I hate it. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

It's been years already, and I'm not even exaggerating. This is why I need to pick my fights. Because getting into the wrong ones just cripple and tumble me. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. And for someone who's obsessed with control most of the time, its just so freaking tough.

Why did I go back to that dog-ear page that I never looked at again? I don't even stand to gain. I really don't know what I am doing anymore.