Happy New Year

Irregular blogging again. Sorry arh sorry arh. Didn't really have the mood to blog. Nothing much really happened anyway. So well...

New Year's here and one thing i believe many will do is to have new year resolutions. Personally, i don't believe in new year resolutions. Not that i don't have targets, just that they change according to what happens.

For example, for 2007, my new year resolution was to pass all subjects. Because I never ever passed all subjects during lower secondary(thanks to the art). Then later i found out that, hmmz, it is very possible to pass all subjects, my target becomes a easily achievable one.

Having easily achievable targets is equivalent to slacking. Depends on how nice or nasty you want to be. Then you'll see that you will need to change your targets sometimes here and there. If you find that you keep changing targets, there's two main possibilities.

1- You're too slack, the targets are all easily achievable ones and you need to keep changing so that you won't feel so slack

2- You're too ambitious, the targets are too hard for you currently, maybe if you try harder for a few years you would be able to reach it, but for this year only. No way. So you keep changing the targets to a lower and more acceptable level.

I wouldn't recommend having the first one because i think that you would get lost sooner or later. Targets cannot keep changing, a frequent change is disastrous. 4 changes a year in my opinion is frequent.

Being ambitious isn't a bad thing. It all depends on the extent of the ambition. I'm sure most people would be able to understand why and hence i shall not elaborate.

So new year, new hope. With hope, humans would be able to live more happily. So its alright to just have hope, hope for this hope for that. But of course, there are side-effects known as 'depression'. So well, be careful what you hope for =P.

And for people who are hoping for more gossip, please don't come to me. Thank you. I have no gossip to tell you, even if i do i won't tell you. So please, stay off my back. Don't say i didn't warn you =P.


悲伤之时，说出快乐之词

Another blogpost. Lol

Sorry for being quite irregular on the posts. Things seem to happen in this way:
either they don't ever happen, or they come like some tornado.

Maybe that's why jay chou's song makes sense. Haha. So nothing really happened until today. And i know, if i don't update today, i might not be able to until like Monday? So better update today =P.

At first, planned to go for choir and then just go home and be a good student that tries to complete their homework. Then came the calls for soccer. So soccer. Before choir. Now that's a little crazy here and there. Soccer early in the morning. I can't believe i got out of bed in the first place. Lol.

I heard someone overslept until 12+ =P.

Scoring 1 goal in a soccer game in an event that could be effectively be described by the proverb/phrasal verb known as 'Once In A Blue Moon'.

Scoring 2 is my personal record. Hahahaha... At least with them. Lol. I'm famous for not being to deliver what's expected as a footballer and therefore no one cares about me since they know i won't do anything. Lol. Which is true 99% of the time. But there's always the 1% =P.

Went for choir and see dear ms yee like after a month? See as humorous though. 我自认甘拜下风. And another once in a blue moon thing happened. Ms yee played a game with us -.- Simple game that i believe most of us have played before though. and just when people thought it has nothing to do with choir, it does indeed!

Erm, i just realized i have no idea what the game is called. LOL. Its just the 'my bonnie lies over the ocean...' then squat stand at the 'B's. Clap at the 'M's. Abit no link to choir. Lol. but the link actually is that when we're concentrating on squatting/standing/clapping, we actually heck care about the pitch(we're supposed to sing and squat/stand/clap), but then it actually holds. we don't change the pitch or whatever and well, its good, somehow?

Also, she incorporated self-conducting. Will look a little stupid but well, it helps with the singing, so okay lor. Just thick-skinned abit. Sometimes, i suspect, I'm very good at being thick-skinned =P.

After choir, very fortunately meet until Bigbird. Okay, i admit, i more or less expected her to be there. Lol. Then slacked in bookshop and i finally got my school socks. i believed i queued at the bookshop for 3 times before i finally got them. Aww...

Eat some finger food that i never ate before with BigBird and just walked around in amk hub. Because i saw the guys at the canteen when queuing with BigBird in the bookshop, i realized they must have gone to play lan as that is their usual hangout after soccer. And since i have nothing to do at home(other than that big pile of homework that i have miserably failed to complete) i decided to pay them a visit, and played a little too.

And homed sitting here blogging!!! Yay. I lead a sometimes meaningful life!!!


Some theories don't apply all the time.

Christmas!

Merry Christmas to all!
Here's a piece of advice, if you want to be in a merry mood, don't continue reading. I scared later spoil your mood, from merry, merry Christmas, to sadded, sadded Christmas. Lol.

So, did a mini-countdown(2 persons involved only) for Christmas. On the phone somemore. Haha. Guess i don't need to say who is it. You all guess also can guess tio. Chatted till 2am. Lols. If you knew how to count, you would know how long that phone call lasted. Haha.

Sometimes, really find things weird. Everyone, i believe has always some sort of planning up there in your head. You would plan to do things this way, do this first, do that later, plan what time you would do what. Plan where you would go on what day.

Frankly speaking, one who doesn't plan at all is fully equivalent to a fool. However, we are still human after all, not everything the things you plan go according to the way you planned it. Things do go wrong. But as far as you would know, things that go wrong are due to the fact that they did not go according to plan. Which is why they go wrong. Right?

Simply speaking, things go wrong when they do not go according to plan.

However, have you ever experienced things when they go more or less according to plan but does not really succeed? You think this this this would happen if you do that that that. So you do this this this and that that that doesn't happen. Weird isn't it? I'm sure everyone has more or less experienced this. Too bad, this isn't what I'm referring to.

What I'm trying to say is that, you expect that that that to happen if you do this this this. You've planned far and you are 100% certain that would happen. Calculated the maximum casualties and still decided to go ahead with this this this.

And of course, if you calculated and planned that much, that that that happens. But when that that that happens, you suddenly feel everything is wrong. And you don't even know what is wrong. Nothing is supposed to be wrong! Everything went according to plan. Why would the end product be so weird even though its expected?

Until now, i still don't understand. I've thought about this for days and days. When the things i planned doesn't happen, i don't mind if i failed. But, really, its exasperating.

明明就是对的，怎么会错成这样?
明明就是我要的，为什么却不是真真想要的?

Please, someone enlighten me. But i shall say first, i would not tell anyone, at least currently, what i planned and how things were wrong.


有些是我没说，但我有感觉
有些是我没说，但你有感觉
有些是我没说，但你知道结果

Long Hours in school

Hurray! So sentosa was canceled. Didn't realize. Feel so stupid >.<

Went to school anyway, according to my plans, other than the fact that my plans included being late for sentosa which did not happen because its already canceled -.-

So went to meet BigBird at admiralty because she was late and i was early because i don't want to be late due to the fact that i know i would be late for sentosa. Okay, that's super crap. Long time no see BigBird. Haha. Plans always canceled last minute. Guess that's the way of life...

Met the incoming sec1 crowd. And saw ym's sister at the same time. They look quite alike! Don't know is it a good thing for me to not look like my brother. Haha.

Was supposed to buy schools socks because i feel damn guilty for not wearing them since the extended lessons started. While BigBird is supposed to be inside the bookshop to buy her books. That's what the 'bookshop' is for anyway. To buy books. Lol.

Then the auntie there disallowed her staff to serve anyway FA people because they already had a huge crowd. HAHA. In case you didn't know, BigBird is under FA, so by right, she is not supposed to be served. But the kind kind cashier still served her because BigBird already took her books. It actually takes more time to sort them back in, so in a way, the cashier's clever! Haha.

Went to the uniform side due to this and that. And on the way, we met our gracious principal. And due to the fact that i was completely wearing outside clothes which also meant that the school had no idea how to identify me as a student and that meant that i may be a terrorist trying to bomb the school hence i was lectured.

The above was an excellent example of how to beat around the bush before getting to the main point which is actually just 3 simple words.

Then end up the uniform classroom was not opened -.- Wasted a lecture. Lol. Haiz. life's like that.

Went back and encountered the auntie, and made a little girl whom i suppose is coming to our school next year laugh like mad. she tried to hide it, to no avail, because, as you might have guessed, the scene was really damn funny. But too bad, I'm not going to describe the scene. Not sharing the laughter =P. I'm a selfish freak. So be it.

Was planning to head to harbourfront for the sentosa trip and was smsing Jill as a courtesy to tell her that I'll be late, and that was when i received the news that the trip was canceled -.-

So homed and remembered that there was supposed to be a soccer game today. But i didn't know the time because i did not reply YingHui, thinking that i wouldn't be going anyway. Now's that retribution. Rushed home and LUCKILY, Mc was still online =P.

Realized i have to choing back to school in an hours' time. Lol. And was a little late due to my lunch but what was supposed to be expected but i forgot to is that fact that guys are mostly late. So ladies, marry one who isn't, he'll stand out in a crowd, not by height i hope =P.

Walked around, visited the dunno how many months never visit de bubble tea shop and had a drink so sweet i thought another cup would be disastrous if you were considering diabetes as a disease.

Went back and finally started playing. Long time no play. Noob as ever, green with envy as ever, felt stupid as ever. Managed to do nothing much as ever. But i scored a goal =P. Once in a blue moon accomplishment. So must write out. Haha!

Since the other guys always had a habit of visiting a lanshop after soccer games, i decided to go along with the crowd and go with them since i don't really have anything on. At least, at that time, that was what i thought. Haha. Then i realized what 'wrong' meant.

Got thrashed because I'm a noob(as usual) but got our revenge in the 2nd match because Mc was a pro and started receiving calls that i didn't expect to come and didn't want them to come too since i only have 1 bar left(battery). Still can't believe i survived the calls. Impressive isn't it? My phone rocks!

Due to an eavesdropping idiot sitting beside me when we're playing dota, i was mocked, harassed, vexed and felt stupid. Attempts to counter were futile. Oh by the way, that idiot is mc. He, having lady luck smiling so widely at him, hit jackpot and got what he wanted when all he has to do was to get down the train and wait for the next one.

Lucky dude. First he got away with harassing me and got exactly what he wanted but still did not stop harassing me and explaining was futile with an idiot like him who doesn't understand sense but was good at talking to guys unless useless when it comes to ladies.

I shall stop defaming him.
*Clarification*- The above about lim ming chuen is an EXAGGERATED VERSION. In other words they were true, only DAMN exaggerated.

Went off with BigBird(yes, again, any problems?) while i dumped mc with jielin. Rings bells? Lol. I'm trying to make it as not not so obvious as possible in the above. Saving finale. haha.

Chongpang was our destination. Went to the optician for BigBird's specs and trying damn hard not to give in when she wanted me to try on specs and so on. I gave in once lor. Should i scold myself weak? Lol.

Dinner for her because i don't want to eat. No, its not because of the figure, don't worry, i know my figure very nice =P. She tried out Ben's parents' stall. Suddenly felt guilty, don't know how many years since i ate from their stalls, must be at least 3 or 4 years. Guilt is overcoming me. Lol.

We were inconsiderate people who did not leave the table even though its peak hours and there are lots of people who can't find seats. Instead, there we were, chatting until the peak hour was over. LOL.

Was walking to the playground when we have to pass by a very short distance of darkness. And i, being a jerk, scared BigBird until she flew back 2 or 3 steps. LOL. Add that with screams and a heavy pat to the back(that's a very nice term). Lol.

Swings are for swinging. But being a long-legged freak like myself, a short swing is very hard to swing because my speed will always be reduced thanks to the friction caused when my damn long legs touch the ground even though i tried damn hard not to let them touch.

So i just let BigBird swing while i slowly sit and just sing then later walk here and there, chat even though we already chatted damn lot at the hawker centre. And we behaved super like a couple at the bus stop and i believed everyone at the bus stop thought we were a couple already. Details? Not sharing, maybe BigBird will put up, so go her blog for a try lor. haha.

This is the 28th paragraph. Oh, its a long day...


Maybe I'll start writing tomorrow.

The Cycle.

You can't imagine how happy i was when i looked at that letter. $150 only it may be. Some might even find it a sum so little it shouldn't even be brought up. However, i was still all smiles.

At least, that letter proved something. Hard work didn't go to waste. Haha. Actually also not really hard work. Just attempt to study. It does pay, literally. That's what the GPA is for anyway. Haha.

Looking back, at the start of the year, the aim was only to pass all subjects. Thanks to last year's experience, i was super confident of that target. Since i proved to myself that the only subject that i can never pass no matter how hard i tried was 'art', passing all others should be quite easy. And so that was the impression at that point of time. It was enough. Its important not to be so ambitious when you're me.

Then i realized, no, its not enough. It cannot be. If it is, i would die a terrible death. But well, too late. I thought. It always seem too late. Then I'll go into the never ending cycle of draining into death.

Always start to feel that I can study finish everything within a month and try to start. Then will start to feel that there is not enough time. And the pressure starts getting higher and higher. Of course, it isn't supposed to be so high. I'm not even supposed to be hardworking. Haha.

With high pressure on my head all the time, i will start to try to de-stress. Which is disastrous since the time i use to de-stress i will feel that it actually delays my progress that leads to even more pressure, then even more time used to de-stress, followed by more pressure and the cycle goes on. At least, until i break down.

Well, that's why i failed a-maths. Seriously, that's the reason. I know it clearer than anyone else. Too much stupidity in the brains. Haha. Sometimes, that's also the reason why i always fail the last subject. Haha.

So every time, the same disastrous thing happens. Its kind of irritating, having to go through it every year. 3 years already. Hope i won't experience it next year. Haha.

Btw, in lower sec, the last subjects are always 'art'. HAHA. Not a coincidence. Not at all.

And all these are actually caused by something else. That is, the december holidays. Believe it or not.

Sometimes, really feel like a 败家子. 整天在家无所事事,浪费光阴. Plus, the brain always turns upside down. The lifestyle always turns upside down. I wonder why. I would result to waking up everyday at 11am without an alarm and 10am with one. Many people might find it normal, okay. But i don't. Seriously i don't.

I have this super uber strange erm, habit? I don't know what is it. Every monday. During schooldays that is, every monday, IF i overslept, i would oversleep for the WHOLE WEEK. IF i managed to wake up early, i would wake up early for the WHOLE WEEK.

That is super disastrous. And holidays... Haha. Everyday die lo. Confirm late for everything. Haha. Plus, i would always try to sleep before 11pm everyday. Now i can't even sleep if its earlier than 12am.

Really, the whole lifestyle is turned upside down. Its kind of self-destruct in progress. When school starts, i would spend the first month tuning myself back to 早睡早起. Then i think i would miss out everything that has been taught in the first month then use the second month half learning those taught in the first month half learning those taught in the second month.

So when the common test in march comes, I would see so many failures that i start making plans inside my head to study. Then my mid-year would be average, average. Which leads to slacking and the 2nd common test would also have lotsa failures. And then the pressure builds up for EOYs. And well, that's the cycle. Hahaha...


Possibilities of many lie ahead,
Shutting myself to none in wait.

Choir!

Met up with the choir people for acapella practice. Apparently performing for open house. Well, not really a genius in acapella. Not even good enough to be an idiot. The sense of pulse is so, mixed up. I can never know when I'm on time, or off time for that matter.

Which lead me to believe one thing.

Singing lead is so much easier.


You don't have to care how the others have doing since everyone's rhythm is different and you can just happily sing your way through. You don't have to adjust your speed to match the others. The others match their speed to yours. Now that's cool.

Something tells me initially that its Gladys idea to sing this acapella piece. Reason being, she's a fan of jay chou. Then when i see Jill, It just changes everything.

So... Be prepared for the choir item during the open house!!! Eh, got beatbox de leh =P.

Went up to view how the snooker room is doing and i suddenly am confused. Here are my observations:
1. Other than tearing down the gates, nothing else had been moved.
2. The wall being built up to replace the gates was the same format as the ACE room, in other words, a type of design for air-conditioned rooms.
3. The window side has not been touched AT ALL supported with the fact that the holidays are ending already.
4. The ACE room has not been touched.

And this lead me to thinking that snooker is not going to close down after all. Which greatly contrasts to the statements i received DIRECTLY from the security guards. As far as i remembered they said that BOTH the snooker room AND the AceRoom are going to be converted into classrooms. HOWEVER, that is not the case.

So it leaves me in a very puzzled state. Maybe you would scold me for being 无中身有. But well, that's my observations and i believe what i see. Then it leads me to thinking BangLian's statement of not being able to obtain the key because snooker is closing down.

Now thinking of it, not being able to obtain the key may be a temporary measure as there would be construction done to the snooker room, in other words, they cannot afford to have students playing snooker while the workers are trying to tear down the door. And it made perfect sense. Which leaves me doubting the security guards words only.

So lets wait till school reopens.

And my english assignment is too pathetic to be true. Mr white sent me 5 email regarding the matter of REJECTING my assignment. Haha. Really sucks at english. I think we both pekcek already.

The lastest one wrote:
Spot the differences between your question and the other ones

Your format is all wrong

Assignment STILL rejected. Re-submit.

And i had no idea how i could have been laughing at that email.

And oh yah, MingChuen is back from korea!!! Hahaha.

I didn't even realise he was gone -.- until i felt it was strange that he hasn't been online for days and checked his blog. LOL.

Same for junhao =P. Didn't realise he go genting sia. And now they're both back. YAY!


金玉其外，败之其中

Taste

Discovered something about my taste when i was shopping for shoes today. And that is...

I really really have a very very GAY taste.

Didn't realize. Honestly. I mean, I seeseelooklook, then realize the colors i like on shoes are pink and light blue. Which is like so for girls? Omg @_@ I'm stunned.

Finally bought shoes without pink or light blue. No purple either... Hahaha. I think its a waste for me not to be girl sia. So tall, 身材 so nice =P. Although i no curves =P.

Pretty impressed by the amount of sports shop in that single shopping centre known as 'Queenstown shopping centre'. Walk in, see 1, next door, see another, followed by many 'anothers'. My conclusion was that there was AT LEAST 7 shops selling sport shoes or jerseys there. Its... CRAZY! How they fight business sia? Lol.

But well, its no wonder actually la. This is something to take note if you very want to become entrepreneurs in the future. If your shop is located next to a shop which sells merchandise largely similar to yours, you will be fighting in terms of business.

HOWEVER, When there is more than just 2 shops fighting each other, it actually brings in MORE people. Because people are erm, more attracted to places like this. People like more choices, and a large amount of shops selling almost the same things would let people go shop to shop to compare prices, quality, so on and so forth.

It is true that when there are so many similar shops around you, more customers will flood in. But the fact that if your products are erm, lets say, more expensive, lower quality, you would only get lots of window shoppers. No buyers.

I always thought i was more or less a person who is so SUAKU then i don't know everyone and hence always felt that meeting someone on the streets on a coincidental basis is very rare. BUTBUTBUT, yesterday see gladys. Today guess who i saw?

Miss Prudence Lim

I think i said in the last post that if i would try to ask where people are going if i ever met them on the streets. Er, this case hor... I didn't leh... Hahahah. Didn't even say 'hi'. Thinking of it now, abit rude sia...

Later she murder me when we get back to school =P. Luckily my chemistry not bad... Phew =P.
Think i need to go self-study abit more liao!!! HAHAHAHA.


Irony attracts more attention than logic.