Haha. Not really...

Isn't it just stupid for someone to forget their blog's passwords? I can hardly forget it even after not blogging for almost 2 whole years. It just proves how important somethings are to one.

Sometimes, even the smallest things we won't forget. For example, I'm sure all of us still remember a certain pet phrase of one of our teachers in the past. Not all of the teachers of course, but one with either a really cute and impactful pet phrase, or one that truly impacted your life.

Alternatively, it can just be one that has taught you for like a straight 4 years or something. Haha. Which happened to me in primary school! So my primary school teacher probably is one of the most memorable teachers I have. Haha. And she added me on facebook!

Weekends are long even if its only 48 hours and I'm sleeping half of it away. But but but!!! There's so much work and revision to be done that I don't want to do! And that's the greatest problem ever since I was a student. Since my brain is only ruling in name and that the true power lies with my heart...

So when my heart says dahhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaa go and sleep/play while my brain is sending emergency signals to my body parts, they all get ignored )_(

I shall see if this weekend would be the same! Haha.

Maybe someday... You'll tell me why you chose left over right.

Maybe, living on as a hypocrite ain't that bad. So I'm just wondering why I was so stubborn. Why I like to distinctively separate those that I like and those that I not. Why bother choosing between love and hate so much?

Just live as a hypocrite and everything will be fine. Just put on an empty smile to everyone and they'll think you're fine.

From a distance, is where scenery, looks the best.

Sadness, is creeping back in. From the void of emptiness. I let out a silent scream, wishing somebody would hear me, though what I really want is for someone to find me.

有一些话打好了却不敢传,怕收到讯息的你在为难

Sometimes, I'm too nice because I think of the other person too much. Too much considerations that I held myself back, only to regret it later on. Or regret it immediately by ignoring those considerations.

Other times, I'm just pure mean because I don't think of the other person at all. No consideration of how the person(s) will feel. To some, I just let myself loose, I don't be careful around them, ignoring their feelings.

Really, its like I'm a two-faced man. Some bipolar disorder or something. But more likely its because of the closeness of the person to me.

I wonder why, but some people, even though we clearly are friends, I couldn't care much about them. Shoot them down relentlessly without offence. And others, whom of which don't even exchanges words with me, I am consciously helping them to the best of my ability without them knowing. I shun because I like to avoid awkwardness since we probably are only friends in name.

So I don't know how exactly people in my life are classified. Some will unmistakingly enjoy privelges not open to others without even knowing why, some might attempt to get close to me without a single improvement in months.

Hmmz. All I can say is, too bad. Haha =)

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Really, that's just how I seem to be looking nowadays. A blank smile. Nothing in front, nothing behind. No cause, no context, no consequence. Its just there.

Its like smiling without being happy. Though that doesn't mean that I'm sad. Its just empty. Like how I feel my life now is. I need something, someone to excite me. Fill me up.

I wanna live in those Taiwan Idol Dramas where the characters are never bored, their life is always filled with events, good and bad. A fairytale where everything seems to end perfectly nice.

Not like the seemingly endless empty life. As if you're looking out to an ocean on a beach(not on singapore beaches though). Its just the sea, the never-ending sea. I kinda experienced it once, even though I was looking out from a singapore beach. But the mass volume of sheer void just absorbs me. Its like sucking me in. Maybe that's just the charm of the sea, cause I really felt like jumping straight into it, until my conscious took over and stopped me.

I may appear, act very arrogantly, but I dare say everyday before I reach school, I lower my head. Haha.

Thanks to that branch off the tree that appears to be falling off but never really quite getting there. So everyday when I walk to the bus stop, I'll lower my head as I pass by the tree.

So if there's anything good/bad the slight rain did today, it was to cause the branch to fall even lower.

Therefore...

On monday, I'll be bowing! Haha. Stay humble, this simple act will remind me =). I'm just a mortal =).