Sometimes I really wonder what kind of person I am. Am I still someone I know? Did I lose myself to this cruel society? Or did I just gave up all my emotions so that I can be strong.

I feel heartless, yet loving. Hurt, yet happy.

Contradictory.

Might have to do with me losing my ITouch. Haiz. If I never had it, I would never wanted one. Now that I enjoyed its 4 years with me, I'm throughly sad with losing it. And there's no one to blame but myself. At least I'm rationale enough to think of that.

Honestly, I think my condition is worsening. That bipolar disorder. Its gonna morph into split personality really soon.