VCH rehearsal!!!

let me began with the most compo style of opening
This morning, i went to school feeling very exicited.
we are going to the Victoria Concert Hall to practice
for our Singapore Youth Festival... This festival is a
very weird 1 as it is a festival and yet there are judges.
Ok back to where i started... went to school. sian sian
all i think is about VCH and i saying sarangheyo to Her
couldn't really concentrate and the maths was HARD!!!
wonder how people actually survived this kinda 'crap'
lesson was over and i felt that i didn't really learn much
not mr tan's fault but its all mine, seriously couldn't concentrate
went for english although junhao told us to go off and pon english
but then hor, i so guai, where will pon 1?
ms tang let us off a little early anyway so i was at the canteen
because the music room was closed... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
didn't see junhao outside music room, didn't c him at the canteen
in the end, he said he went for english and his teacher let him off
later then us because it was ms cynthia yeo which was a choir teacher
realised that this rehersal was not the shoe 1... sian out
going to go up the bus b4 i realised that no consent form,
need parental letter or call parent on the spot. i called my mum
realised she was out on teabreak... told mrs wong reached VCH
den i call her cos its the same whenever i call her since she alr knew
but then, i of cos forgot to call my mum back when i reached VCH
as a 2nd row bass, we stood through the whole rehersal
until the part before practising walk-in, out
den i got to sit down, wah damn siong, sing all the way
throat also bei ta han and alot of people were coughing...
bad air? or bad atmosphere, i will never know
finally after 2 hours of serious practising
we were dismissed, but then we held miss yee back
tomorrow is her birthday!! got some1 to play the birthday song
on the piano and the whole choir sang her happy birthday
den later the pianist played 'you raise me up'
and almost all the basses forget the lyrics of the 2nd timebar
we didn't practice... it was too sudden, we didn't even know
went back to school and on the bus ride, i was half fighting
and half sleeping. huge contrast right? im a extreme person
fought with jonathan for the 1st half of the ride
slept for the 2nd half, damn tiring leh, fight with jonathan
like riding a strong mad horse... wonder where he got that energy
reached school and wondered why no1 was playing in the field
realised a cruel true that school has not ended yet. its only 1.45pm
realised that the next lesson is Social Studies...
i thought when we come back sure school end liao, so no bring bk
den now siao liao, sure tio scolding... Sze Hoe encouraged us to pon
i was faced with a dilemna, i dun wan to face the teacher but then
as a very guai boy, i also dun wan to pon leh, how huh
realised that the other choir people from my class all pon
den if i dun pon, they sure die de ma, bo bian pon lor
tml go school sure siao liao. went to music room and slacked
slacked until bell ring with a lot of guilt, haiz mayb i really really
should not pon, nvm, no use crying over split milk.
wanted to play soccer den it rained... so bo bian go home lo
and that's the story why im here now in front of this com.
Haiz dunno why leh, beside Her makes me hyper
its not the 1st time, on choir days too, just thinking about Her
makes me hyper enough to go crazy...
and for idiots who still dunno who is Her
this is the biggest hint i can give

Idiots Love Catching Happy Irritatingly Annoying Gypies Enthusiastically Kind
if this 1 u still cannot guess den i also cannot help u liao.

Wedding Dinner

Yesterday night, i was at grand plaza park hotel
attending the wedding dinner of the my cousin which i forgot his name
well stepping inside the hotel, it felt like a high class hotel of at least 4 stars
went to the grand ballroom and saw all the aunties chatting loudly
the air con was very cold i was freezing...
the dinner started at 8.30 pm, and i was hungry...
relived to see the first dish and within 2minutes
everything on the plate, including the decorations of it
were in the stomaches of 1 of the 10 of us
we were the fastest in terms of speed
the first dish, oftenly known as the 'cold plate'
was very delicious, but there is 1 problem, the chopsticks
are so !@#$% slippery that is was almost impossible to take any food up
especially the food in the 'cold plate' as
there were fried food which was oily, jellyfish, which was slippery
mayonise prawns and fruits were were impossible to take
for the 8 of us among the 10 that was sitting.
i was the youngest among the 10 and the next person closest to my age
is 33 this year... so i was oftenly referred to a small boy which didn't
suit me very well. since it was a wedding dinner, and my table were full of adults
its no surprise that half of them was drinking wine.
so well, i drank some too. and it was red wine.
my whole family are bad drinkers and the guys of my family
had the heredity thingy of getting very red in the face
whenever we drink alchohol, no matter the amount
well, my cousins pushed a cup to my mum and she said we 'share'
then i sipped slowly every now and then until 3/4 of the wine
was in my stomach... my mum couldn't drink...
and i was feeling ok, as alchohol increases blood circulation
and hence my face was so damn red that every1 i knew teased me for it
saying hmmz, not 18 yet right, why drink wine arh!!
my mum finished the rest of the 1/4 and then ordered another cup
abit lame right? haiz couldn't help it...
then she jolly well knew she couldn't drink too
i couldn't really drink anymore because every1 told me to stop
say i scmi liao, but then i am seriously not drunk
only face red until like dunno wad(i didn't have a mirror)
poor mum, she had to drink the whole cup and had
the same consequences like me, but then, nobody really cared
people just thought she put blusher...wth man
this wedding couple, are the types which i would call mushy
they kissed EVERYTIME they meet, wah siong man
maybe you would call it loving, but to me its mushy
it set me thinking, after all its a wedding dinner
i am 1 person who seriously think too much
i thought and i thought and i thought and i thought
and i was so occupied during the whole wedding that
i only noticed it was 11.30 when i reached yishun
i didn't notice the fatigue that was coming to on me
I THINK TOO MUCH

sick 2

er... i suddenly forgot wad i wanted to post...
but i'll try my best and remeber... here comes!
well i guess i fergot to mention in the previous post
that during recess i went to the library to blow air con
before gg dwn to the soccer field... and used the com
when the librarian returned me the ez link card
i didn't put it into my wallet immdiately but instead
left it dangling in my pocket...
well when i was at the bus top, with greg
i saw my bus coming, and went up to que up!
den later while taking out my wallet(without my ezlink card)
my ez link card dramatically dropped out, and 1 being a sick guy
didn't notice it dropped out, and went to the bus
tried to tap but no sound came out, searched for my pocket...
of course there was nothing there so quickly calmed dwn
er i dun think i was worked up in the 1st place, er paid the fare
and sat down on a seat thinking throughly where i could have left it
well obviously i couldnt think of any place so i was thinking
how and when and wad the the plans to replace it, instead of
thinking how to go back and find it, weird man i am huh?
well reached home and realised that greg smsed me to tell me that he is holding
my ez link card when i dropped it at the bus stop, he scared i panic
den get more sick... lol wad a good friend...
reached home sleep sleep sleep
sleep seriously cures the person, i am 1 weird person
who doesn't believe in doctors and nurses
i believe that the body is able to heal itself
and well i guess i was right!...

sick

yesterday, i woke up at 6am feeling very unwell
dragged myself to changed and quickly went to the kitchen
took out the dear thermometer and took my temperature
38 degrees! wah i think that's wad people call a high fever
well, in normal circumstances, i wouldn't go to sch
but not ytd, i wanted to see the 4 girls and make my guess
i wanted to see Her! i wanted to prove to myself
that my will, that a human will, is strong...
even on the bus ride, i knew i couldn't really make it
it was too much for me, nevertheless i didn't turn back
i reached home, survived assembly, and went for maths
fortunately, for me at least, mr tan didn't come
and the whole of 3humility went to the library, slept
cool, woke up feeling abit better, realised that
i hadn't do ms tang's homework rushed through it
managed a small reflection, survived her lesson
fully awake... thanks to the maths lesson
after that i think it was recess and drank a cup
before going out on the field, they were playing soccer
i went on the field, didn't really played with them
just jog abit when i needed to and just enjoyed the wind
it was refreshing... went to bio class and on the way
went pass ms prudence lim's homework.
saw Her, i think wad she gave was jus a pure little smile
but for me, i was quite energized or shall i say revitalised
unfortanetly, it was only for 20mins, which is gd for me alr
managed to survived 20 mins in bio class b4 really losing it
slept the rest of the class and headed for chinese class
mr ssm refused to allow me to sleep, so i tried my best
to survive his class, which i did, which also made me so tired
i couldn't survived 5 mins of ss... had to sleep... seriously
i woke up when i heard Her voice, quickly looked around
saw Her ''running'' and mrs janice lim asked me
why am i awake... er well of course i cannot say i heard her voice
so i decided not to answer and... my class answered for me
their answer was: BECAUSE SCHOOL END LIAO!
haiyoo, heck care so much la...
went home and SLEPT... bro coming... gtg
nxt time den cont

I PASSED!!!!WOOHOOO she did too!!!!

well i arrived at the school very excited...
wah 2nd round, cannot fail
promised myself to do my best and 'prayed'
for Her, we were doing warm ups when ms yee
began writing the names down
in the 1st batch, i saw my name, i saw Her name
can't believe it? its too much of a coincidence
but it was too my advantage isn' it
well, at least that was what i thought
i was standing right beside Her
and its making me even more nervous
joel was my partner this time, he had a weakness
he couldn't sing loud enough, but at least,
he could hit the notes, well i couldn't, im tone deaf
so we began with the bad news of ms yee not playing the piano
instead, they're going to use the cd player
den after 2 minutes of fiddling, they couldn't operate it
so ms yee decided to play the piano after all
everyone was relieved and just when ms yee is about to start
the cd player is working...zzz
that threw me into total nervousness
i couldn't think, at all
i sang wrong notes, everywhere, i screwed up so much
i endured and managed to sing until the bass solo
and i realised something, my legs are shaking....
i cant believe it, its the 1st time in my life
where my legs are shaking, omg?
and coincidencely(however u spell it), the verse was
'my heart was shaken with tears, and horror drifted away'
my god? and then i went out of the music room feeling
so tensed that i just sat there for 2 minutes
thinking wads going to happen next.At this point of time
i seriously believed oh im a goner, but i believe joel is worse
he is paired up with a screwed up senior like me
ms yee decided to only report the results after choir practice
so i had to keep my feeling, put up a brave front
and just contiune with life, siyang was also having a hard time
he came out as hopeless as me, haha
well then i had to wait impatiently for choir practice to end
and finally the results are going to be reported
1st ms yee started with the girls and i sincerely
'prayed' that Her name would be called out
well of her section, i saw ms yee's mouthshape
and hurray! she passed!!!!
now its my turn, and i passed too!
abit puzzled, dunno why leh, like i shouldn't pass 1 leh
the leaders refused to tell me why i passed...zzz
but nvm i dun blame them, a pass is a PASS!!!
now on this day, He told me that He dun like Her anymore
well i mean He told me before but my point is
He now like another girl!!! hmmzzz...
and he refused to tell me who it is...
well at least he gave me some hints and i found out
that there are 5 choices, so the chance of me guessing it correctly
is 20% hmmz, i gonna c who they are on monday and make my guess
well i dun really understand why he dun wan to tell me
in this wretched world of mine
i only trust 7 persons fully and i feel that i could share any secrets
because they are trustworthy enough
and these 7 persons will defitenely not say it out.
well He is 1 of the 7, so its leaves 6
well this 6, 3 are my neighbours but 1 of them is in PHS
so that leaves 4 in PHS, who can spread out the secret, which they wont
well in this 4, only 3 knows He, and this 3, only 2 is in choir
and in this 2, only 1 is a male... so there is totally no reason
why He shouldn't tell me THAT secret...

2nd round, must pass...

later, at 11am, i shall be having the 2nd round auditions
i clearly understand the consequences of failing.
i know that failing is not even suppose to be considered
i know that me failing will cause 4 girls at least
to fail with me, i'll be dragging others down
wad i'm afraid most is that im going to drag Her down
i wish that i wouldn't fail, and that Her would pass
for the best of us, i shall not even get anywhere near Her
only quietly looking, listening
i hope that she can wish me good luck before i go in
i hope that she can be in the same group as me
i hope that she will not fail with me.
that's it.

i pledge from this day forward:
No mapling after the march holidays until june
no dotaing unless some1 asks me to
no deliberate of not doing homework
concentration on studies SYF and Her only

i Shall:
only speak, when spoken to
answer, when asked to
ask, when need to
chat with Her, only when i want to

(everything applies after the march holidays)

Hate And Jealousy

Haiz yesterday i was driven out of the bedroom
because i forgot to close the windows of the bedroom
and unfortuanately it rained... zzz
well then by brother's bed, which was next to the window
got awfully wet, and i was outside playing basketball.
so i got scolded, especially when i arrived at home 7.30
so when my brother left the house, i shifted the mattress
to the study room and placed a very good position
even had a good fan blowing up and down my body
the feeling was damn song...
but for this feeling to be damn song... i HAD to lock the door
because if my brother came in suddenly, the door would
bang so hard on my head i think i would end up
in the damn hospitals... so i decided to lock the door
and then my brother came back as expected
wanted to open the door but couldn't(well it was locked...)
then he knocked on the door and i opened it for him
and he ask me why i locked the door.
it was 12 that time and i had choir at 11 so i didn't want to answer him
i only wanted to sleeeeeeepppp
and then he came in and gave a scolding...
zzzz on wad? on me locking the door
he said wad can be normal people dun wan
wanna be theif for wad, dun like to face the light
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i felt so infuriated
i have this feeling for at least 1 month already
i have this feeling of trying to win my brother in everything
i dunno if this is hate or jealousy but i jus wanna win
i dun wanna let him look down on me
which i believe he is, cos im still shorter than him
i wanna win him!!!!!
i wanna have a better career than him
i wanna have a better wife than him
i wanna have a better car than him
i wanna have a better house than him
i wanna be better in sports than him
i wanna be better in gaming than him
i wanna be taller than him
i wanna be stronger than him
i wanna win him!!!!!
i can't stand this burning ambition

1 good song about me is this jap song