Fretting Friday.

Finally, the only day in the whole week, we're not getting back any papers. But suddenly, i can feel all the side effects from those studying. Fatigue coming from everywhere, appearing at any time. It's sometimes quite irritating. You can't even sit still in 1 spot without dozing off a little. Its hard to concentrate.

There's also one more thing that i am suffering from.

GUILT.

I feel freaking guilty. I have no idea why i am feeling this guilty. Its not entirely my fault. Its not even my fault for the most part. I know i can't do much, can't help much, even if i tried before, i won't change anything. But NONE of this stopped me from my guilt. You WILL NOT feel good if 3 good friends of yours are failing subjects as if its normal. Its like damn crap la. You play with them, have fun with them. You don't study more than them by alot. But there's the difference. You study JUST A LITTLE more than them but you get 3 'A1's while then hardly get 3 passes. Come la, which heartless freak won't feel guilty.

I'm sure most of our parents have said this "交朋友很重要，不要交到损友。他们陪你玩，陪你闹，但是考试分回来的时候，他们在笑你却在哭。为什么?因为你fail他们pass。他们可以伸级你不可以". Somehow, i feel like this '损友'... It just makes me damn guilty. I cannot wash off these feelings. They are like flys that won't buzz off. Comes back whenever i sit still. ITS IRRITATING.

And yesterday night... I SLEEP FOR 11 HOURS!!! I thought i was just a little tired so tried to take a nap. Never expected myself to arrive back at my consciousness at 6am in the morning. Haha.

Its quite contradictory to those night where i suffered amnesia. During the exam period i can hardly sleep at 11pm. Even though MOST of the time i tried to sleep at 10.30pm. I always enter my dreamland at about 12. Its really irritating. When you can't sleep. And now? Don't want sleep also feel like sleeping. Its like the whole timetable turnover. Haiz. Perhaps its like jet lag? Hmmz. Should get used to it soon!

Today was the aesthetics programs. But since its a external organization event, there is a quota to be fulfilled. However, due to the amount of sec 3 that went to the sec 2 adventure camp, the quota was not reached. Hence 10 sec 3s have to come back from the camp to come attend the aesthetics. Which also meant that MC's floweridiot days are over. HAHA =P.

Had maths lesson first in the morning. Went back to see the 2 contradictory papers. An 'A1' and another 'E8'. Haiz. Even though Mr Tan Lip Sing tried to help us by doing something known as moderate, i still did not make it to D7. It was from '40' to '44'. So first one call me die 1 time. The second one call me die two times... Zzz. Okay that's lame. Never mind.

Went for the aesthetics program and was standing outside the seminar room for quite a long time and wondering why the other express students weren't outside with us before realizing we actually can go in already. Damn stupid can?

Went through quite a lot of theory. Like examinations like that. Not very interested, but at least pay enough attention. Ended up didn't do much after all in the first half. Most of the singing were done in the second half. First half all theory nia >.<

Second half was lotsa practical and no theory =P. Was taught the english version of 'Superwoman'(the chinese version was by Gary Cao). If you know how is Gary Cao, you would know that his pitch is damn high for a guy. So when taught his song, the girls could happily hit their notes while the guys were there dying trying to hit the notes. No fair >.<

Ended up singing 6 key lower. But well, as least those were singing =P. But I'm still more used to the chinese version by Gary Cao. It sounds nicer lor... >.<

Since our teacher is the BOSS of his company that is covering most of the aesthetics here today, he naturally is the one holding most power and had to go out regularly to 'spotcheck'. Lol. And then near the end of the day, he went to the STOMP(percussion) for awhile and came back telling us that they were fantastic and whether we wanted to go and listen for ourselves.

So most of us went and listened. Honest comment is that Other than the eardrum killing volume they play at, it was really great. Really Really Great.


男人唱的是不敢说出的真心话。