Syf auditions!

Well yesterday, we had our syf auditions
and unfortunately, i was... er say very sad...
well i wasn't very sad, jus that abit anti that day
and didn't really looked up the whole day
70% of the time looking down. Haiz
30% of the time looking straight.
Haiz. well i was paired with alwyn(did i spell your name wrongly?)
(sry if i did)!
so i was like... ok lo
and miss yee had this habit,
dunno if you'll call it weird, that is to eliminate 1 of us
everytime we took the auditions...
so i was with alwyn and its either he failed or i failed...
very cruel right? aiya used to it le...
well that day i wasn't really concentrating
and kept thinking about some problems...
so i wasn't practising all along... well when i saw everyone
trying so damn hard to pass this audition
i felt that we choir really had good people
especially the sec 3 altos, damn hardworking
heard that they found out where their mistake was
and seriously worked hard on it
but there was this problem that when they tried to do
it by themself it would always be the right note but
when doing it with the other sections it would
always go wrong, hmmz funny huh?
all the while, Her was practising and i didn't had a chance
to really get less den 1m away from Her.
well Her was practising hard too
and i didn't talked to Her
of course! how can i talk to Her if i didn't get less
den 1m away from Her?
well i at least wanted to shake Her hands and wished
Her good luck.
then there i was waiting and waiting for the chance
when i finally gave up, its impossible, I THOUGHT
i just tried to test my faith, and said( to myself)
"if Her is going to be in the same batch as me, i would be serious"
(its up to you to define wad the serious means, i dun care)
well i was in the second batch and i went in immediately
when the 1st batch came out
and then by dunno wth she came in too
i couldn't believe it, i decided to accept it
wished Her good luck before she went to the position
well sang quite well, i believe but alwyn was
obviously better... you would know things about there
and then finished and came out sitting very near Her
wanted to say... eavesdrop on her...
found out that she did quite well(thats wad she said)
and then sat there all the way, as distracted as previously
was called in the 2nd time, have no idea why it is so
but think that i failed already away so mayb this is
the second chance that miss yee graciously decided to give me
but then, unfortunately... lewis SMS me while i was singing
and of course i was distracted and stop singing altogether
i mean, i am not blaming him, it was an accident
but i jus felt that this accident is too much of an co-incident
heaven is trying to play me off.
well went back to the music room for the results
jolly well knowing wad will happen to me
i jus want to know Her result.
well miss yee said that those who failed this 1st round will
come back for the second round on friday on 11am and those who passed come at 12noon
so miss yee said out the names and i heard mine(of course)
and unfortunately heard Her's
Haiz, heaven is trying to play me till i die
now he is even playing with Her
she tried her best, i could c that, i didn't
hence i deserved it, she don't
well i had to give Her a smile when i saw her walking out
well she smiled back i was relieved...
but not for long.
i SMS Her and gave and so call cold joke
this is wad i wrote:
see you on friday, 11am
well she replied:
Haiz.. yup
and i was laughing, i also dunno why but i was jus laughing at the message
well i jus replied Her saying that she really tried her best and not to worry
but she replied this which made me worried:
it doesn't help anymore le.ty for what u've said.u'll sure pass on fri de. :)
now this to me is not a good news at all
it is to me a very sad thing that tells me that she's sad.
hope that she can be better tml when i see her.
Haiz