning and all those kind of thing, i still feel happy =P. =)))))))))

Tonight's gonna be a good night, good good night!

House Cheer on monday, ADMIRALTY's gonna own man. 200%




Even though every single one had used it, i don't blame any of you. Perhaps, had i been in your shoes, i would have done it too.
Mihanhae
Should stop thinking about cyanide effects, gravational pulls, bird shits and how to win the chess game with a queen.

Vexed, cause my brain can't stop thinking. When i sleep, they appear as dreams, when I'm awake, they appear as illusions.

Gotta work it out!
12 is for SUNNY ^^
22 is for JESSICA =P
and 24 is for SOOYOUNG.

and i couldn't figure out wad yoona was wearing. So sad.

Anyway, even though SUNNY is not the member i like the most in SNSD(she's 3rd), 12 is MY jersey number ^^

Freshmen are coming TOMORROW. Snsd's album is TOMORROW.

Isn't really sure of what reaction to give for orientation. Should I be glad... sad...? Definitely need to be enthusiatic though. I'm an OGL ^^

Despite having lots of homework, i won't be in lessons tml so hehehehehe. PROCRASTINATION is the word here for CONSIDERATION. Muhahahaha.

Screwed up chem test, knowingly, got back CA1,2,3, test paper and got a DOUBLE-DIGIT score. Woots! Broke my personal record low. Not that its something worthy to be proud of, but nevertheless, im just glad that:
1st - I ain't the lowest in class =P
2nd - I got a double digit score! (its damn significant FYI)

Got back bio promo paper also and realised how much my essay questions have dragged me down. In fact, in my attempt to draw a VIRUS molecule/particle/whatever u call it, the dear marker just wrote:
DRAWING IS MOSTLY WRONG!

There's a reason why i failed art in secondary school )_(

Changes for the better. May they all come.
Mihanhae
Was a little sad i couldn't blog in school due to some restrictions in my beloved ITouch. But i understand =). Its not a computer. Haha.

My mood suddenly became a lot better when I'm greeted with the smell of durians the very first step i took into my house. Oh sweet aroma ^^

Unfortunately, i hadn't taken my dinner and while i wolfed it down, my brother and his wife enjoyed it )_(. I was too full to eat it anymore...

But still did anyway, so damn freaking full now. Arghhh

That's what you get when you're too greedy, you know you want it, despite everything else. You get it. Then you regret it. Haiz. That's just life.

6.30 reach school for me tml morning! So probably going bring my basketball ba... Since nothing else to do le )_(. I just need to survive in incoming TEN DAYS. And i really need all the help i can get!!!


I can read you like a book if you're gonna be like that. The hesitation in your voice, your panicking eyes, your reaction that gave you away instantly. Maybe, no one else would have discovered it. But i did. Live with it.

Mihanhae

Monday, January 25, 2010

Using my blog like as if its twitter (i have no twitter btw).

I'm giving up CF3.3 because i think i know approximately what is needed.

Similar to my bio, i stop studying the minute i feel that its sufficient for me to pass! But to get A's you gotta walk the extra mile, which im always too lazy to )_(

Haiz, I sigh in desperation.

Its pretty pathetic when your best friends are:
1. A barely functional computer (Restarts automatically without prior notice)

2. An ITouch that's gone through the ages with lotsa scratches without ITunes to support it (My computer is barely functional... Remember?)

3. My personal space! (This blog) which i think im free to put up ANYTHING. Other than things that might cause me trouble if seen.

Since this is gonna be my PERSONAL space. I'll probably put up a password for it soon ^^ If you're one of the lucky people who by some chance clicked on the link directing here, then you're in luck!

Or at least i think you're... Hehe

Password to be put-up in a few days time: CYANIDE
^^

Mihanhae
Was happy and glee and looking forward to everything that monday can bring to me in the afternoon.

Was STILL happy and glee when playing basketball at 4pm+ with the bball people.

Ran the 8 rounds in lane 4 despite not exactly forced to! It feels pretty great to be running on the track again! Tiring, was slow in finishing the last 2 laps but still felt awesome!

Went late for OGL training (i admit, i knew i was going to be late as soon as i started the 8 rounds). But nothing seems to have started yet so... -.-

Tried to be high like all the leaders wanted us to be la. Tried to throw my face away like nobody's business, throw image like it never existed. So how come there are still people who don't dare to just express themselves?

PEOPLE, YOU HAVE TO BE BRAVE!!! YOU'RE OGLs!!!

Ah no one would (hopefully) see this anyway. haha.

And all was going well until the EXCOs left......

Went back to BBALL TRAINING! Hehe, i like that satisfactory feeling of jumping really high! The air up there REALLY SMELLS DIFFERENT. Even if you're only there for like less than a second? It just pure AWESOME.

Loves THE AIR UP THERE ^^

Wants to dunk on YJ's rim before A div starts, wonder if i can make it )_(
Ultimately wants to dish down a alley dunk ^^, enjoying the air up there hehe.



Loves CN-, for cyanide that inhibits electron transport chain so respiration and photosynthesis can no longer take place! And it didn't come out for bio test )_(

Mihanhae

Back at home!

At home on a monday afternoon at 3pm! Hahaha, awesome monday despite everyone hating mondays.

All the yeast cells might have died during bio practical, but chem lecture was great! I like the lecturer ^^ at least she doesn't hypnotize me! Haha =)

LycC is happy and glee!

Saw more news on SNSD's Oh!, and if they're all gonna be positive news, I'll be having such high hopes for the album!!! And its coming out on the 25th. Which is TOMORROW ^^ Saw that it hit 1st on music charts after it was uploaded in TEN MINUTES. And that was only the 30sec teaser!!! SNSD FTW =P

Need to juggle between OGL training and Basketball training later. Need to express my superman genes! I'm suddenly so happy and glee. I have no idea why. Haha

Back to CF3 studying for awhile before i head back to school for some basketball ^^



If there was a answer why guys moved on faster than ladies, it would be because guys already moved on before anything ended while the gals were kept in the dark.

Mihanhae.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Somehow, i'm just glad that i never ever delete this page. I always find some way to use it once in a while. Haha.

Am wondering why I'm typing all these when I'm supposed to be doing CF revision anyway. But i guess graph drawing has been my achilles heel from the first day i ever met it in mathematics.

It's just been sad. Feeling lost and incompetent and despite wanting to say it all out, couldn't find an appropiate ear. Perhaps i've really been living under a rock all these years.

Maybe i should be in canberra instead. Its all these commitments that's making me go crazy and display more and more of my bipolar personality.

It's frustrating.

Just realizing that giving up some commitments doesn't ensure you're able to be commited to the others just hits me in the face like a hurricane. I gave up so much just to be in this position and suddenly i don't even wanna be here. I wonder what really pushes me.

Sometimes I just want it all, other times wanting nothing at all. I want to be there, on the top, reaching such great heights and looking down. Or just lead a humble life.

Then just let my imagination run wild since its the only personal thing i have left. Imagine that I'm suddenly a player flirting around, having flings one after another (actually i only wanna have 1 la, but that don't really matter) and deeply respected by everyone else ^^

Snap*


Mihanhae, I'm just pure sad.