Headache early in the morning. Argh!!!

All I can say is they were freaking right.
Build your house(your sanctuary, fortitude, will, resolve, determination, etc) brick by boring brick(strongly, diligently) or the wolf's(the bad guy/thing/object) gonna blow is down(destroy without much effort).

Yeah, it all broke down before her bloody smile.

I'm not starting to hate her, just that I understand the need to stay away. Yet even if I die I can't bear to send her to hell. It no longer matters.

What's poison what's medicine? It's all the same thing.

Medication, used under wrong circumstances are no different from poison, they no longer help you but destroy you. Poison, meant to cause you harm, can actually heal you if applied correctly (Yi Du Gong Du/Fight poison with poison).

Freaking got a headache on saturday night when I downed just HALF a can of JOLLY SANDY. Total wtf. It's supposed to help me enter my dreams more peacefully. Just had the exact opposite result. I couldn't even finish the can luh.

CSU. Haiz, FAILED MY CHEMISTRY. Sobs~

It still sucks even if you saw it coming, because you'll always have the small inch of hope that never dies out, like the light coming from a small hole, until the truth hits in your face till you can barely stand up.

Monday morning and I failed maths and chemistry. Sian

Guess I found the right song.

외톨이야 by C.N. Blue they're a new band =)

Here's the english translations:


TRANSLATIONS

*외톨이야 /I'm a Loner/Alone*

(I'm a loner. I'm a loner.
I'm a loner. I'm a loner.)

Look, look at me, me. Look at me straight in the eyes.
Look, you are already look at elsewhere.
Check it one two three, you only keep looking at the clock.
You don't have to tell me. I know you got someone else.


(Rap)
You've been meeting someone else often lately.
You don't even call me first anymore.
When you are with me, you would only look at the sky even if a day is a second long.
Oh~ I know your mind. The distance between you and I.
Getting farther and wider. We are no better than strangers.


# oh baby I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner. I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner being sad at love, shedding tear at love. sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight. My hurt hurts.
Oh no no no no no body knows, how I feel.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm cheering up myself passing many nights awake.

(Rap) If you had just told me honestly
that you got someone else. That you hate me.
Then I wouldn't have hated you to death.
check it one two three. Remembering your words, they are all silly lies.

# Repeat

Love is going. Love is leaving.
(One person and one love. Everything that I've been used to)
I should erase you after tonight.
(Yes, I should force myself to erase you. I should do so since you abandoned me)
(Gone Gone my love is gone)


I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~ I'm a loner, I'm a loner. daridiridara du~
I'm a loner, I'm a loner. I'm a loner hurt by love and waiting for love.
sad sad sad sad sad sad sad tonight, I want this to be a dream.
Oh no no no no no body knows, no body knows me.
one two three four five six seven night, I'm crying passing many nights awake.

ROMANIZATION: Blue 923@Cnblue-sky.net
TRANSLATION: 1takeKK@Cnblue-sky.net

I placed the entire 182 songs in my ITouch on shuffle. Yea pathetically little I know. Cause I've always believed in putting the songs that I really, and only want. Even if its for those few days.

And I abolised that when I started downloading albums.

And now I'm punching 'next' like no tomorrow, trying to find, in the vast(but not so vast) sea of songs, one that really suit my mood.

I think I pretty much really know why girls like to read romance novels(assuming those that do in the first place), it creates an illusion. One that tells you of the things you really wanted to experience, things that you can't. Not in real life. At least there's the idealistic one to look up and upon to.

Drown in it. Take off into the world within the pages. Illusion it might be, painkiller it will be. So as long as you're in it.

And yet I'm stepping into it, readily, with wide-open arms.

Despite warning myself for years. That everything is...

All but an illusion.

I've heard it from him, now I want to hear it from you, personally.

Announce the end of the race that never begun, stab the already dead heart. I have to admit, I'll be like an addict without his drugs, smoker without his cigarattes, gambler without cards. And I'll have to live with it. Until I get over it.

Got into college team. Annouced yesterday. Very happy for a while. Until I saw the faces that the guys who didn't make it were trying to hide. The line was drawed. And I didn't realise it. Its unavoidable now. Things are going to be awkward these few days. Haiz.

Everything's going perfectly according to plan, I trained and got into it but now I'm pretty sad about it. Even though it might sound hypocritical since I wouldn't give up the slot even if I could, but its doing us no good. Not the team, the people in the team. Just like last year. I fully appreciate my seniors' feelings now.

Stupified.

Things come and go. Strike the iron while its hot or miss the arrow that never returns to its bow. I saw this coming, not so fast and furious but expected it. Still it hurts like never-ending and no matter how I tried to hide it, it still leaves a scar like a tattoo I can't erase.

Live another 60 years on earth and my heart would probably cease to move. I need something, someone, some feelings. Cause I'm feeling empty like a stupid idiot. And things have yet to hit me hard yet.

Numb?